I didn't know how Yuri, Taeyeon, Hyoyeon and Sooyoung found out about my little 'outing' to the Victoria's Secret store. For the past one week, the 4 of them have been teasing me through our group chat messages.

Taeng: We are given the week off from futsal practice. Do you guys have any plans?

Yul: Me and Yoona were thinking of going to the mall later.

Hyo: Are you planning to shop at Victoria's Secret too? Just like Jae.

Taeng: I wish Fany had brought me there too. I know she's one of the VVIPs also.

Soo: She's afraid to bring you because you're a byuntae. ert Midget.

Taeng: Yah!!! Jae is also a byuntae.

Jae: I'm not a byuntae and I'm still clueless about how you guys knew about it in the first place.

Hyo: Tell us what happened in that room first before we can tell you how we knew.

Yul: Yes, yes. Tell us about it. How's the room like? Did you enjoy the experience?

Soo: Was there any food provided in the room?

Taeng: Aigoo!! How can you think of food when you're in that kind of room? Imagine Sica wearing those y lingeries. Do you think Jae will be thinking of food at that moment?

Jae: Yah!!! Byun Taeyeon!! Why are you even asking her to imagine my Sicababy in that?

Yul: But seriously, did she really show you everything? I mean her in those y and skimpy Victoria's Secrets lingeries. I'll have a nose bleed if I was there. I mean her melons is not as big as Sunny's but she's 2nd in my ranking.

Soo: Hey, hey, hey!!! Have you been observing my Bunny's melons, KkabYul? Oh my gawd. Talking about melons is making me hungry though.

Hyo: Both Soo and Jae are lucky. Their girlfriends assets are luxurious. I mean Hyunnie has a nice S-line but...

Taeng: Fany's butts are the best to me. So round and..

Jae: Stop! Stop! Stop! Why are we even talking about all this?

Yul: Because we're curious about what happened that day and even after a week, you still doesn't want to share your experience with us.

Jae: Nothing happened, okay. It's.. it's just... something enjoyable but torturous at the same time. Anyway, I need to get to my next class. I'll see you guys at the end of the day.

I put my phone into my jeans back pocket and closed my locker before heading out to my last class of the day. Which is also the same class that I'll be having with Jessica and Tiffany.

Thinking about it, caused me to sigh as I dragged my feet to the classroom. Don't get me wrong. It's not that I dislike having the same class as Jessica and Tiffany but ever since that Victoria's Secret outing, I've not been able to see Jessica in the eyes.

Because whenever I do so, I'll be reminded of the image that I saw on that day.

10mins later, I was looking through my notes when a familiar voice whispered my name in my ears. I turned to my right and saw Jessica smiling at me but what caught my attention was not her smile. Since I was seated and she had to bend down slightly to whisper to my ears, my eye-level was somewhere near her chest and she was wearing a white shirt with two of the top buttons opened.

"Annyeong." I said quickly before turning back to face my notes while trying to shake off certain image in my head. I didn't realise that I was shaking my head while doing so.

"What's wrong, Jaegi?" Jessica asked as she took a seat beside me while Tiffany sat beside her.

"Huh?" I didn't really hear what she said as I was trying to find something to divert my attention.

"You were shaking your head earlier. Are you feeling unwell? You doesn't seem like your usual self this past few days." Jessica asked as she placed her hand on my forehead.

"Anni, anni. I'm fine. Maybe just a little stress with the upcoming exams." I said with a nervous chuckle as my eyes kept darting away from an eye-contact with Jessica.

"But I notice that you've been avoiding me lately. You don't even look me in the eyes nowadays, like right now." Jessica pouted as I felt guilty for making her feel that way.

"It's not that, Sicababy. Don't get me wrong. I.. " I forced myself to look at her straight in the eye but my eyes seemed to have a mind of it's own when it started to look at Jessica's nose before travelling down to her lips, her neck, her collar and her..

"Jaegi?" Her voice automatically made my eyes shot back up to her eyes as I noticed a light smirk forming on her expression. "Stop thinking about it."

I shifted my sitting position slightly and felt vibrations in my back pocket . Taking it out, I noticed that the girls had been busy chatting with each other in the group chat even after I left the chatroom.

Hyo: Enjoyable but torturous? Does that mean that Jae enjoyed it but was also torturous for her to be there?

Yul: Obviously she enjoyed the view but she can't do anything about it which could be the reason as to why it's torturous.

Soo: I'm curious about something though. Why is Jae being nervous about the whole thing? Don't tell me it is the first time she's seeing Sica in her nighties or lingerie?

Taeng: It's obvious, isn't it. She's not seen it before. I don't think she's done anything further besides kissing.

Hyo: Mwo?!! Jinjja?!!

Yul: I kind of expected that from Jae. She's a bit shy about this kind of things and also a little old-fashioned.

Hyo: Even I have seen Hyunnie , but it was unintentionally when she forgot to lock the bathroom door when showering.

Soo: Wow!! Lucky you.. The most I've seen is Sunny in her lingerie. That Bunny of mine loves to sleep in only her undergarments and hugged me to sleep when I'm around her.

Taeng: I think all of us here have taken a step further in our relationship except for Jae. Do you all think we should help her to progress?

I practically had my eyes popped out when I read the whole conversation and had accidentally shouted out the word "Mwo?!", causing everyone in class to look at me. Even Jessica and Tiffany were shocked with my sudden outburst. I quickly apologised to everyone and typed in a reply.

Jae: YAAAAHHH!!!!! CAN YOU GUYS STOP IT ALREADY?!!

As I stared at my phone, the group chat suddenly went quiet with no further messages after mine. I could feel my irregular breathing as I tried to calm myself down. Images of what happened in the private room of the Victoria's Secret popped up in my head. I closed my eyes and rubbed my temples. Jessica kept asking me what's wrong but she had to stop when our lecturer came in to start the class.

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As I stared at the 4 pair of guilty eyes in front of me, I leaned back into my chair and sighed. The 5 of us had gathered back in our dorm after I messaged them to meet me after their classes ended. I was the 1st one to reach our dorm as I waited for them to come back. Sooyoung and Taeyeon arrived 10mins after me as I gestured them to take a seat in our living room. Hyoyeon and Yuri arrived 15mins later and were also told to be seated.

"Seriously, do you all think this is necessary? Discussing about something so personal in our group chat?" I voiced out my opinion after 10mins of silence. "I understand that all of us are close to each other. Very very close actually. But there should always be a line drawn when it comes to personal information especially when it concerns another person. And in this case, our girlfriends. How do you think they will react when they found out about what we chatted in our group chat behind their back? Taeng, do you think Fany will be happy knowing that you were talking about her to us and even imagining other girls in their undergarments?"

I pointed at Taeyeon who shook her head as she avoided my eye-contact. I then pointed to Hyoyeon and ask about how Seohyun will feel if she found out that Hyoyeon had told others about what happened in the bathroom.

"Yul, talking about other girl's melon size like it was a normal thing to say. How would Yoona feel about it?" I turned my attention to Yuri who pouted and looked guilty over her own words. "Lastly, Soo. All of us doesn't need to know what Sunny prefers to do or wear during her sleep."

I paused before taking in a deep breathe. "At the Victoria's Secret private room, nothing happened. I repeat. Nothing happened. Jessica only came out once to show me a nightie that she had tried on and that was it."

Flashback one week ago

I was hugging the cushion tight as I heard some noises behind the curtain, a sign that Jessica was changing her clothes. I closed my eyes shut, not wanting to see anything that will be coming out from behind the curtains when I heard Jessica's voice calling my name.

With controlled movement, I slowly opened my right eye and peeped out from behind the cushion. The view in front of me made me swallowed my saliva again.

(Imagine Jessica wore something like this.)

I dropped the cushion accidentally, causing Jessica to giggle. When I noticed Jessica walking forward, I quickly grabbed the cushion and covered my face.

"Sicababy!! Stop!!" I was holding the cushion with my right hand while my left hand was showing the 'stop' sign.

"Wae? You don't like it? Do I look ugly?" Jessica asked as I noticed a tint of surprise in her voice.

I slipped the cushion down and hugged it as I looked straight into Jessica's eyes. "Anni. I like it. You look beautiful, Sicababy. Very beautiful and y. But my heart is weak. I know this is my punishment but I beg for your forgiveness. This image of you is going to be stuck in my head for a very long time. So let's just stop at here." I sighed as I looked down.

I could feel Jessica walking up towards me as I saw her legs appearing before my eyes. I didn't dare to look up as I felt her kissing the top of my head.

"I love you." Jessica said as I noticed her walking backwards and I only looked up after I heard the curtains closing.

I heard some noises again as I closed my eyes shut, trying to prepare for the next thing to appear in front of me. I had to swallow my saliva a lot of times and even placed my right hand over my heart to try and calm it down.

"Let's go, Jaegi. I'm done."

I opened my eyes when I heard Jessica saying that and saw that she was fully dressed with a smirk on her face. I blinked a few times, trying to understand what actually happened when Jessica held out her hand.

"I'll just get this one since you like it and some of the lingerie sets. I don't have to try it on since I knew what suits me best." Jessica smiled as she dangled her hand in front of me. "Why are you still sitting down? Are you planning to see more?"

I stood up straight away and grabbed Jessica's hand, leading her out through the wooden door. While Jessica was making her payment, I kept thinking about the whole situation and couldn't understand the rationale behind it. As we walked back to my car, I had enough of thinking and after helping Jessica with her seatbelt, I asked her.

"What was that all about?" I noticed Jessica's clueless expression. "I mean, bringing me to that private room, making me anxious about the idea of having to see you wearing those clothings and after just one change of clothes, we're out. Not that I'm thankful of that. You don't know how fast my heart was beating inside that room. I almost thought that it'll explode."

Jessica giggled after I ended my exaggerated story. "Like I said. It was a punishment for you. I didn't actually plan to try everything out and show it all to you. But you stop me without me having to do it. I noticed how nervous you were. Frankly, I was nervous too. When you sincerely express yourself earlier, I realised how much you respected me. Some people think that just because they're a couple, they are entitled to everything such as intimacy. But you're different. Even when we have slept together, you've always ensured that my personal space is respected. Never have you violated me without my consent and for that, I'm thankful."

"Next time, I promise to behave. This kind of punishment is not good for my heart and my health. Now I've to deal with trying to forget that image of yours in my head. Damn, you were so hot." I sighed as Jessica slapped me softly on my thighs. "I've always told myself that I'm only going to lose my ity to the person that I'm married to. I don't mind if you call me old-fashioned. That's just how I feel."

"It's okay, Jaegi. I understand. Actually, I feel the same way too. I know you've never asked me about this before but I'm still a . You might think that I've done it with Taec before but I didn't." Jessica said as she bite her lips.

"I've never thought that way about you, Sicababy. I didn't ask because just the idea of asking you about it might be offensive to you." I said as I started the car's engine. "But seriously, after seeing you like that, I've got the urge to marry you right now."

I grinned dorkily as Jessica pinched my arm while we drove out from the mall.

Present time 

"That's what really happened that day." I said as the 4 of them stared at me. "Look. I'm not going to judge how you handle your relationships. Everyone has their own ways and thinkings in dealing with it. What I'm trying to say is, we shouldn't be discussing about our girlfriend's body parts so freely like that or even any other girls. We also don't need to know explicit details of what goes on behind closed doors. Those things are meant to be precious and special to each individual, am I right?"

"Sorry, Jae. I think we got carried away while chatting and teasing you around." Yuri said as everyone took turns to apologise.

"I'm not asking for an apology. I just thought that it's something that we need to straighten things out." I said as I smiled at them. "I won't want any of you trying to imagine my Sicababy in a y manner. Or worse still, any of us to imagine another person girlfriend's in that manner."

All of them automatically shook their heads before the 5 of us broke into a laughter.

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"Sunny Omma!!"

A small boy ran towards Sunny who lifted him up. As Sunny tried to shower him with kisses, the boy kept giggling to himself. When Sooyoung walked up to them, the boy quickly held out his hands, asking Sooyoung to carry him.

"Aigoo, Kyungsan-ah. Since when did you become so heavy?" Sooyoung teased the boy.

"Soo Omma, fly me like an aeroplane." Kyungsan said as Sooyoung carried him in such a way where he was able to spread himself out like an aeroplane.

The rest of us just smiled as we walked into the orphanage. Ms Song came out and greeted us. The rest of the girls then went off to meet the other children while I followed Ms Song into her office.

"How's everything, Ms Song? Any problems lately?" I asked as Ms Song handed me some files for me to look through.

The files included the financial report of the orphanage, the school grades of the children and some other miscellaneous matters. Ms Song briefed me about what's going on in the orphanage while I looked through the files. The last time I came back to the orphanage was about 2 months ago.

After about 10mins, a knock on the door diverted my attention as I saw Jessica peeking in. Gesturing her to come in, she took a seat beside me on the couch. Ms Song continued updating me for another 15mins before she excused herself to check on the lunch preparation.

By then, Jessica had found some magazines to keep herself entertain while I continued to check through the files. Silence filled the room as I frowned and blinked my eyes a few times while reading the documents. I didn't realised that Jessica had been staring at me until I heard her giggling.

"Waeyo?" I turned to face her with a confused expression.

"Anni. I just find it cute, looking all your serious face, frowning and blinking at the same time. By the way, is there any problem with the documents?" Jessica asked as she scooted closer to me.

"Everything is fine so far. I just have the habit of frowning and blinking when I'm focussing on something." I said as I smiled at her while Jessica hugged me by the waist.

"Jaegi, I'm feeling hungry already. But I want to eat with you, so I'll wait until you're done." She pouted while her eyes were on the files. 

"Just a little bit more, okay. One more file." I said as I took the file which has the children grades in them. "Hhhhmmmm...."

"Wae, Jaegi?" Jessica placed her chin on my shoulders as I bend slighly forward to look at the documents closer.

"Some of the kids grades are not that well at the moment. I need to think of some way to help them out." After looking through the documents for about 5mins, I closed the file and placed it on the table. "Come. Let's go and eat first. I can't think well on an empty stomach."

The rest of the girls were already in the dining room with most of the children when me and Jessica walked in. Some of the younger kids waved happily at me while the older ones would bowed down slightly with a shy smile. I went around the tables to greet the familiar looking ones while I got to know some of the new ones.

I sat down beside Jessica who had already scooped some rice for me. The dining room was buzzing with noises from the children as I smiled at the atmosphee.

"Hey Jae, I noticed some new faces around here. Is there any new children that had came in?" Yuri asked suddenly as I was just about to swallow my food.

"There are 5 new kids here. Two of them are toddlers. A boy and a girl. Another two are siblings, both girls who's aged are 4 and 7 while the last one is a 16yrs old girl." Sunny took a deep breathe before continuing. "6 kids already left the orphanage. 4 of them adopted by a new family while the other 2 left after they managed to get a place in our local university." By now, everyone had a surprised expression on their faces.

"Me and Bunny will usually come here on weekends at least twice a month to spend time with the kids especially Kyungsan. She's in love with this boy." Sooyoung said as she pointed to the small boy who was seated in between her and Sunny.

"Kyungsan also love Sunny Omma and Soo Omma." The small boy grinned causing Sunny to laugh while Sooyoung feed him a mouthful of her rice.

"I can't believe I will ever see the day where Soo will actually share her food." Hyoyeon said, making the rest of us laughed out loud. "But it's funny that SooSun will visit the orphanage more often than the owner itself."

By then, everyone was looking at me. I chuckled to myself and explained that Ms Song would usually update me through emails if there was any problem that has arisen. "The orphanage are suppose to be able to run on it's own without my supervision since there are caretakers and even Ms Song who had been employed to keep the place in check. SooSun's visits are more of voluntary work."

" So the 2 kids who left to further their studies, are they staying in the dorm?" Seohyun asked.

"Yes. We're also sponsoring their studies." I said as everyone looked at me with an amazed look. "They have a bright future. Their background shouldn't hinder them to succed in their life. That's why I told Appa to support them financially. But obviously there are some conditions attached to it. One of it is that, they have to come back here at least twice a month to tutor some of the kids here."

"Can your Appa sponsor my marriage too?" Taeyeon asked as she grinned dorkily while I just meronged at her.

After lunch, the girls decided to do different activities to entertain the children there. YoonYul and HyoHyun brought the younger kids to play outdoor and teach some of them futsal. SooSun brought the toddlers to the indoor playground while TaeNy and Jessica brought the older kids to the music room. The remaining kids went off on their own, either go the library or their rooms.

I went back to Ms Song's office where she was already there, looking through some documents. She smiled at me as I took a seat back at the couch and reached out for the files.

"Ms Song, some of the kids doesn't seem to be doing well in their studies. Are they having any problems in school?" I asked with a concerned tone.

"Most of them are just being playful but I believe they will improve. I was planning to suggest to you about getting some tutors for them." I nodded my head in agreement. "But I'm a little concerned with the new girl actually. Even though she's doing well in her studies, she seemed to be keeping things to herself. She doesn't smile a lot and doesn't really communicate much with the other children in the orphanage. I've tried to ask her school teachers about it but none of them could give me an answer. When I tried to ask her about it, she just kept quiet." Ms Song said as she stood up and sat beside me. Taking the file away from me, she flipped through the pages and stopped at one page.

"Amber Liu?"

I read out loud the name that was on the top page. I begin to read through the description of the girl. She had arrived at the orphanage 6 months ago at the age of 16yrs old. She grew up in the States before following her mum back to Korea after her parents divorced. She was left in the orphanage after her mum remarried. Reading the girl's details made my heart ache as I took a deep breathe. 

"Ms Song, I'll go around and look for Amber. Maybe I'll try my luck to talk to her." I stood up and was about to walk away when Ms Song told me that Amber likes to stay in the computer rooms while playing games.

It was not difficult to spot the girl with her short hair and boyish attire. But what surprises me was the person who was seated beside her while both of them were competing against each other in a shooting game.

I just stood behind them as I watched how Jessica managed to beat Amber in the game. The dolphin shriek that ensuit was something I was accustomed to as Jeasica stood up, jumping around to celebrate her victory.

Amber pushed the mouse away as she sighed and leaned back into her chair while folding her arms. 

"You lost. So speak up now. What's your name and tell me 2 things about yourself." Jessica pointed at Amber who just rolled her eyes at her.

"Sica?" I called out to her as both of them turned to look at me with a shocked expression.

"Jaegi." Jessica smiled widely as she clung on to me. "Guess what? I just won a shooting game and won a bet against her. Now she has to tell me her name and at least 2 things about herself."

I turned to look at Amber who doesn't seem too pleased about it. She rolled her eyes at Jessica again and stood up to walk away when I stopped her.

"Amber, right?" I said, causing her eyes to widen. "Is your schoolmates bullying you at school? Or are they calling you names because of your personality?"

"How... how did you know? I've never told anyone about this." She looked at me straight in the eye as I saw a tint of sadness in hers.

"It was just a guess. Or maybe because I've gone through the same experience as you before but I promise you, you'll feel much better if you are willing to allow me to listen to your stories. That is if you trust me." I said as I patted her head softly.

My actions must have steered something in her as I heard her sniffing, trying to hold back her tears. She looked up and stared straight into my eyes as I maintained eye-contact with her.

"I think I can trust you."