"You look cute in your swimsuit Andy! White really suits you!" Elli, wearing a red swimsuit, called out to me.

"You too Elli! Let's go swimming!"

Second semester has just started and everyone from school went to the beach.

Well, Jun also agreed on coming but I haven't seen him in a while. I still couldn't get over my dream about Saneel's death. Different questions still bug my head like. Is that dream true? Did that man who injured me really the one who killed Jun and Saneel. May thoughts caught me and I didn't notice that I've been swimming in the prohibited area and my foot slipped! I tried swimming back up but my thigh suddenly ached!

"Aaaahhh!"

"Andy!" I heard my classmates call my name out but I couldn't respond anymore. My took a lot of water in...

I'm drowning... *Ting* I heard a bell and saw someone's face... but it was blurry...

*Ting* Another soft sound piercing my head...

The figure got me and I lost it all...

'Wake up Andy..' Someone's calling me. I opened my eyes and I was in this big white expanse which looked endless. 'Andy... over here...' I tuned to where the voice was from. I know her.

"S-sa-Saneel?! How did you---? I thought you were--"

"Dead. Yes I am. I am just a mere reflection. I am your past life, Andy" 

"What? My past life?" Okay, this is getting more confusing!

"you'll soon find out. But now you mus return back to him. Open your eyes" and a bright light pierced my eyes.

"Wait! Saneel!" and the next thing I knew, I was coughing a lot of water. My breathing just retuned back to normal.

"Andy! Are you ok? Don't do that again!" Elli shouted hugging me and her voice really was shaking. "Good thing Jun saved you!"

Ehh? Jun saved me? I turned to the surroundings and a lot of people were around and he was there. Wearing a black t-shirt and shorts - all wet from saving me. His hair was making droplets of the icy cold water and his eyes were staring at me. My mind went blank and just stared back at him.

He stood up and turned around. "Wait"  didn't notice that he was offering his hand to me. I took it and we walked past through everybody holding hands together. The chill of his hands were lovely that I could melt. We walked non-stop till we reached this area with lots of rocks around. We sat in one of the rocks facing the sea and hel aid his head on my lap again.

"Thank you Jun" Well I wasn't able to thank him a while ago.

 "I thought I'd lost you" he said facing the sea. Then I felt a pierce on my heart. I just realised something.

He's not thinking of me. He's feeling Saneel within me. He might have forgotten all memories with Saneel but he's in love with her. I can't deny it. but I  also love him. So do I or don't I tell him about his past that I've dreamt about.

I can't tell him now. Maybe there is a better time to talk things like this thru. I don't want to spoil the time we have today.

"You won't lose me" was all I could say.

He wasn't my lover but I want him to see me as me and feel me as me.

Not because of what Saneel told me - I am not her.

I don't  want to accept that!

--chap end--