Ryujin's POV

When I read the journal, specifically yung entry na pinabasa samin ni Ning last week, I lost it and I wasn't able to get a hold of my emotions. I am so mad at what they did to Winter, I was irated nung nababasa ko yung totoong nangyari. Until now I still can't process what happened dahil sobrang nakakasama ng loob. Winter is thin and has a small body frame, hindi ko kayang isipin na dinaganan siya ng lalaking police at sapilitan pinosas, she could have died on the spot tapos pinabayaan lang lahat yun ni Karina. Kung may nangyari sakanya nung oras na yun at nakatanggap nalang kami ng tawag na naaksidente siya dahil dun, I swear all hell would've broken loose. Nakakainis kapag naiisip ko na grabe yung emotional and physical pain na pinagdaanan ni Winter because of a certain person at wala kami dun para samahan siya.

We are here in BGC, magkakasama ulit kami nila Ning. We are currently waiting for ate Taeyeon because we are gonna meet up with Winter's new friend. This is the first time na makikita namin siya, ate Taeyeon thought it is a good idea to invite her to dinner because we would love to personally thank her for what she did. She was a big help, basically isa siya sa mga pinaka nag save kay Winter at siya yung makakapag kwento samin kung ano ba talaga ang nangyari the day the accident happened.

"So ano daw when are they coming back, what date?" 

"Well Snug told me na they will be back two months from now, so most probably September or October."

"Guys hear me out. I swear to god susuntukin ko si Karina pag nakita ko siya."

"Babe can you stop it now? All this negativity is not helping."

"Why? Totoo naman eh, kailangan makabawi si Winter and I will be the one to do it." Yeji is looking at me na parang hindi siya makapaniwala sa reaction ko. But I am serious, I will forget that Karina is our friend because for me, I see her now as a random nobody.

"I am not kidding, you have to stop it. Babe do you even realize, you've been ranting about this the entire week kahit wala naman napupuntahan yan galit mo kay Rina."

"Eh kasi wala pa siya dito, so pag nakita ko siya susuntukin ko siya kahit maliit tska mukang delicate yung muka niya."

"Hahaha what the Ry? Are you seriously gonna hurt Karina?"

"Oo Heejin bakit, babawi ako for Winter."

"You're not using your brain again. Makinig ka nga sakin Ryujin, alam mo nagagalit din ako sakanya dahil sa ginawa niya kay Winter. Pero kasi, based on what Winter wrote there and with how things have transpired that day, I kinda feel like there was something more happening between them. I don't know how to explain it pero may kutob ako na kakaiba. Naiisip niyo ba yun or ako lang?"

"What do you mean by that Heej?"

"Ikaw Yej what do you think? Kasi tignan niyo ha, makinig kayong dalawa Ning and Ry bago kayo manakit or mag assume ng kung ano ano."

"Okay sige you have our attention."

"Si Karina from the start na naging sila hanggang nung time na nasa New York na siya, she did not change, she's still the same Rina na sobrang maalaga and mabait kay Winter. You get what I mean? Hooked pa din siya kay Winter, mahal na mahal niya pa din kahit nung umalis na siya, kaya parang sobrang weird na bigla siyang nagbago tapos ganun kabilis, hindi kayo nagtataka? I do think that something is going on with her, for me dalawa lang yung possible reasons eh. It's either nagcheat siya and she likes someone else or maybe she has mental issues."

"How did you come up with that idea naman?" First time may nag open ng ganito with regards to happened to Winter kaya gusto ko din malaman yung thoughts ni Heejin.

"That day na pinabasa satin ni Ning yung nangyari sakanila, bigla ko lang naisip because I really find it odd na nagbago ng ganun si Karina. Chneck ko yung mga messages niya nung August last year. Puro tungkol kay Winter eh, puro ganito, here basahin niyo ito yung mga last."

Karina Yu:  heej can you remind Winter to not drive kapag uminom kayo mamaya, i'm gonna ask their driver or our driver to pick her up nalang. please? thank you heejin!

Karina Yu:  hi heej can I ask you a favor? can you please tell Winter to wear a helmet and apply some sunscreen before kayo mag cruise mamaya, thank you!

Karina Yu:  heej I heard na aalis daw kayo later for dinner? can you force winter to eat some greens? kayang kaya kasi niya si Ryujin and Ning eh, baka sayo makinig siya. kindly remind her lang thank you so much heejin!  

"Heej I have a question to ask, kasi may napansin lang ako."

"Ano yun Ning?"

"Bakit hindi mo nirreplyan si Karina?"

"Eh pano naman kasi, pag nag reply ako ang dami niya pang sinasabi, napaka daming additional pahabol para kay Winter. Hardcore na pass the message eh, parang ipapadaan niya sakin yung pagalit niya kay Winter kasi ang tigas ng ulo ni tanga. Kaya hindi ko nalang nirreplyan ginagawa ko nalang kung ano yung favor niya."

"Hahaha what the , yeah actually totoo yan, ganyan nga din mga messages samin ni Karina nung nasa Nyc na siya. Parang kulang nalang hanapan na niya ng baby sitter si Winter."

"See I told you, so ano gets niyo na ba yung point ko?"

"Hindi."

"Tangina ano ba yan. Yej malamang ikaw naggets mo yung sinasabi ko."

"Yeah that's why I do not want to comment and react hangga't hindi ko nakakausap si Giselle in person. You have a good point and that's possible."

"So you are saying na baka kaya nagawa ni Karina yun because something is going on with her?"

"Yeah or nag cheat siya, simple as that. Yun lang yung nakikita ko na possible reasons. Kasi yung messages niya August last year lang yun eh, dba sabi ni Winter nagbago daw si Rina I think that was end of August?"

"Oo ganun yung nakasulat sa journal."

"Yung falling out of love reason I kinda don't believe it unang rinig ko palang. Hindi tayo kukulitin ni Karina about sa sunscreen and sa kung anong mga kinakain ni Winter kung hindi na niya mahal yun. Let's be real, hindi nawawala ng ganun kabilis yung love and companionship. Maybe something is up so it's hard to judge and assume things. Ang sakin lang, I wanna hear what she has to say because definitely meron yan. Lalo na ganun kagrabe yung nangyari tapos nakulong pa, hindi niya kayang gawin kay Winter yun kung nasa tamang pagiisip siya."

"Parang medyo ganyan yung sinabi ni Snug, pag uwi daw nila dito that's the first thing that she wants to do dahil kailangan, kakausapin niya daw kami ni Ryujin because it is important and she also said that she needs our help."

"Tungkol saan kaya yun Ning, did she give you a hint?"

"Ayaw niya kasi sabihin sakin Yej kaya nga naiirita ako. Baka daw hindi ko maintindihan kaya dapat daw sa personal."

"Ning parang alam ko na kung bakit ayaw sabihin sayo ni Gigi kung ano yun."

"Tingin mo, bakit kaya Ry?"

"Tingin mo Ning bakit kaya?"

"Hahahahaha Ning ginagago ka na nito ni Ryujin. Ibig niya sabihin naiisip ni Giselle na chismosa ka kaya ayaw niya sabihin sayo."

"Hahahaha mismo. Baka kasi alam ni Gigi na hindi mo kaya pigilan bibig mo. Mag kkwento ka sa iba kaya gusto niya sa personal eh."

"Ang leche niyo ha!"

"O bakit hindi ba totoo? Tignan mo nga yung journal ni Winter oh, kahit saan ka ata magpunta dala dala mo na."

"How did you get that ba Ning? oh my god. This is what I have been telling you guys, a journal is personal. You just did the worst invasion of privacy to your best friend."

"Yan totoo nga, yan yung sinasabi ko sayo dati pa pero hindi ka namin maawat."

"Oh shut up babe, don't comment on Ning kasi I know na ikaw din madami ka ng nabasa from Winter's journal. Lagot talaga kayo pag nagising siya, you have read everything I cannot believe you two."

"Sorry na Yej, nakakamiss kasi yung mga nangyari dati and oh my god her journal, it contains a lot of tea."

"Hahaha pano ba kasi napunta sayo yan?"

"Nako Heejin. Pinakaiusapan lang yan ni ate Taeyeon na hanapin yung important documents nung day na nangyari yun, tapos ito si gaga more presenta and ayos pa siya nung bedroom ni Winter pero nagkakalikot na pala ng kung ano ano, hanggang sa nabasa niya yan."

"Hala hahahahaha ang gago mo talaga Ning. Alam ba ni ate Taeyeon na kinuha mo yan?"

"Siyempre hindi edi kinutusan ako nun. Ibabalik ko nalang to pag nagising na si Winter."

"Ang gaga mo talaga jusko. Wait lang, babe should we tell ate Taeyeon about dun sa nangyari kay Winter sa Nyc?"

"No! We don't have the right to tell anyone kasi alam niyo na nga na ayaw ipasabi ni Winter. Only her and Rina have the right to talk about it to their families. Wag na kayo makialam dun dahil baka maging magulo lalo."

"Ayan yung problema eh, kayo yung best friends kaso kayong dalawa din yung pinaka madaldal. Keep your mouth shut ngayon lang, do it for Winter. Dadating din yung time na malalaman nila ate Taeyeon yan. Wag kayong mangunguna and please wag muna kayo magcomment or magalit kay Karina kasi hindi pa natin alam yung side niya."

"Tangina ikaw ba yan Heejin, bakit naging level headed ka na? kadiri ka hindi ikaw yan."

"Hahaha you Ryujin. We need to grow up ano ba."

"Eh basta susuntukin ko si Karina! Saktong sakto sa muka niya tong kamao ko!"

"Gago tumigil ka nga, friend din natin yun tapos sasaktan mo? Tingin mo matutuwa si Winter pag ginawa mo kay Rina yun? Grow the up Ry."

"Eh basta, kailangan makabawi si Winter, malamang natrauma siya dahil dun. Hindi pwedeng ganun nalang."

"Babe stop it or else ikaw yung mattrauma sakin pag hindi ka pa tumigil sa mga ganyan mo."

"Hahahahahaha o ayan, humirit na si Yeji."

"Okay hindi na nga eh."

Habang nagtatawanan kami, napansin ko na may sinisilip si Ning sa parking na tapat lang ng resto. "Guys si ate Taeyeon yun dba, sino yung kasama niya?! Namalikmata ako akala ko si Winter."

"Asan ba?"

"Ayun nakatayo sila sa tabi ng car."

" oo nga, sino yun?!"

" akala ko din si Winter, kinabahan ako."

Sinisilip namin si ate Taeyeon, may kausap siya sa labas ng kotse niya. She is with a girl na unang tingin aakalain mo talagang si Winter. Same height niya, skinny tapos parehas din sa dating hairstyle niya, the girl is in a short bob with fringe. Malakas kutob ko, yung kasama ngayon ni ate, she is the new friend that Winter met during her stay in the island.

"Guys do you notice parang ang cool nung girl."

"Oo nga eh pansin ko din, gagi sure ako siya yung dj. Pwede sila maging kambal ni Winter noh?"

"Yeah sigurado that's her, iba yung dating eh, she's cool and fashionable. Pustahan tayo ang ganda ng taste tsaka sobrang cultured niyan."

"Ayan nanaman yung mga pustahan mo Heejin."

"Guys I think magiging friend ko siya, parang ang cool talaga ng dating niya eh, so stylish."

"Magiging friend mo Ning? Sige ifriend mo para may mga vip pass tayo sa mga music festivals ha nag ggig daw yan dun eh sabi ni ate."

"Oo magiging close kami niyan nassense ko na ngayon palang."

"Hahahahaha tignan natin, pag close na kayo hingi ka ng backstage passes sa mga EDM fest."

"Hahaha grabe hindi mo pa nga siya nammeet Ry napaka user mo na kagad."

"Babe keep quiet and umayos na kayo, they are coming in." 

Pinapanood namin sila, they are entering the restaurant at naguusap sila habang naglalakad papasok. Nung mas nakikita na namin yung girl na kasama ni ate, I noticed that she kinda looks familiar. Hindi ko alam kung saan ko siya nakita pero sure ako na nakita ko na siya dati.

"Hi ate Taeyeon!" Bati ni Ning kay ate nung dumating na sila sa table namin. "Hi guys I'm sorry I'm late. Nag order na kayo?"

"It's alright, galing ka pa sa Alabang eh. Hindi kami nag order hinintay namin kayo." Sagot ko sakanya at umusog kami ni Yeji para makaupo siya.

"Guys by the way." Napatingin kami sa girl sa tabi niya, she's smiling at us and she looks really nice and approachable kahit parang masyadong hip yung dating niya. Nagtuloy ng magsalita si ate Taeyeon. "Guys I would like you to meet Chaewon, a friend of Winter's."

"Hello, it's a pleasure to meet all of you, I'm Chaewon. Chaewon Kim." I leaned forward and I offered a handshake."Hi Chaewon, I'm Ryujin, one of Winter's best friend, and this is my girlfriend."

"It's nice to meet you, I'm Yeji."

"Hi Chaewon I'm Ningning Yizhuo, Winter's much cooler best friend."

"It's nice to meet you Chaewon, I'm Heejin, Winter's friend."

"It is really nice to finally meet you guys."

"Uhm tara, maybe we can order now I'm sure gutom na din kayo kanina pa ata kayo naghihintay. Chaewon have a seat."

Natatawa kami nila Heejin sa itsura ni Ning, parang akala mo nakapag imprint na siya kay Chaewon at mukang na-target locked na niya.

"Chaewon you can sit here beside me. Mukang magkakasundo tayo eh."

"Sure, thank you Ningning." 

Nag usugan si Heej at Ning to make space for Chaewon. Yung pwesto namin, magkatabi si Heej, Ning and Chaewon tapos si babe, ako and si ate Taeyeon. Si Ning pa talaga yung napunta sa harap ko kaya malamang puro kagagahan nanaman to.

"Did you just call me Ningning?"

"Yeah, do you have any other names that you prefer?"

"Ning nalang because the other one is too long and redundant na yung isang Ning." Natawa si ate Taeyeon habang nagbabasa ng menu nung marinig niya yung sinabi ni Ning.

"Why are you laughing guys? I think naman magiging close ka na namin after this so you have the license to call me by my nickname na."

"Yeah I think so too, okay from now on I'll be calling you Ning."

"I'm guessing you can understand tagalog naman right?" Tanong ni ate Taeyeon.

"Yeah I do, marunong po ako."

Nung nakikita ko na siya ng malapitan, mas nakakasigurado ako na nakita ko na siya dati pero hindi ko lang masabi kung saan. Her hairstyle, her outfit it reminds me of how she looks really familiar. I think we've met her before and I am sure of it.

"Guys may mga napili na ako ha. Chaewon perhaps you wanna order something from the menu?"

"Anything will do ate Taeyeon, Im fine. Thanks."

"Where are you from Chaewon?" Nag start na ng conversation si Yeji habang busy mag order si ate Taeyeon. Nag agree nalang kami sa kung anong food yung inoorder niya since mas excited kami makilala yung new friend ni Winter at malaman kung ano ba talaga yung nangyari sakanya.

"I am staying in Makati now but I live in London and in the US."

"You are always away?"

"Yeah it's because of my work, I have to be flying all the time."

"You live in London? Where exactly?"

"If you have heard of the neighborhood named Shoreditch, that's where my loft is located."

"Familiar is that in East London?"

"Yes, that's where I am based."

"I see, and in the US in which state do you live?"

"In New York. That's basically it, I transfer to these countries the whole year. Parang paikot ikot ako, but for the past five years I often go back here because I'm running a cafe in Makati."

"So you have a cafe here?" Nacurious ako lalo sa sinabi niya, possible na dun ko siya nakita sa cafe or somewhere in Makati. We continued asking her about her background dahil hindi pa naman dumadating orders namin. "Sorry but what do you do in London? I apologize if we are being too probing ang dami namin tanong sayo."

"Hahaha it's fine with me,you don't need to worry about it. Basically I produce music and I dj, that's my main thing."

"Oh so you are a dj?! That's amazing."

Ang galing lang ng comment ni Ning, ang galing niya umarte. Yung reaction niya as if hindi niya pa alam kung ano yung trabaho ni Chaewon kahit nung isang linggo pa naman talaga namin siya pinaguusapan.

"Saan usually yung gigs mo, and you mentioned that you have a cafe is that like one of your other interests?"

"Hmm somewhat, because I've been wanting to have an artisan cafe even when I was younger. With the gigs, I would say it depends on the invitations, but mostly we go to Europe since they have the biggest edm festivals. We also book gigs in the US mainly in Vegas, LA and Miami. We also do shows in fashion after p