~JaeJoong~

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Her body was heavy in my arms. But my heart was heavier. My chest felt like it was collapsing. For the first time in life, I lost something I wanted for so long. Something I desired for so long. Something I've always wished for but was not able to get. How could this be? How could something that took me so long to realize, disappear in the glance of an eye?

"She's.. She's not breathing Jae.. Jae!"

Changmin screams and pleads of desperation, frustration and sadness didn't reach all the way to my brain. The emotions of guilt, sadness, pain and heartache was soon replaced with hatred, anger and desperation. I placed Yumi gently in Yunho's arms and and Yunho who was mourning disappeared, leaving the rest of us behind. I swallowed hard and despite the wounds that I had, I spun around to face Yuri who was smiling

Changmin was right behind me and so was Yoochun and Junsu. The revenge that we wanted, that we were thirsty for. I knew it was uncontrollable and I also know that.. no matter what happened to us now, It wouldn't matter because.. she mattered to us. Than anything and anyone had in centuries.. and Yuri took it away from us. I didn't care anymore. Even if this is not what I wanted, not how I wanted to end it, there was no way of turning back. 

"Leave no one alive"

My words was forced and my face changed. The speed the strength that I didn't have before was there now. Everything that happened earlier was getting blurred by the second, the only image I had in my mind was Yumi. 

Junsu, Yoochun and Changmin took off instantly and I heard screams and stakes piercing through body and hearts. I had my eyes on one person. I could hear her breathing faster as she looked around. She apparently didn't realize that the strength she gave to us by killing Yumi in front of us would be so shocking and surprising. We were murderers weren't we? But we never wanted to kill. Even if there is a reason to, no one has the right to take another person's life. That's how scary love can be. Jealousy mixed with revenge. Frustration, desperation, anger and range

I took the stake that Yunho had taken out from Yumi's chest and the scent of her blood filled my nose. 

With one step I flew at Yuri which caught her by surprise and against a tree that was broken into two, we landed on the ground, my hand around her neck. I guess she wasn't on her guard while Junsu, Yoochun and Changmin were killing with no limits, no consciousness, no heart. Only the feelings of a coldhearted murderer. 

I heard her breathing faster and faster as she stared at me

"An eye.. for an eye" I growled

She tried to fuss me off but I staked her stomach and she shouted in pain

"You took something that belonged to me" She breathed hardly

"Cause you took my heart and broke it"

She stared at me

"You did the same to me" 

I smiled

"The circle ends.. here"

The stake piercied through the skin and I heard making its way into her heart and her gasping for air as she stared at me. Her bloodveins changed, her face changed back to normal, shifting from time to time and then I heard her taking her last breath before her head fell hard down onto the ground. 

I soon heard the steps of the guys getting closer to me and I turned my head halfways so that they were able to see my profile

"It's.. not enough.." Changmin breathed

"Not .. enough" Junsu agreed

I took Yuri's body, the first woman I had ever loved in my life and through it over my shoulders and walked towards the open fire that she and her vampires had created. I tossed ehr into the fire and the smell of a burned vampire rose, even the color of the fire changed for a few seconds before returning to its normal flame. 

Yoochun and Junsu gathered all the bodies around the woods and threw all of them into the fire as I was standing there staring at the flames, devouring every piece that we were giving them. Changmin's slow breathings and his quiet sobs made my chest ache. 

My heart was already gone, now there was only an empty chest that was aching. Aching for my brothers, for Changmin and for the loss that we had to face tonight. 

The memories I had with Yumi was deadly to me. It was as if the flames was eating me as well, bit by bit of my body but the most terrifying thing was... I couldn't feel it. No pain could measure up with my heart crying right now. 

"We're.. done"

I didn't want to hear it. Done as in what? Cleaning up the mess that Yuri had created? Done as in everything is done now and we couldn't do anything about it anymore? Done as in.. for now and we had one thing more to do. Yumi's funeral

The cold tear fell down from my left eye and I couldn't even bare to look at the fire anymore. All I wanted to do was to see Yumi and knowing that I wasn't able to see her anymore, that she died because of me, because of our love.. because of everything that I had caused in the past.. 

"Don't.. feel guilty" Junsu stuttered

Apparently unsure of this was the right thing to say or not. We were all thinking it. But no one dared to say it. It would only sound even more painful by saying it out loudly

"What do we do now?" Changmin sobbed

"Find... Yunho" Yoochun whispered