“Are you alright, Seunghyun? You’re acting kind of… weird.”

I meet Charlotte’s eyes and give her a smile. “I’m fine.” I tell her. Man, that’s a big lie. Charlotte takes my hand and gives it a light squeeze. Her eyes have that uncertainty and confusion again. I’m sure she’s not aware of this since she’s had this look everything we have some sort of contact. I’m not sure what going on in her mind. And it’s driving me crazy.

She’s holding back, I know she is. But I think she isn’t aware of this either. I mentally sigh. What I’d give to see what’s going on in her mind for just a second. We walk in the direction to our dorm. I wonder what happened with YG and YoungBae. Guilt wracks my body as I think of YoungBae. I almost went insane from hearing YoungBae’s voice through the phone. I slightly wince. YoungBae’s voice had a certain strain to it, yet it also sounded like he was on the verge of hysteria. It made me really wonder if YG knows what he’s doing.

It makes me wonder if I know what I’m doing. I got myself into this, yes. But, to be honest, I wasn’t expecting “those feelings”. I gulp. Now, in such a short time, I got in deep. I already know about YoungBae’s feelings for Charlotte, it’s pretty obvious. He’s completely different with her. I’m also positive Charlotte feels the same with YoungBae. It’s just that these two are such idiots when it comes to lo—

I shake my head, clearing away that word.

I’m sure YoungBae will have his happy ending soon. But, I know about my feelings toward Charlotte, too. I don’t want to even think about it because I know I’ll be the one who ends up with no one to lo—

I shake my head once more.

I stare up at the sky. As much as I know what I feel towards Charlotte, I can’t say the word. I just can’t. At least I’m not YoungBae; at least I know when I get “those feelings” for someone.

I hope he finds out sooner or else this side of me is going to take over.

Because I’m going to confirm my feelings final soon.

Because I’m falling deeper and deeper with every step I’m taking.

----------------------------------

[CPOV]           

Seunghyun is really quiet. I wonder what he’s thinking about. I could practically see gears turning. Ever since he came back from his phone call at dinner, he’s been acting really weird. He looks kind of nervous, too. I feel him squeeze my hand back. I look up at him, but he’s looking down at his feet. He really looks like he’s thinking a lot about some things. I mentally smile. He looks kind of cute when he has that kind of face… Aigoo!

I look up at the sky. What’s going on with me? Why do I keep having those kinds of thoughts about Seunghyun? I mean I know I like YoungBae more… but I haven’t seen YoungBae for three days now. It’s killing me, yes. But why does it feel like Seunghyun is filling the space a little? Aishh! I need to get my head straight. I shake my head and look forward. I can see the YG building now.

Just then, Seunghyun slips his fingers through mine and turns left. Seunghyun starts leading me deeper into an alley. I wouldn’t call it an alley much. More like a deserted sidewalk.

I don’t say anything, but look at Seunghyun’s face. He won’t meet my eyes. Just like before, his eyes are on the floor. He looks even more nervous than last time.

“Seunghyun.” I whisper. He doesn’t respond. He doesn’t even look at me.

I stay quiet. Where is he taking me? The deeper we walked into the alley, the darker it got. The only light here was a lamppost on the other end of the alley.

I hear Seunghyun inhale then he stops, making me ram into his back. Before I stumble back, he turns around and catches me by the waist. He straightens me back up. I let out a sigh of relief. I’m a walking disaster today. I don’t think I should wear heels when I go on days like this.

“Thanks. I really—“

Seunghyun cuts me off. As fast as lightening, he wraps his arms around my waist and somewhat pushes my back against the wall. I feel the brick wall against my head. I shakily look up at Seunghyun. What is he doing? He’s scaring me right now. He’s not going to do anything, isn’t he?

“Seunghyun—“

“Shh…” He murmurs, looking right into my eyes. He slides his arms from my waist and places his hands on either side of my head, trapping me. Without breaking eye contact, he starts to slowly lean down. I can’t break our eye contact… I just can’t. My heart starts pounding erratically against my chest and my breathing goes shallow. As his face closes in, I slowly close my eyes, breaking our contact. I start to feel his breaths hit my cheeks.

I squeeze my eyes tighter, waiting for it. I felt a slight brush against my lips.

It was then that a man with smiling eyes came across my mind.