** Song for this chapter Girls Have Fun by Tyga & G-Eazy https://open.spotify.com/track/1NHlyKgtR4roNylOhidKSv?si=a5a6680a3cf648ca**

*Current*

"bakit naman sayang kung hindi namin makikita Ning? It's not our loss, we're all committed..."

"O dba ang galing, sobrang kinain niyo din yung sinabi niyo. Hindi na kayo nahiya kay Yeji and Karina."

"Ning ano ba wag mo na nga paalala yan. Naging okay and naayos din naman kagad yan eh."

"Ewan ko sayo ang dami niyo kasing alam. Yun pala meaning niyang North, South, East and West na yan grabe parang four years bago ko pa nalaman."

Naalala ko pa yung araw ng dance recital ni Ning, never ko makakalimutan yun kasi dun nagsimula yung cause of our first major fight. I remember, that night wala naman naging problema sobrang saya pa nga kasi chill lang, awesome music, ang daming drinks and good company.

Para kaming twins ni Karina nun or aakalain mo nagdala siya ng kapatid sa party. Walang minuto na hindi kami magkasama at nag stay lang ako sa tabi niya. Na-introduce din samin nun yung mga classmates ni Ning and of course as a couple yung pakilala samin ni Rina. Pero three days after nung gabing yun, may nagawa kaming mali ni Ryujin that made Yeji and Karina extremely upset. Sobrang natuto na ako, yan na din yung first and last na may nangyaring ganyan sa relationship namin. Hindi na talaga ako umulit.

Isusulat ko pa ba dito sa journal yun,okay sige na nga. I'm going to write it down, pero ang balak ko after ng chaotic getaways namin nung school break before third year college, yung mga important events nalang about samin ni Rina and mga friends ko yung isusulat ko dito, like nung nasuspend bigla yung classes namin tapos sobrang nag struggle kami, yung birthday party ni Gigi na may pasabog, iba't ibang kagaguhan in between,yung first anniversary namin ng baby ko, yung graduation niya na sobrang saya,kung pano kami nag adjust nung adulting 101 na, thesis and yung naging employed na ako.

Two Days Before Camping 

Winter Kim:   Rina please, talk to me. Kaninang umaga pa ako andito sa labas ng gate, kahit sumilip ka lang. 

Winter Kim:   Karina please I'm really sorry babe

Winter Kim:   baby please, kausapin mo naman ako

*Read*

"Winter? Andito ka nanaman? Why don't you come in?"

"Hi ate Irene. Bawal po kasi ako pumasok, bilin daw ni Rina sa guards niyo pati yung mga kasama niyo po sa bahay sinabihan din niya."

"Oh my god, you know I can't meddle with my sister's affairs. Pero two consecutive days ka ng nag ccamp outside our property. Let's go inside, pag usapan niyo na whatever it is. Baka makahalata pa sila dad and malaman to ni ate Tiff."

"Okay po ate Irene, pero natatakot po ako eh."

"Kakausapin ko muna siya, and then the two of you should talk."

"Okay sige po, thank you."

I know I ed up. Ang laki ng kasalanan ko kay Karina kaya at sobrang nagalit siya, hindi ko masisisi kasi fault ko naman talaga. Kahit ano pa ang sabihin ko and kahit anong ibigay ko na sorry gift sakanya they are all useless at this point. Susubukan ko nalang ulit ngayon gabi, sana lang kausapin na niya ako.

Bumababa na si ate Irene from the second floor, sana naman pumayag si Rina na harapin ako. Grabe, kinakabahan ako ng sobra tsaka miss na miss ko na talaga siya.

"Winter, you can come up. She's in her room. Talk nicely at wag mo siyang sasabayan."

"Okay ate Irene. Thank you po talaga, sobrang thank you. I mean it."

Umakyat na ako at puntahan si Karina. Ilan beses na akong kumakatok pero walang sumasagot kaya pumasok nalang ako. 

"I did not let you in." Hinahanap ko yung nag salita pero wala naman tao sa kama and sa couch.

"Karina?"

"Pati si ate Irene dinamay mo with your antics Winter, ibang klase ka."

Nakita ko siya na nakaupo sa window nook ng kwarto niya. Nilapitan ko kagad siya at umupo ako malapit sakanya. "Babe please let's talk. Ilan days mo na ako hindi kinakausap. I really miss you."

"You still expect me to talk to you? Wow."

"Babe I admit my mistake, I kind of lied to you that night. Pero kung ano yung sinabi ko yun lang naman yun, hinatid lang namin si Ning and nagkaayaan lang."

"Kind of?"

"I'm really sorry Karina that I lied to you."

"So now you are owning up to your mistakes? I even asked you that day because it was very unusual of you, Tuesday afternoon biglang nag presenta kayo ni Ryujin ihatid si Ning dun sa gathering ng dance studio nila. Winter, Ning has a personal driver and she can drive, you didn't even think na mahahalata kita?"

"Babe I'm sorry nagkamali talaga ako on that part."

"Only on that part, are you sure? Alam mo kung pano namin nalaman nila Yeji? There's a picture posted on the dance studio's page, photos from their gathering. The pole dancing class to be exact, it was an exclusive party for them pero andun kayong dalawa ni Ryujin. We could clearly see that you were in the photos and videos ang saya saya mo pa. Nag peace sign ka pa talaga sa camera. I don't want to be rude, pero ang kapal ng muka mo Winter." 

"Rina makinig ka muna please. Hinatid namin si Ning, then we saw ate Hyoyeon and she invited us to go inside. Umalis din kami kagad nun."

"See, I'm being lied straight to my face again."

"Babe hindi naman talaga kami nag stay ng sobrang tagal nun eh. Gusto lang namin siya ihatid, pero umuwi din kami kagad."

"You said you went home right after you dropped Ning, now answer this because seriously, I don't want to hear any of your excuses, I am tired of it. How long did you stay there before you actually went home?"

"An hour and a half." 

"."

"Oh my god baby I'm really sorry, mali talaga yung ginawa ko hindi ko naman dndeny. Pero wala akong ginawa dun, kami lang ni Ryujin and ate Hyoyeon yung nag uusap."nilapitan ko siya at sinubukan kong yakapin.

"Don't touch me." 

"Karina sorry talaga, hindi ko na talaga uulitin, ito na yung last. I swear!"

"Why did you go there? Why did you want to drive Ning all of a sudden? There must be a reason right, don't come up with lame excuses like wala siyang driver. We all know na ang dami nilang available drivers, even Gigi could've done it for her."

"Hinatid lang namin siya sa dance studio Karina."

"Stop ing lying. You driving to Makati on a weekday? Alam ko and kilala kita, you always feel dreadful pag nagpapasama sayo sila Ning and Lia! Just ing tell me!"

"Ano ba gusto mo?! Ano sasabihin ko sayo?"

"Why did you want to go there? Just admit it, who was the reason you went?"

"Anong who? Ano ba naman Rina."

"Tangina Winter, we haven't even reached five months tapos ganito na. I didn't expect this from you, akala ko matino ka."

"Babe, hindi ko lang nasabi sayo lahat and nag sinungaling ako. Wala naman akong ginawa that involved someone else. I didn't even talk to anyone there, yung mga kakilala ko lang."

"Enough with your bull, let's just get this over with."

"Babe calm down, look at you. You're shaking, namumula ka na."

"Don't ask me to calm down!!"

"Karina please, that was very insensitive of me, hindi ko na talaga uulitin yun. I'm really sorry for what I did."

"Sino yung pinuntahan mo dun?!"

"No one!!!"

"Oh come on. I don't want to argue anymore, nakakapagod, who was it?"

"No one in particular Karina, believe me but,"

"but what?"

"I am not going to deny and I don't want to hide anything from you. I got physically attracted to some of them, pero hanggang dun lang yun I swear! Wala akong ginawa, I didn't even talk to any of them besides Hyewon, kasi close din naman kami way back high school pa."

"Yeah of course, the crush."

"Babe please, she's a friend of mine. Wala naman akong ginawang masama, pero I admit my mistake that I lied to you nung hinatid namin si Ning. Hindi ko na talaga uulitin." 

"I hate you so much."

Sinubukan ko lumapit at yakapin si Rina nung nakita kong umiiyak nanaman siya. Pero mas lalo lang siya nagalit at tinulak niya ako. "Get out, umalis ka na. Grabe ka Winter."

"Karina akala ko ba aayusin natin kagad yung problema? Baby I'm sorry, hindi ko na talaga uulitin. I will tell you everything from now on, lahat lahat sasabihin ko na sayo."

"What else do you want me to say, you have proven yourself, you are not contented with me."

"What?! Hindi ganun yun Karina ano ba!!"

"If you're unhappy with me and our relationship, you know we can-"

"No!!! You know how happy I am with you, lagi ko sinasabi sayo and alam mo yun." 

"If you want to live up as a single person then fine. Gawin mo na gusto mo."

"What the Karina?!! Dahil lang dyan you're entertaining the idea of us breaking up? Ang babaw naman ng reason mo!"

"Mababaw pa ba yun? You are attracted to other people that you even lied to me. It took you what, three to five minutes of a freakin performance tapos na-attract ka na kagad, you think that's okay? Grabe Winter, our relationship is turning five months. Hindi mo manlang pinatagal, thank you for showing me kung pano ka talaga. You can leave now, I don't want to see you."

"Grabe naman Karina. Babe why are you acting as if I cheated on you?"

"Tama na, I don't want to talk anymore."

"Karina please, just give me a chance. I'll make things right. I promise you, hindi ko na talaga uulitin yung ginawa ko."

"Get out and leave please."

"Karina we cannot break up!"

"Just leave, I don't wanna talk to you."

Tangina. I hurt her and there's no one to blame but me. Sinayang ko yung okay na relationship namin at hindi manlang umabot ng five months. Now I feel so terrible, kasalanan ko and deserve ko lahat ng to.

Almost three days ko ng hindi nakakausap si Karina, grabe sobrang miss na miss ko na siya. I miss everything about her especially the messages she sends me, I miss her voice tsaka pag yung nagugulat nalang ako na andito na siya sa bedroom ko.

I did not stop sending her messages and I will continue giving my apology gifts. I know it's not going to change anything but that's my only way to let her know how sorry I am, and I will stay hanggang maging okay na ulit kami. Hindi naman ako pwede pumunta sakanila dahil bawal ako dun at hindi niya din ako kinakausap, so this is the only option I have at the moment.

🔥🔥 Queen Gi's Legion 🔥🔥

Queen Gi:   Hey there girls, about the camping trip tomorrow I'm gonna post the transpo and tent assignment

Queen Gi:  by the way, welcome Heejin!

Heejin Jeon:  hi!!!

Yuna B. Yahilo:  hey Heejin!

Tiger Lia:   welcome to the gc Heejin

Chaer Lee:  welcome 

Karina Yu girlfriend ni Winter:   hey there

Ningning Marie Yizhuo:   hi Heejin welcome! asan na yung dalawang friends mo na super friendly?

Ryujin This hoe is loyal:  nababasa ko message mo ning

Winter Kim:   andito ka na pala sa gc Heejin

Yeji Hwang:   the audacity Ryujin don't you think it's time for you to change your name here? mahiya ka naman

Ningning Marie Yizhuo:   ouch

Queen Gi:   okay chill out girls. where are you Yuqi?

Song Yuqi:   I'm here saan na transpo assignment?

Queen Gi:   alright with the transpo, lia's gonna bring a car so this is the list of people who will be riding with me

Queen Gi:   myself, ning, rina, yeji, winter, ry and heejin. in lia's car, ofc her, yuna, chaer and yuqi

Winter Kim:   wait gigi, I'll be bringing my car dun kaming tatlo nila ry and heejin

Song Yuqi:   Heejin ride with us! it's gonna be fun

Yuna B. Yahilo:   yeah you're gonna like it

Chaer Lee:   come on heejin!

Heejin Jeon:   Winter, sawa na ako sainyong dalawa eh I'll go with Lia's group nalang

Winter Kim:   sure ka? okay it's up to you

Queen Gi:   for the tent, Lia has two, and she's gonna bring a cabin tent good for ten people. Ning and I will stay in my tent

Ryujin Shin:   Lia can Winter and I use yours?

Tiger Lia:   yeah sure but don't you want to stay with us in the cabin tent? it's very spacious

Winter Kim:   we're fine dun nalang sa smaller tent, heejin where do you want to stay?

Heejin Jeon:  I'll be fine at the cabin winter don't worry

Winter Kim:   sure ka ah okay

Queen Gi:   are you sure Winter dun niyo gusto ni Ryujin that's a small one

Karina Yu:   let them if that's what they want

Winter Kim:   ang sungit mo naman baby nammiss pa naman kita

Karina Yu:   well i don't, so shut up

Ningning Marie Yizhuo:   OOF 

Queen Gi:   okay then i guess we're good we'll leave before 4am meet up place first gas station in nlex the one with starbucks and krispy kreme

Napaka awkward nitong alis namin na to grabe, three days and two nights pa naman tapos hindi ko manlang makausap yung giant baby ko. Well, deserve ko naman talaga kasi na-hurt ko siya. Nagdadalawang isip na nga ako sumama, kaso sabi ni Ryujin baka mas lalo daw lumaki yung conflict. Sabagay, baka isipin pa ni Karina nag ggive up na ako and pumapayag na ako sa break up. Hindi talaga ako sure kung wala na nga ba kami, pero three days na kaming hindi nag uusap kaya sobrang nammiss ko na siya.

Based sa stories na pnpost niya and sa mga nababalitaan ko from Gigi, she's doing okay naman daw pero galit pa din talaga siya sakin. I'm just going to give her the time that she needs, pero sana talaga maayos pa namin to kasi ayaw ko na mawala siya.

5:00am at the meeting place..

Kumpleto na kaming lahat dito sa gas station na sinabi ni Giselle. Bumaba ako para bumili ng coffee namin ni Karina, ngayon ko lang siya nakita ulit after nung nagtalo kami sa bahay nila. Nagkatinginan kami kanina pero hindi niya ako pinansin. Sana tanggapin niya tong french toast na niluto ko. Gnoogle and youtube ko pa to kaninang 2am para lang magawan ko siya.

Nung aalis na kami at pasakay na ulit sa kotse, nilapitan ko siya para iabot yung food and coffee na binili ko for her. Ayaw niya tanggapin nung una, pero since hindi maisara yung van dahil nakaharang ako sa pinto, nawalan na siya ng choice but to accept it.

Nag presenta si Ryujin na siya nalang daw ang mag ddrive para ma-divert ang attention niya. Same kami na problemado ngayon. Hindi ko din kayang humarap kay Yeji kasi nahihiya ako sakanya. Hindi pa tlaga namin ulit napag uusapan ni Ry yung nangyari these past few days. Hindi din kami nagsisihan kasi parehas lang naman kaming may kasalanan nun.

"Winter anong balita sainyo?" Tntry ko iconnect yung phone ko sa bluetooth ng kotse para lang wag kaming antukin habang nasa biyahe. "Wala, ayaw na niya akong kausapin. Kayo, kamusta si Yeji?"

"Not good. By the way I'm sorry Winter." Nagulat ako sa sinabi ni Ryujin kaya natigil ako sa ginagawa ko. "Tanga wag ka na mag sorry, parehas lang naman tayong may fault nun, masyado akong naexcite, itong pagiging impulsive ko ang lala na talaga. Hindi ko na alam gagawin ko kay Rina, ang tagal ko na siyang hindi nakakausap. Nakakausap mo pa ba si Yeji?"

"Yeah, nag uusap kami, but we end up arguing kaya binibigyan ko muna siya ng time."

"Ry let's promise, wag na natin uulitin yun. They don't deserve it, naaawa ako kay Karina ang bait niya sakin but still, I hurt her. Tapos ganun ka din kay Yeji. Ang ayos and sobrang decent kaya nilang dalawa."

"You just don't know, I regret it too sobra. Now lang nangyari sa amin to."

"Ulol? Talaga ba Ryujin? Ang friendly mo kaya lalo sa magaganda para kang gago."

"Tanga, I meant ngayon lang yung nag initiate ng move. Yung pag punta natin dun sobrang mali talaga eh. Gano na nga kayo katagal ni Karina?"

"Going five months palang kaya kami tapos ganito na kagad. I don't deserve her."

"Five months, ang aga nga tapos big deal pa yung nangyari, but I think maaayos niyo naman yan."

"Tingin mo? Pano pag ng tuloy tuloy na tapos hindi na niya ako balikan?"

"Edi mag move on ka na, mag move ka sa north pole or sa south pole! Hahahahahahaha."

"Tangina mo talaga Ryujin kahit kailan. Ang gago kasi talaga eh noh, hinatid pa natin si Ning. May kinausap ka ba dun? Si hyewon lang kinausap ko eh and si ate Hyo."

"Dba nakakasama mo yun dati si Hyewon?"

"Yeah, friend ko nga siya nakakapunta pa nga yun sa bahay namin. Kami kasi yung magka close dun sa org. It just happened na super crush ko siya, but there's nothing more than that."

"Bakit hindi naging kayo nun?"

"I didn't ask because I was into Somi before, ang tagal kaya nun. Wait sagutin mo nga tanong ko, may kinausap ka ba dun?

"Wala gago puro ikaw lang tapos isang hi kay Isa."

"Bakit parang nanghihinayang ka, ilan hi ba yung quota mo?"

"Tangina stop it nga. I'm making things right with Yeji yun lang goal ko."

 "Kung hindi tayo bumaba ng car, you think it could be different?"

"Siguro, pero dadating ka din naman talaga sa ganyan. I mean, it may or may not be the same situation, but gets wala naman perfect relationship. Napaaga nga lang yung sayo, masyado ka kasin