~Yumi~

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I was dead silent as Yunho was driving me, Changmin and Junsu to school. JaeJoong went hunting with Yoochun and Donghae, well I had no idea where he was.

I arrived at school , got out quietly and I did feel the guys observing me but they didn't say anything. Changmin handed me my bag and I said thank you hurriedly as I started to walk away from them, wanting to see Minji and Jiyeon as soon as possible. I hadn't seen them for so long and I felt myself wanting to get away from the guys for awhile since I needed some girl talk

I found them sitting in the classroom waiting and both of them smiled happily as they saw me.

"You look.. pale" Jiyeon said as I sat down

"And extremely tired. You're okay?" Minji asked

I sighed

"I don't know" I mumbled

The class started and Jiyeon was holding my hand tightly, comforting me even though she didn't know why I was so depressed. I had no idea either. Donghae's words had forced me to stay up all night, unable to sleep since I kept thinking about him , talking about me as if I was a victim. In a way I was but I don't want to consider myself as one and JaeJoong.. how he had angrily pushed DOnghae against the wall. Maybe the reason for his anger was because Donghae was right, all of us knew that and maybe another part of the reason was because he hated how Donghae had talked about me. But Donghae was right, in every aspect. He was telling the truth

I thought about JaeJoong and my memory soon started to replay the scene of us kissing. I felt the blood in my veins circulating faster and my heartbeat was becoming faster as well. I was unable to concentrate on the class as I stared blankly ahead. What is wrong with me?

I looked at Changmin's back as I took a deep breath. I had adapted myself already, There was nothing wrong with them being vampires. Except for the fact that they were extremely dangerous and was a threat to me, to all humans.

Suddenly Changmin spun around and a worried expression was plastered on his face as he watched me. I met his eyes and kept looking at him. He mouthed me, wondering if I was okay. A tear slightly fell and this time, it broke. The wall, the protection, everything. I couldn't hold it in any longer

"Excuse me.." I said and stood up

The teacher looked at me

"I don't feel so good, is it okay if I leave the classroom?"

The teacher looked at me for a long time before accepting my request and I grabbed my bag hurriedly as I got out of the classroom.

I ran down the silent halls, since every student was in class at the moment. I was silently crying but I refused to let out any sound, any kind of sobbing sound as I ran.

"YUMI!!"

I heard Jiyeon and Minji running behind but I kept running. I wanted to talk to them about this but I couldn't. They would freak out, finding out that the hottest guys in school was actually in fact vampires and not human beings. I wanted to tell them about the worries that I was feeling, the doubts that I was having and how life was going to be like in the future. I was wondering, I had tons of questions and yet I was unable to find answers to anything

"STOP!!"

I was forced to stop as the person appeared in front of me and I looked up to see Changmin looking down on me. He must have passed the girls without them noticing and he grabbed my hand as he took me away from the hallways and into a study room that was empty. He covered the window and locked the door and faced me as he hurriedly wiped away the tears

"Please tell me what's wrong.. You've been acting strange the entire morning" He said

I shook my head

"Yumi.. please. It must be hard on you, not being able to talk about it. I want to be a friend, who's there whenever you need a shoulder to lean on" He said

I looked up and dropped my bag onto the floor as I let out the heaviest and longest sigh I've ever done in my life

"It's true right? The things Donghae said yesterday... about you guys.. about me" I mumbled

Changmin was quiet at first but then he scratched the back of his head

"Yes. It is hard from time to time, depending on how the thirst is.."

I sat down on the chair and so did Changmin

"But we're not.. hurt by it. We don't suffer" Changmin said

"You're not? Why are you lying to me?"

Changmin then smiled which I was unable to understand how he was able to smile in this kind of situation

"Because we cherish the bond with you more than our true nature. Yumi you have to understand that yes, we do feed on blood. If we can't have it we will lose the control and won't be able to be stopped until we've satisfied our needs. But some things, some feelings are stronger than the body's need. We cannot endure it for long but during that special moment that we force ourselves to endure, we appreciate it, we love the feeling and we feel another kind of satisfaction. Not the satisfaction of our body but our heart" Changmin said

I swallowed hard

"I feel terrible. I've been thinking about this the entire night, what Donghae said about me being a victim and how hard it must be for you to stay focused everytime you're around me and how risky it was for me to be around you. And then all these people disappears, which might be dead at the moment and.. then I'm doubting my trust to you. I'¨m sorry for saying this but some words affects me. Donghae was right"

Changmin stiffened at first but then relaxed as he nodded as if he understood

"I know that. What he said was true. If we do lose control over ourselves, we can do horrible things. But then again, this is where experience comes in. We've been feeding on animals for centuries, decades and we've been able to be around humans for so long, especially Jae Hyung. If it wasn't for him, I wouldn't be here with you by myself, neither the other guys. I know that Jae Hyung wants to be around humans and so does the rest of us. We feel more human and we're able to control ourselves when we know that we cannot expose ourselves, when we know that we cannot do weird stuff that would make people suspicious around us. What Donghae said is true but... we've proven ourselves trustworthy so far haven't we?" Changmin asked softly

I looked at him as he smiled gently

"I can promise you now that we won't even give you a chance to doubt us. We want you in our lives and you're the first human ever that has been able to enter our lives without us being worried. We feel at ease, knowing that we can be ourselves around you. We also know that you have a strong bond with Donghae but I want you to know that when he became a vampire, a part of him disappeared and a part of him is still there. Apparently the side of him, the part of him remembering you, loving you are still there. He's very new to this life and since he haven't been a vampire for so long, he feels the thirst and the desire more than we do. So the person you should be careful around is him. I'm not saying we're not dangerous either but.. be extra careful around.. him" Changmin said

I threw myself in Changmin's arms as I felt myself a bit better. This was exactly what I needed. Confirmation, support and comfort. Changmin understood me just like a friend. I felt him repsonding to my hug and he caress my hair as he chuckled lightly while hugging me

"I know this is a lot for you. The pressure must be big" Changmin said and pulled himself back as he looked at me

"I'm just worried" I mumbled

"About what?"

"About the people here.. about.. you guys. And Donghae" I mumbled

"About.. us? There's nothing to worry about" Changmin asked a bit confused

I smiled

"I'm afraid that if you... are not able to handle the 3 vampires, you won't be able to stay and you will have to move away and I don't want that" I said

Changmin remained quiet as he looked at me, as if he was thinking about something

"And if you're able to stay there still might be a chance that these vampires are strong and just the thought of you guys getting hurt.."

"You're making a chicken out of a feather. Do not worry okay?" Changmin assured me

I sighed

"We will be fine, you will be fine. Everyone will be fine. We will just have a small chat with the vampires.. and question them a bit. We want to live in peace, no harm okay?" Changmin smiled

I nodded

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The school passed by and I enjoyed the company of Jiyeon and Minji. I didn't mention the talk I had with Changmin and when the girls asked me what was wrong and where I had gone to since I disappeared so fast, I came up with whatever excuses just to escape their questions

When the day was over I was more than happy to be able to go home and have a nap since I felt myself feeling a bit worn out and tired

"I'm home" I shouted as I came inside and I heard Uncle say hi before hurrying upstairs and into my bedroom

I closed the door behind and spun around only to my surprise to see JaeJoong sitting on my bed smiling at me, waiting

"Do not.. do that" I said

JaeJoong chuckled as he stood up

"You're feeling better?"

I rolled my eyes since I knew Changmin must have spoken to JaeJoong

"Does Changmin tell you everything?" I asked

"Not really, I kind of forced him since I suspected that you wouldn't be feeling alright. You looked like you haven't been sleeping the entire night when you left the mansion earlier today"

I smiled happily as I noticed that he had been observing me

"What?" He asked

"You're very attentive" I said and looked at him

JaeJoong took one step closer as he gave me a soft kiss on my forehead

"Can I not?" He asked playfully

I rolled my eyes

I suddenly felt JaeJoong's finger touch the vampire mark on my neck and I flinched at the memory. Guilt appeared on his face as he sighed

"I'm fine" I said

"I'm not"

"But I'm alive"

"And.. I'm not" He chuckled

I rolled my eyes

I walked over to the bed and sat down and he followed me and sat by the end of the bed

"They don't know you're here do they? My uncle and aunt?" I asked

"Uhm.. not really.. I just climbed through the window, hoping that you wouldn't hate me" He smiled

I felt my chest becoming warm as I couldn't help but to feel excited and happy about him caring so much for me. JaeJoong chuckled unexpectedly but then I realized he was listening to my heartbeats again. They were beating a little faster than normal. JaeJoong then had a weird expression on his face, his mouth smirked a bit as he came closer and he stopped right in front of my face, a few inces away. I couldn't help but to breathe faster, trying to swallow as I felt him breathing on me

"Amusing" He whispered

My heart was beating like crazy as he approached me even more and it felt like the circle was finally completed as he kissed me, his soft lips embracing my own as my heart was racing crazily

He took a hold of me, pulling me closer and I put both of my arms around him as I felt everything becoming clearer and clearer

My chest was extremely warm, the feelings mixed and playing around playfully as they were excited and happy. I didn't want him to stop kissing me, I refused to let him go and I slowly started to realize that there must be something more I was afraid of, a feeling that I was unable to express or explain but it was there. A fear that I refused to think about.

JaeJoong and I pulled away from each other as both of our foreheads leaned against each other, I was closing my eyes while he was apparently looking at me while caressing my cheek with his right hand

I opened my eyes as well and looked at the beautiful guy in front of me that was able to make me breathless, that was able to control my heartbeats and that was able to make me feel the feelings that never been felt before.

My discussion from earlier with Changmin appeared as I kept looking at JaeJoong. The fear  of them not being able to handle the 3 vampires. If they were forced to run away from here or forced to fight them, one of them could be hurt. I swallowed hard as I kept looking at JaeJoong, fearing that he might be the one who would be wounded or even worse, he could get killed

I watched him smiling at me as he took a hold of my hand and leaning closer as he gave me a soft kiss on my cheek. I was happy right now. I was beyond that, too bad I couldn't find the right words to describe whatever that I was feeling right now

I had doubted JaeJoong, I had been scared of him. I had avoided him..

But I was also curious, I cared.. I had talked to him, spent time with him. He had saved me several times already and he had... kissed me

We kissed and it felt so.. right

I swallowed hard as I kept looking at him, starting to wonder if this.. person that was able to make me feel this way.. if he could ever.. be mine. Was that possible?