Sehun’s POV

Shindong’s Shimshimtapa

I really didn’t know what his problem was.

Was it because now that he could see me every day that he was slowly becoming sick of me? Was he? Getting sick of me? Getting sick of being with me?

Well, they always said that distance made the heart grow fonder. So now that we are with each other every single day, it made his heart um… less fond of me? That could be true and every time I saw Kyungsoo hyung and Jongin together, I couldn’t help but question that saying. They couldn’t be more in love with each other and they were hardly ever apart even in their pre-debut days.

Then what was his problem then? Lately, we had been on an awesome winning streak just clinching a couple of trophies for our second title song ‘Growl’. We were all beyond ecstatic, who wouldn’t be? We had been practicing and working hard on this song since the beginning of this year; it was always nice to see that your hard work had paid off. So I wanted to celebrate. With Luhan, of course, on a bubble tea date. And guess what?

He turned me down.

Me.

He turned me down.

And that’s not all. You know, I was flexible. If he didn’t want bubble tea, fine, we could go do something else. No big of a deal.

But no.  

He spent the night with Xiumin hyung playing computer games and tutoring him Chinese because Chen had to practice with Baek for their Immortal Song recording. What the hell? It was like he hardly paid me any attention anymore. And he was becoming touchier with Xiumin hyung; they even had a solid following of fans as a couple.

What about the real Hunhan couple, huh?

Most members knew that I was in a very bad mood these days and many of them knew the reason why. See! Even they could sense it! Then how come that one person couldn’t?! Seeing how even our members knew, that removed the possibility that I was overthinking things. The only time I got to interact with was in bed since he spent loads of time with every member but me. And what did we do in bed?

Sleep.

Like, literally.

We just slept.

No late night heart-to-heart talks. No passionate . No hugs and cuddles. Just me sleeping and him shouting in his sleep (which he always did, so nothing to worry about that).

My mood grew darker and darker as I sat brooding in the recording studio. I wasn’t paying much attention to what Shindong sunbaenim or the other members were saying. After all, with 12 members, there were more than enough of us talking that I could afford to zone out here and there. As I continued to sulk over the drastic change in my relationship with Luhan, my subconscious listening ear perked up at the mention of playing a couple game. EXO-M members were to choose the EXO-K member they want to pair up with. Let’s see who Luhan would choose, I thought to myself. Hope swelled in my heart. We always chose each other in instances like this, why shouldn’t we? We were a real couple anyways.

Yixing hyung was up first. Then it was Kris hyung.

Don’t pick me. Don’t pick me. Don’t pick me. When the two of them were selecting the member that they wanted to play with, I was busy chanting those three words in my head. If they picked me now, I wouldn’t get the chance to even hear Luhan say my name! Thankfully, Yixing hyung chose Baekhyun and Kris hyung chose Kyungsoo hyung.

Finally.

The moment I had been waiting for the whole radio show.

Luhan’s turn.

“Ok next, Luhan sshi?”

“Yes, Chanyeol sshi.”

 

 

 

 

 

 

What.

The.

Hell.

Just like that? Without even a fraction of a second of hesitation? Without even pretending to think about it? And he picked Chanyeol? Some of the members must have felt my mood grow darker by the second; even Chen gave me a sympathetic glance. My hands clenched into a tight ball until the table as I stared daggers at Luhan. Luhan, who wasn’t even looking at me. He, who was too busy trying to air-high-five with Chanyeol across the table.

Where was the Luhan that introduced me to bubble tea?

Where was the Luhan who always chose me in games?

Where was the Luhan who always comforted me when I was feeling down?

Where was the Luhan who always listened to my troubles and worries?

Where was the Luhan who held my hand as I went through the painful process of bleaching my hair?

Where was the Luhan who would draw hearts on my back in the ending pose of ‘Wolf’?

 

 

 

Where was my Luhan?

Just when I thought this couldn’t get any worse, it did.

Chanyeol and Luhan were very much in sync today. And they guessed many questions right. Together. As they both stood up shake hands across the table, I saw the huge grin on Luhan’s face and anger flooded through my entire body. I had to look away. Most of that anger was based on fear, one way or another. I wrapped myself in anger, with a dash of hate, and at the bottom of it all was an icy center of pure terror. I was terrified that I was losing him. My hands were shaking from the pure fury that I was experiencing as I slammed the water bottle down on the table.

It was maddening and frustrating to be sitting in such close proximity with the man I now had a love-hate relationship with and yet unable to do anything because we were on a live radio broadcast.

“Luhan, if you could change yourself into another member, who would you choose?”

As he looked around the room at all eleven of us, I couldn’t help but continuously gesture to myself. Pick me. Pick me. Pick me, you idiot. Make up for not choosing me earlier. Say my name. I stared intently at him.

“Ah… Sehunnie. Sehunnie.”

Yes. That’s right. How I missed the sound of the way he called my name. How I loved it when he called me Sehunnie when he called Chanyeol Chanyeol-sshi earlier. When Shindong sunbaenim asked him for his reason, I waited excitedly for some praise or compliments from Luhan. Maybe because I was tall and handsome. Maybe because I danced well. Maybe because I was the maknae.

 

 

 

“Because Sehun kept pointing to himself telling me to choose him.”

What.

The.

Hell.

Seriously man, couldn’t he have lied and gave a better reason?! Did he have to be so damned honest? Now the attention was on me, on why I did that.

You want to play honesty?

Fine.

I’ll give you honest.

 

 

 

“Because I wanted Luhan to call me by my name. It feels really good.”

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Luhan’s POV

In the dormitory

“Because I wanted Luhan to call me by my name. It feels really good.”

I laughed as I thought back about when Sehun said at the radio recording we had just concluded. He had been really witty lately. This kid would definitely do well in variety! I smiled with pride as I sat on the bed, toying with my phone. I smacked my lips together. Hm, I could really use something sweet. Just then Sehun exited our bathroom and walked over to our shared wardrobe to put on a pair of sweats and an old T-shirt.

“Hey, Sehun ah. Shall we go for some bubble tea? I feel like having something sweet.” I looked at him expectedly.

His back facing me as he changed into his clothes, he neither said a word nor acknowledged my presence.

“Sehun ah? We haven’t had bubble tea in a while. Shall we go have some now?”

He finally turned to face me, his expression dark yet somewhat unreadable. What was the matter? Was he not feeling well? I got up from the bed to reach for his arm but he immediately moved out of my reach and climbed onto the bed. Pulling out his phone, he sat on his side of the bed and gave his full attention to the gadget in his hands. Following him on to the bed, I reached out once more and placed the back of my hand on his forehead. No fever.

“Are you not feeling well?”

“No.” His answer came as a monotonous and dead word as he swatted my hand away.

“Then what’s the matter? Maybe some bubble tea to cheer you up?” Something was definitely up, something he wasn’t telling me. Again he ignored me and went back to his phone. So I wrapped my arms and legs around his long body and hugged him tight. Pulling out my aegyo, I looked at him with my best puppy eyes’ expression and said as cutely as I could, “Sehunnie… Sehunnie… I want bubble tea… Go with meeeee~”

His mouth cringed into a tiny pout as he frowned slightly. Then he mumbled something to himself that I had to strain my ears to hear.

“Now he wants to spend time with me. What makes him think that he can just throw me away and then have me back so easily?”

“What are you taking about, Sehun ah? Who threw you away?”

“You did!” His voice hitched in his frustration.

“Huh?”

“Don’t play stupid.”

“I’m not. I really have no idea what you are talking about?”

“Oh, you don’t.” Sarcasm and sassiness were dripping off his every word. “You rejected me when I wanted to get bubble tea to play games with Xiumin hyung. I just wanted to celebrate our ‘Growl’ wins with you but no, you went off Xiumin hyung instead. I hardly spend much time with you alone anymore. It’s like you are so sick of me.”

“You know that’s not true.” I did remember turning his offer for bubble tea that day but I didn’t think it was such a big deal. It wasn’t the first time either of us turned down bubble tea. “You and I both had turned down bubble tea before. How did that become throwing you away?”

“That’s not all! What about today? Huh? What about today?!”

“What about today?”

“You picked Chanyeol! Why didn’t you pick me?!”

“He was staring at me so intently, pleading me to pick him. I couldn’t say no.”

“I was staring at you intently TOO!”

“I didn’t see, alright? I’m sorry.”

“And what? You picked me because I was pointing at myself for you to pick me? Couldn’t you have thought of a better reason?”

“I wasn’t expecting that question, alright? I didn’t have the time to think carefully so I just blurted out without much thought. Why are you making it such a big deal?”

“I just feel like you are getting sick of me. Like our relationship was much better when we were apart because then it felt like you missed me and that you actually wanted me around. Maybe it is true then, distance does make the heart grow fonder.”

“I don’t thi---“

“And you are garnering so much attention for your moments with Xiumin hyung that no one talks about Hunhan anymore.”

“What does Xiu---“  Gah, he wasn’t even letting me say a word as he kept going on and on. I had just opened my mouth and he immediately cut me off. I needed to think of a way to shut him up!

“And the only time I get to spend with you is sleeping. You don’t even want to cuddle with me anymore. You hardly touch me these---“

I slammed my lips on his.

I had seen people do that in movies. And I would just like to say, it was a pretty darn effective way to shut him up. Because he just froze and stared wide eyed at me as I slowly pulled back. Standing up, I intertwined my fingers in his and pulled him up from the bed. Pulling him behind me, I walked out of our bedroom and headed out of the dormitory towards the nearest bubble tea store. He trailed behind me, still dazed from the kiss. I ordered our usual and sat him down in a nearby bench.

“Here.” Handing him his drink, I sat beside him, our thighs aligned against each other’s. “Look, Sehun ah. I didn’t know you felt this way and I’m sorry. But I am most definitely not sick of you. How could I? You are the cutest, funniest, coolest, and most handsome and perfect human being that I’ve ever met. If you had been feeling this way, you should have told me. I had no idea. Anyhow, I am very sorry for making you feel like I was sick of you. Seems like I haven’t been spending enough time with you lately.”  I leaned forward and gave him a tiny peck on his lips, tasting the sweet taste of bubble tea that lingered in his mouth. “I’m sorry. I’ll spend more time with you, Sehunnie, don’t worry about that. You might end up sick of me instead!”

His tongue wetted his lips as he bit down on his lips. His eyes started watering and his lips started quivering. He fastened his eyes on mine and a single tear rolled down his cheeks.

 

 

 

“Promise?”

Smiling, I couldn’t help but see a young boy, so hungry for some love and affection that the thought of being left out and alone scared the crap out of him. This was the boy who was so cool and distant when I first met him. This was the boy who stood up to four other boys alone to protect me. This was the boy who fought many of my battles with me. And yet, he was upset over the possibility of me becoming sick of him.

This was the boy that I had grown to love.

This was one boy I was never ever going to be sick of.

 

 

“I promise, Sehunnie.”

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A/N: Hi subbies! Some Hunhan cause I saw the first gif and Sehun looked really upset so I just had to write something about it hahaha! Hope you guys liked it ^^ Leave a comment~

 

Sooo.... I kind of have writer's block lately... Been having some difficulty thinking of things to write. So I probably could use some feedback.... I was thinking of fastforwarding Baek's pregnancy like I did in Baby Story I but I might miss out on the opportunity to write about some moments, let me know what you guys think ^^ Or leave a comment if you have other suggestions or requests ^^