Year 11- November
18 years of loving you, and the one year it mattered.
Suho had moved out of his and Yixing's flat, despite the latters pleads, he was now living in Chen and Minseok's apartment, everyone was always at their place now, even Kris and Tao were around more than usual
Chen blamed the baby
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Kyungsoo sighed running his hand through his hair as he looked through his physic's notes, checking through them to make sure he didn't forget anything
He was grateful he only had one more year of this crap
In the midst of his studying his thoughts traveled to the revelation of his relationship with Jongin
I mean it's not like we were lying, we just didn't tell anyone
And well Jongin's always been touchy so I guess no one noticed the PDA
For the record... Yeah it was Jongin with him behind the curtain
It wasn't his first kiss he'd ever had with Jongin oh no they've kissed many times before
But It was their first proper kiss, the first kiss with care, desire
They weren't clueless twelve year olds curious about what kissing felt like
Kyungsoo regretted experimenting with Jongin like that in middle school
In fact he had a total mental
It was after that kiss that Kyungsoo felt his heart heal, all the disgust and self hatred blown away with that one kiss.
Jongin arrived home at six to find his boyfriend napping on top of his books, pens sprayed all over the table
He noticed Kyungsoo's inky fingers from all the writing
Jongin sighed
This is why you do dance as a major
Carefully the younger shook his boyfriend awake
"Jongin? Is that you?" Kyungsoo blinked yawning
"Yeah, I'm home Hyung" Jongin Kyungsoo's cheek lightly
Kyungsoo smiled his eyes arching into crescents "I've missed you"
"I missed you too Hyung"
They sat in their living room watching movies, a bowl of popcorn and a massive bag of jelly snakes between them when there was a knock on the door
It was Kris, Tao and Suho
"Uh hey guys, what's up?"
"Mind if we join you?" Suho asked giving a small smile, Kyungsoo knew it was fake, everyone saw the sparkle that once shone bright in Suho's eyes was now dull and lifeless
It wasn't even Suho anymore
"Sure guys" Kyungsoo glanced at Kris for some sort of explanation
He waited till Tao and Suho had gone through to see Kai when he pounced Kris
"What happened?"
Kris rubbed his temple "We went to visit Yixing and Victoria, Suho was there and they were organizing the wedding" Kris looked at Kyungsoo seriously "He knows something's up with Suho, they are best friends after all, it's just he can't figure out what, it's hard to watch"
"This is no ones fault, Yixing shouldn't feel bad"
Kris hummed in response
"You can't choose who you fall in love with, not everyone has a happily ever after"
"Love is malicious and merciless" Kris said bitterly "Always at arms length, I can never reach"
"What's wrong Yi fan?"
"Me, I'm wrong, I'm hopeless"
"Kris-"
"I'm falling Kyungsoo, I'm falling, and I can't control it" he laughed bitterly "It is a sign of weakness, I'm just as bad as Suho, except I have no excuse"
Kyungsoo was about to speak when Jongin came walking up to them
"Kris? Are you okay?"
"Jongin i'm fine" Kris stalked out of the hallway and towards the living room
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Luhan awoke in the arms of his boyfriend he glanced at the clock, eleven in the morning
Thank god it was a Saturday
He carefully unmoulded himself from Sehun and began cooking breakfast he carefully sliced strawberries and peaches as he placed a tray in the oven
Luhan had just laid it out on the table when Sehun sleepily padded out to the kitchen rubbing his eyes gently
"Hyung? What is that?" Sehun pointed to a dish that kinda looked like bread but not really in a tin
"Oh that" Luhan sheepishly smiled "It's like a pancake... In a tin?"
"NAWWW YOUR SO CUTE LUHAN" Sehun smiled and brought his boyfriend in for a hug
"Yah! The food will get cold!"
"It's okay I like you more than hot food" Sehun nuzzled the older's neck softly enjoying his scent
The smell of mint and vanilla
"I love you Luhan" Sehun whispered "So so much"
"I love you more Sehunnie" Luhan replied seriously "Now let's go eat something ne?"
Sehun smiled and nodded walking towards their tiny breakfast table
They had just finished eating when Luhan's phone rang
"Hello? Baekhyun?"
"Luhan! I need you and Sehun to come to the hospital immediately" Baekhyun was sobbing through the phone
"Wait why?" Luhan asked bewilldered Sehun cocked his head to the side trying to listen to what Baekhyun was saying
"It's Tao" Baekhyun hung up and Luhan grabbed Sehun and quickly threw him some jeans to put on
"Hyung? What's wrong?"
Luhan looked at him with worried eyes "I think Tao Ah might be hurt"
By the time the pair got there Tao had already gone to theatre
Lay had his arm around Suho, comforting him
Gosh how much pain can this guy take Sehun thought as he glanced briefly at the two
Chen and Minseok had both Tao and Youngdae to look after Minseok looked like he was going to cry and Chen had a face of stone
"What happened to Tao?" Sehun cleared his throat as he spoke to his friends
"He was hit by a car" Chen answered his mouth quivering slightly
"What condition is he in?"
"A bad one..."
Sehun looked at Kris who was huddled in the corner of the waiting room Chanyeol was with him trying to calm him down he approached them slowly
"Kris? Are you okay?"
"No"
"What happened?" he looked at Chanyeol for an answer
"Well-"
"I could of saved him" Kris sobbed and if the situation wasn't so serious Sehun would say Kris does not suit crying and well he didn't cry much anyway "If I had just told him not to go to work today or if I had walked with him"
"Wufan" Chanyeol hugged Kris "You can't of known what was going to happen, you couldn't have helped, you aren't the only one that feels like this, Suho feels horrible as well"
"It's not Suho's fault, I was worried about him because Yixing and he was so depressed and sad so I didn't pay much attention when Tao left, I-" Kris choked
"Will I ever get to tell him I love him?"
Chanyeol and Sehun's eye popped wide open at Kris' confession
"You love him" Chanyeol repeated softly smiling
I love someone too, but he loves someone else
Aren't we all tragic?
Four hours later they were told Tao was in a stable but serious condition he was in an induced coma because of the swelling in this brain
They were allowed to visit him, Youngdae kept reaching his arm out to Tao's body on the hospital bed so Chen carefully put him down next to Tao, Youngdae just touched Tao's face mostly. Kris just held Tao's hand whispering random sentences in Chinese Luhan and Lay's eyes widened as they could understand it Sehun could understand a little bit but they didn't say anything.
Baekhyun was having a massive breakdown, Chanyeol had to take him outside, Suho had fallen asleep in exhaustion after crying for so long, Kyungsoo watched as Lay held him in his sleep, as he Suho's hair, he looked at Lay's eyes there was something in them, love?
He guessed he would never find out
"Hey Minseok, do you mind if I take Joonmyun with me today? Just for the night" Yixing asked quietly, Xiumin raised his eyebrows
"Sure but why?"
Lay smiled a little sadly "I miss him so much, he's different now, he's so sad all the time, I want to make him happy, I want him to come back, I just don't know how"
Xiumin gave a grim smile "You can't help him Yixing, not in the way you want to, no one can"
"I'm his best friend, I have to be able too" Yixing argued
"You can help him, but you can't"
"You're not making any sense!"
"You are blind, you can't see what's hurting him so badly" Xiumin was so close to just telling Lay the whole bloody story but he couldn't, it would destroy Suho
"Why can't anyone tell me?" Lay pleaded looking down at his best friends face his hair "I can't let him be unhappy"
"It is for you to find out, not for anyone to tell you" Xiumin smiled "You have good intentions Yixing I know you do, but your obliviousness is a major flaw" And with that Xiumin got up and walked over to Chen and Youngdae
A perfect family
Yixing watched Xiumin, Chen and their son, he saw the adoring looks the gave both each other and Youngdae, he saw Chen's eyes light up every time Minseok called his name, he saw the way Xiumin laughed whenever Chen was looking after Youngdae
They were perfect, and he was envious because he and Victoria were no where near as perfect
Then he remembered Jongdae had liked Minseok ever since they met, Yixing remembered how Chen would follow Xiumin all day and
He looked down at his best friends face again, even in sleep he looked troubled, dark purple rings around his eyes, his mouth was curved into a frown.
What's troubling you? Please? I want to make you happy, what's causing you so much pain and misery?
Why are your eyes never sparked of life
Where is the Joonmyun I knew
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A/N
Tao car crash... I'm sorry!!!!!
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