The girl looked at the paper and turn to looked at me. She re-read everything written on the paper. She frowned and put the paper away. She stared at me.

"Your name is Yoona?" I nodded.

"And you're a girl?" She said slowly at the 'girl' part. I nodded and quickly shook. She frowned again.

"Actually I'm a transmen.." she mouthed 'oh' and nodded. The other two person just talked to each other.

"You know how our country against LGBT?" The girl asked while staring at me.

I lowered my head "I know.. I know people wouldn't accept me and I didn't deserve a chance. I just want to show some of my talents."

The other two whispered something to the girl. She just nodded and smiled to me.

"You good in singing, you dance really well and you can rapping too. Such a waste if I just let a talented person like you just go away without giving any chance." I still can't believe they will give me a chance become an idol.

I smiled back and bow to them. Before I exited the studio, the girl stopped me. She asked to talk privately about me. Omo..

We went to the company's cafe and it was huge.. there was full of posters and polaroids of famous idols from the company's entertaiment. Just my luck, I saw a plenty of celebrity in the cafe. We went to the table that placed at the corner, a bit far from the others.

"Yoona-ssi, I'm going to ask others than what had been written in this paper. So, since when you started the transition?" She asked while writing something on her book.

"About 2 years ago.." she nodded and keep writing.

"Did you undergone any surgery? Both top and bottom?" I shook my head. "Only top."

"Oh.." she wrote something and put down her pen. She lean forward and whispered "may I have a look?"

My eyes wider. I pull myself backward and stared at her. What kind of ert she is?

She chuckled. "Don't get me wrong Yoona, I just want to take a look at your scar not your chest."

I mouthed 'oh'. Fortunately I wore buttoned shirt, so I just ed the one right on my chest. She take a closer look and lean backward.

"Your scar is still visible. People could tell you're a transmen." I lowered my head. She added "but I will try to make an appointment with dermatologist for you."

I nodded and smiled to her. I willingly do anything as long as I could become an idol, that was one of my childhood dreams.

*****

I opened the door and entered it slowly. I have no energy left since I left home in the morning and come back at night. I walked to the living room and looked down the coach. There was a guy laying on the couch while hugging a teddy bear and a stuffed toys. He's asleep. I turned off the TV and make my way to the room.

I put down the bag and files and undressed myself. I grab a towel and entered the bathroom which is placed near the kitchen. After 15 minutes, I went back to my room and wore my shorts. After I found myself, I felt more confidence. I know I had been trapped inside of girl's body back then, and it was hard to act like one when you're not.

I went back to the living room and sat on the couch next to the sleeping figure. I patted his shoulder and shook it a bit.

"Kyungsoo ah.. wake up."