Chanyeol was still gone- And it seemed that Baekhyun had lost all of his emotions- the only person he ever showed was Joonmyun- at night when Dara was in bed sleeping, he let it out he cried his heart out, when Chanyeol left he took a giant chunk of Baekhyun’s heart with him- Chanyeol was Baekhyun they used to do everything together- eat, sleep, walk, talk- when Chanyeol left he took Baekhyun away too.

It looked like he’d lost almost ten pounds and Suho was getting worried, he cooked Baekhyun’s favourite dishes, always cooked waffles and pancakes for breakfast.

He wouldn’t eat anything. Cheeks gaunt, eyes lifeless, a walking corpse

Even though he wasn’t dead- he might as well of been

He couldn’t even look after Dara properly- she started school soon though to Suho’s relief but then he felt sad because Chanyeol wouldn’t get to be there for Dara’s first day back at school.

Over two months and no contact, although everyone knew where he was at the moment, no one ever told Baekhyun- it was a silent and unspoken promise

They couldn’t hurt Baekhyun even more than he already was

Or he’d break.

During Suho’s time at Baekhyun’s house he became increasingly close to Dara- because he was the one who was really looking after her.

----

It was a summer’s day and Suho had taken Dara to the playground; he was pushing her on a swing absentmindedly when Dara caught him off guard with a question

“Umma really misses Appa doesn’t he?”

“More than anything” Suho answers truly

“I hope Appa comes back one day- I think I’m a little angry at him”

For a child this kid sure had a massive brain

“Don’t be angry at your Appa” Suho said softly “He has lost his family- and your family too”

“My real Umma? I don’t remember her much anymore; I only know that she was nice and warm”

“Your Appa loves Umma okay? Don’t forget, your Appa will come back”

“Promise?”

“I promise”

----

“Hey what’s up?” Suho answered the call from his best friend easily- Suho wondered what made their relationship become so easy and natural away from forced and tense like it has been the last few years.

“Kris got another call from Chanyeol”

“Really? What did he say?”

“Well Kris is beyond pissed at Chanyeol and well he only answered the call so that Chanyeol’s international phone bill sky rockets”

Suho chuckled a little “So? Where’s he at now?”

“He’s gone to Brazil for a while…”

“Still travelling?”

“Yeah he’s going to India in a few days”

“Did he say when he was coming back?”

“No he just said to tell Baekhyun he missed him and that he’s sorry”

“He’s said sorry a thousand times”

 “Yeah I know… But now we have to make a decision”

“What? Whether or not we tell Baek or not?”

“Yes, I think we should tell him- Tao and Kris are adamant that we don’t because we don’t want Baekhyun’s condition to worsen even more”

“Like he could lose any more weight- the only thing he ingests into his body now is coffee, and it’s not even nice coffee with whipped cream and stuff- it’s black coffee”

“Blegh I hate black coffee”

“That’s not the point here” Suho sighed “I’m on my lunch break now- driving home to check on Baekhyun”

“Don’t tell him just yet”

“Don’t worry- I’m really concerned for him- he’s stick thin and he won’t eat anything- he hasn’t for months or if he does it’s like a spoonful of something stupid like soup”

“Soup’s not stupid”

“It’s not filling- and not giving Baekhyun energy- It’s stupid”

“Alright, alright- my lunch hour just ended, I’m going to pop round after work; do you want me to bring anything?”

“Junk food- let’s try get some fattening food into him”

“Roger that”

“Alright then I’ll see you tonight then?”

“Yeah- hey Joonmyun?”

“Yes?”

“I love you”

Suho laughed “I love you too Yixing- have a good day”

----

“Baekhyun?” Suho called as he stepped into the house- no response “Baekhyun?” starting to panic he ran into the living room- he wasn’t there, not in the kitchen or dining room either

“Byun Baekhyun!” Suho shouted loudly “Where are you? Are you okay?” He was getting worried

He walked into the bedroom and saw no one there either; he saw the ensuite bathroom door was shut; carefully he tried to open it

Locked

“Baekhyun! Are you in there?” Suho called out rattling the door handle vigorously “Baek- if you don’t answer I will kick your door down”

Still no answer

“You asked for it Baek” Suho took a deep breath

There was nothing that could prepare him for the sight he was witnessing.

Baekhyun was lying on the bathroom floor, body sprawled out awkwardly, Suho looked around desperately, and something in the trash can caught his eye.

An empty bottle of sleeping pills

, Suho ran towards Baekhyun’s body and rushed to check his pulse- faint but still there.

Fumbling with his phone Suho called 111

“Hello this is emergency services- how can I help”

“A-ambulance, I need an ambulance” Suho stuttered while petting Baekhyun’s hair softly he quickly told the emergency services their address

“Baekhyun? Can you hear me?” Suho asked his friends face “Everything is going to be okay, don’t worry”

 ----

Suho sat in the ambulance while they were being rushed to the hospital, he’d already called the others- it had been a while since their last get together.

It’s a shame that this was the location of their next one- minus Chanyeol.

Lay arrived first

“Hey- I got off as soon as I could, is he okay?”

“I don’t know” Suho said sadly “Their running tests on him now”

“He’s going to be okay right?”

“I sure as hell hope so”

Kris was the next to barge in, Tao close behind

“That idiot!” Kris shouted “ing hell! Chanyeol where the are you? Look what you did! God I’m going to punch you so ing hard when you get back I swear you won’t be able to feel your face afterwards”

Sehun came in seething

“Luhan will be here soon- he just needs to drop Mei off with his mother” He looked at Baekhyun angrily through the glass doors or ER “Why’d he do this?”

“Why do you think idiot” Kris rolled his eyes

“, Chanyeol, why the is he in India while his ‘boyfriend’ is in ing hospital, just ”

“OUTTA MY WAY ES, WHERE IS BACON” Chen hollered running down the corridor Minseok walking behind him a scared look plastered on his face.

“Baekhyun’s there” Kris pointed flatly at the glass doors “ I’m going to kill Chanyeol”

“Not before I do” Sehun hissed

“I’m going to call him” Suho announced

“Let me- I’ll give him a piece of my mind-“

“Kris, I can handle it okay, I promise”

“I still want him to ing pay for this”

“He will don’t worry”

Suho walked outside on the hospital rooftop, the very top as he dialled Chanyeol’s number

Hello? Suho?

Hi Chanyeol- Suho could almost hear Chanyeol wince on the other end

I know you guys are all mad at me, especially Kris and I know I shouldn’t of done what I did and I’m really sorry but it’s just something I had to do for me and I still really love Baekhyun and I miss him desperately and it’s taken all my will power not to just call him but I just need to think out my apology and-“

Chanyeol- Baekhyun’s in hospital

No

I wish it was a no Chanyeol Suho rolled his eyes he overdosed on sleeping pills

It wasn’t on purpose was it?

Chanyeol- it was a whole bottle, if that wasn’t on purpose then I’m crazy

This is all my fault isn’t it?

Let’s just say Kris wants to punch your lights out

I’m taking the first plane home tomorrow morning

See you then

Suho- Thank you

Don’t thank me and Suho hung up and went back downstairs

“So? What did that er have to say for himself?” Kris asked

“He’s coming back tomorrow”

“Oh great- I’m going to punch his lights out”

“I told him that”

“And he doesn’t care?”

“Nope”

“Well at least he’s got some balls left”

“Yeah but still it took Baekhyun almost dying to bring him back here- I’m still mad” Sehun said “Hey Lu, how’s Mei?”

“She’s okay” Luhan said warily “Where’s Baek?”

“In there, and has been there ever since we got here” Kris answered

“Kyuhyun!” Chen shouted seeing his brother at the registration desk; Kyuhyun looked over briefly before deciding to come over

“Hi, who got beat up this time?” he joked a little but no one laughed he looked around awkwardly “Hey- is everything okay?”

“Baekhyun overdosed on sleeping pills” Chen explained slowly turning to look at the doors

“Who prescribed them to him?”

“We don’t know” Suho sighed “I found the empty bottle in the trash it could have been from ages ago but I am suspecting that’s what it is”

“That and exhaustion” Kris added

“Exhaustion from what?”

“He hasn’t been eating or drinking anything but coffee for over a month- Chanyeol left him”

“Ahhh” Kyuhyun said recognition on his face “I’m sorry to hear that”

“Hey Kyuhyun… You can’t die from a sleeping pill overdose can you?” Luhan asked him timidly

“Luhan- I’m afraid there have been so many cases of sleeping pill related deaths… I can’t say no”

“Oh-“Luhan was cut off by Kyungsoo and Jongin walking in with a massive basket filled to the brim with food

“I’ll leave you to it” Kyuhyun winked “Jongdae; we should catch up for dinner sometime”

“Sure- I’ll text you okay?” Chen smiled and gave his brother a hug

“Okay so we brought ice cream, Choco pies, Pocky, bulgogi, some ddaebokki, rice and-“

“I LOVE YOU” Chen said hugging Kyungsoo tightly “You- you’re gay” Chen pointed at Jongin

“HEY YOU BRAT! I made the rice!”

“Guys just eat” Minseok sighed shoving a spoonful of rice into Chen’s mouth

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Everyone was falling asleep over hospital chairs, Suho glanced over at Luhan and Sehun whose hands were clutched together tightly- It’s hard that when they were having such a good time eating and playing round, that it was in a hospital corridor and Baekhyun was in a hospital bed with tubes running everywhere.

He checked his watch for the time- one in the morning; this was the perfect time to escape to the rooftop.

Slipping away

Suho sighed looking up at the sky- the city smog clouded over the night sky, but he could still see the big bright stars up in the sky, the brightest ones, sometimes he felt sorry for the little stars- the ones that never got the chance to shine through the smoky sky.

“I thought you might be up here” Suho’s thoughts were interrupted by Kris who lit a cigarette up

“I thought you quit” Suho’s hand itched to fling the thing over the balcony

“Baekhyun’s in hospital, I need a stress reliever”

“Is he okay? Did they update on his status?”

“He’s in ICU, stable but serious, I don’t know, he’s unconscious”

It was silent for a moment

“Hey Kris- you’re not actually going to kill Chanyeol right?”

Kris smirked a little “I will inflict pain- but I won’t do anything horrible since Baekhyun loves him and all”

“Go easy on him” Suho sighed “It’s not like it’s his fault he felt that way”

“No but it was his fault for not thinking of Baekhyun- look where he is now because of him”

“Never mind- we’ll cross those bridges when Chanyeol actually gets here”

“So how are you?” Kris asked- it had been a while since they talked like this, time just seems to rip people apart

“I’m okay, you know? Slowly putting together my life- you know I’ll meet someone else”

“But Suho- you don’t want anything else”

“Kris I don’t need to hear that” Suho groaned “I want to move on, do you know how many years it’s been?”

“Fourteen”

“Well year I guess that was when I met him but you know how many times I almost ended up in hospital because of him?”

“Well- I sense a divorce on the rise”

“Are you kidding me? No they won’t get a divorce how could they do that to Luna”

“Joonmyun- I am a lawyer you know I deal with divorce all the time, and I tell you I can see one coming”

“I don’t want them to get a divorce- it would kill Lay”

“Really? I think he could do without that ”

“She’s fine really…”

“No she’s not she’s got this whole façade and when they got married she dropped it”

“She knows” Suho said quietly

“About?”

“Yixing… She knows I love Yixing”

“What? Don’t tell me you told her”

“She guessed… It was back at Uni- she said sorry to me”

“Again her façade”

Suho was about to speak when he felt another presence on the rooftop he turned around to see a sleepy Lay

“Hey guy, Baekhyun’s awake- I thought you’d be up here”

“Let’s go see the poor boy then shall we” Kris announced

Yixing- I hope you’re happy

It would have made all my suffering worth it

….

A/N!

God im going good with writing lately!

Anyway no Sulay here :/ maybe next time ^^

<3 I promise there will be more!!!!!!!!!!!!