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“Why don’t you spend your time with your friends,” ask Lee Shin and close the door. Taeyeon just smile and walk back to the living room.

“But why don’t oppa go spend your time with your friends too?” ask Taeyeon back taking a sit at the sofa.

“I rather spend my time with you than my friends,” said Lee Shin and sit next to her.

“What are you watching?” ask Lee Shin.

“I don’t know, I am not really watching,”Taeyeon answer with a shrug.

“Does something bothering you?” ask Lee Shin back.

“Hmm… maybe,” said Taeyeon slowly. Lee Shin grab Taeyeon hand and waiting for her to look at him.

“Just let it out, Taeyeonie. The first thing we should avoid in our relationship is a secret or holding every though we have about each other. Don’t try to assume what I am thinking or feel, and try to be honest with yourself. Just say what in your head or what you feel because with that I will know how to react,” said Lee Shin.

“I am afraid, oppa. I love you but I am afraid what if people know that we are planning on getting married. What if people hate me or hate you? What if my fan cross the line and hurt you or hurt me? What if your family doesn’t like me? What if… actually I don’t really know you and me to you? What if we make a mistake because we rush into it?” said Taeyeon. Lee Shin hug her and;

“Shh.. Taeyeonie, I love you. And I don’t care if people hate me but I will never let people hate you. And I will tell you who I am so that you will know me more. I promise you I will never hurt you, I will love you more by days. I will take care of you, our children if we have any and I promise you I will be always there for you,” Lee Shin look at Taeyeon eyes and still holding her shoulders;

“But still I never know what will happen tomorrow, I don’t know if what we do today is a mistake but what I know, to meet you, to fall in love with you, it never been a  mistakes. If I was born again, I still want to meet you and fall in love with you, wish to be with you forever. I don’t mean to rush you but I want to be with you days and night. I don’t want to be lonely all my life,” explain Lee Shin. Than he sigh and with that he loose his holding on Taeyeon shoulder and sit with her back at the sofa he close his eyes.

“Taeyeonie, I never told anyone about my childhood but I will tell you my story so that you know me. My childhood is so lonely. I am lonely. My parent’s death when I was 10, because of car accidents. But I am lonely not after their leave me alone in this world, but before that I already feel alone. I have been left alone by my parents. I don’t know what is mother or father loves. I was being take care by my butler, my cook and my driver; they took care of me days and night. Sometime I think my parents forgot that they have me. When I am big enough to understand, I found out that my father and my mother, they have been doing their individual life long after I born. The love that they have to each other is long gone and that why I also have been forgotten. But still my parents always want the best thing for me. I got everything that kid ever dreamt accept one, parents love,” Lee Shin sighs. It was a bad memory for him, if not because of Taeyeon he will never want to talk about it.

Taeyeon grab his hand. He then opens his eyes. He just nod his head before he continue.

“Let me finish my stories ok,” said Lee Shin with a sad smile.

“Before I understand the reason why my parents forgot to love me, I try to do my best. I try to get their attention by doing what they like for me. I am excel in my study, I am good at sports, I know the value of business before I know how to count the profit and everything that the young boy think can make his parents love him. But none of what I am doing get their attentions. They just show their love toward me when they have parties at our home, and that the reason why I hate parties. It just makes me feel that the attentions in the parties are all fakes. But still I am not a naughty boy back then, maybe because I try so hard to get their attentions. But When I start to understand why I have been left alone both of them really leave me alone. That is the start of my life in Korea. Here; because I always was left alone before, so I make my own decision when I came to leave here to never care what people think about me, I am tired doing that when I am really cares what my parents think about me. So with what my parents left me behind, I don’t have any problem with money. And because I am the right descendant to Lee business as well, although I never need my great grandfather business because my parent businesses is much more wide and bigger than my great grandfather make me more riches than anyone in Korea.” Lee Shin stops for a while and just look at the ceiling. Taeyeon just listen every word that come from Lee Shin. She was in tear when she imagines Lee Shin as the abandon child who really looking for parents loves.

“I don’t have friend when I am in school because like I said I just don’t care people around me. But still when I see something is not right I will give a hand to stop it although I just used my strength. And because it my school, I don’t want people outside my school mess with fellow students in my school. That why I have been noticed, in a bad manners; although I don’t need the attention. But I was happy that way (Lee Shin have a small smile in his face). It stop when I start to took my parents business when I am 17 years olds. I try to convert my passion in fighting to my business seriously. I found my passion there too. So I developed my passion into my business and I am success by doing that. I change my non-existence to make people know my existence by giving people jobs. But still the damage already there, I still cannot make myself been a center of attention and I still don’t want my existence been notice because my heart still hurt maybe because I already do so much for my parents to notice me and still I has been forgotten. So to composite my lost, I build an entertainment business because I want others people have hope and dreams and have their existence been notice by others. That is when I first meet my best friend, although I have good friend in school but never once I feel attached until I meet Eunhyuk. He someone who can read me, I don’t have to tell him what I have through in my childhood but he seem to know. He just accepts me and still care for me although I never ask him too. He always tries to be there when I need him, when I feel alone, although I never told him how lonely I am. He shows me how it feels to be care by someone. That is why he became my best friend.” Lee Shin look at Taeyeon and;

“But Taeyeonie, although he cared for me but he still cannot teach me something I really want when I am just a small child. Something that I think I have been neglected too long, that is how to be loved,” Lee Shin holds Taeyeon hand and wipe a small tear in her eyes.

“And then I met you, the first time we met, I don’t know how to express my feeling but I feel warm inside. I don’t know what it is because it was first time in my whole life feeling it. I try to avoid it but after a week I feel like it something I cannot deny. So I call you and by using an excuse that SNSD members ask me when I call you that is to be your boyfriend, I make a plan to follow the flow. I know you cannot deny me by using that excused and you must want to know me because I make that excused for you too. I know I has been selfish but like I told you I never cared what people think about me and I also don’t care at the moment what you think about me. I don’t care if you love me or not because like I said I never know how to be in loved or how it feel to be loved by someone. What I cared at that time is to feel that same warm feeling again.” Explain Lee Shin.

“Taeyeonie, I told you these not because I want you to pity me, but I want you to know that you the one who teach me how to loved and to be loved. And with that, I promise you that I will treasure you and I will love you always and I will do anything to protect you, to protect my love and to take responsibility after you. I will never hurt you, because I know how hurt it can be to be abandon by someone who you really hope to love you. With all that promises, I want you to trust me and to accept me. If you don’t want to marry me now, it ok, I will wait until you ready. But if anything happen because what we did last night, I will take all the responsible,” said Lee Shin looking straight to her eyes. There nothing can Taeyeon say at that moment. She feels hurt when she looking deep inside Lee Shin eyes. She don’t feel pity toward him but she feel how strong he could be when he was a small kid, how much he have suffer to gain the loved he need from someone who should love him no matter what happen. Without notice she touch Lee Shin face and with a smile appears in her face;

“I love you, oppa. I will make sure there will no hole in your heart. I will cover the entire hole in your heart with my love. You must be a strong child back then to gain your parents love. I will make sure you will never feel lonely again, oppa. I will be by your side no matter what will happen to you. I trust you as much you trust me to be the one who love you. You trust me with something you afraid to have because you already try your best to have it when you just a small child.” With that Taeyeon kiss Lee Shin in his lips. After a while;

“I think now I don’t care what will people think, I just want to be with you oppa. I also want to be your wife so that I can be with you days and night. I will tell my members about our wedding,” said Taeyeon. Lee Shin just smile.

“We will tell them together, ok. Right now, we don’t have to rush anything. It is good enough to know that you agreed to be with me, to be my wife. I can wait until you really ready, Taeyeon. I also don’t mind if you want to have a small secret wedding. So, you don’t have to tell your fan about me. I also don’t mind if after the wedding you still want to live with your members, and just spend some time with me just like now. Because it was good enough for me to know that I am your husband. And when you think you ready to tell the worlds about us, that is when we will make a big wedding just like what you dream ok,” smile Lee Shin and Taeyeon nod her head to show her understand what Lee Shin plan.

That night, they spend their last time together in the castle because tomorrow everything has back to where they belong. They have to spend their time in secret afraid to be found by paparazzi. (Actually that night, not only Lee Shin and Taeyeon spend their time together but almost most of the idol couples take this moment to spend their last day together without afraid of fan and paparazzi).