It's been so draining these past few weeks and I think I need to take a breather. Kaya ito, hindi ako pumasok sa work, I asked for a two day vacation leave. Well, I just left the city and drove around hanggang sa napadpad ako dito sa farm namin sa Quezon. Nag stay ako dito sa Winrina tiny house. I don't know if it's a good thing na dito pa talaga ako mag oovernight ngayon, pero kasi I plan to unwind and ito yung place na pumasok kagad sa isip ko. Na-popoison na ako sa city, everything is becoming too hostile for me and I hate it.

Since naka tanga lang ako dito sa loft, magsusulat nalang ako. Let me continue with stage three bago ko pa makalimutan yung details ng mga nangyari samin dati ni Karina and yung mga friends namin. With our relationship I can say na we were in a honeymoon phase for quite some time. Umabot din ng ilan taon yun, from college up to our yuppy days. Soon enough I'll be writing about how it was nung nag start na kaming mag work.

I'm gonna carry on with where I left off. The year was coming to an end, ten months na kami ni Karina nun, malapit na yung Christmas pati na din yung birthday ko, it was very important to us kasi yun yung napaka daming"firsts" na ginawa namin as kami na. November that year din yung unang beses namin siya isinama nila mommy nung dumalaw kami sa grave ng dad ko, pinakilala ko siya sa mga relatives namin, I introduced her to my elders, my cousins and of course they absolutely liked her. Pwera lang pala sa isang tao, yung uncle ko na homophobic na walang ibang ginawa kung hindi tumahol.

Magkahiwalay muna kami ni Karina ngayon. Andun siya sa bedroom ko nag rereview at ako naman nagkukulong dito sa study room. I am down to my last two plates before the year ends, tapos mag rereview pa ako para sa finals namin bukas sa Housing and AE 1. Na-scan ko naman na kaya konting refresh nalang. Importante ma-submit ko on time tong Design and ID plates dahil may target grades ako for this sem and hindi pwedeng hindi ko maachieve yun.

*knock knock knock*

"Babe come in, the door's open!"

Pumasok si Rina kung saan ako gumagawa ng plates, kanina pa din siya nag rreview, maybe she's taking a break kaya andito siya. Sabay kami umuwi kanina, exam week na kaya maaga kami nakakabalik dito sa condo.

"Pup, close your eyes and open your mouth." Napatingin ako sakanya, nakasmile siya sakin habang nakatayo sa tabi ko. "Ano yan babe, what are you hiding there?" Napansin ko tinatago niya yung kamay niya behind her back. "Close your eyes, I'm gonna put some candies in your mouth."

"Okay." Sinunod ko yung sinabi niya, pumikit ako and I opened my mouth anticipating for the sweets that she will give me. "Okay, now start chewing!" Nginuya ko ng maigi yung candies na sinubo niya sakin.

"aah!! ! Karina ano to?!! kadiri!" Tumakbo ako palabas ng kwarto, I took a kitchen towel at niluwa ko yung pinakain niya sakin."What the hell was that?!" Tanong ko sakanya, tumatawa siya habang pinapanood niya akong nag ggargle sa sink. "It's a jelly belly, I had no idea what flavor I gave you, I just got from box. Based on your reaction I think you ate the old bandage and birthday cake. Just right in time because your birthday is coming, two weeks nalang Pup, I'm excited."

"Babe, it's not funny. Ang dami ko na nga ginagawa, hindi na nga ako matapos tapos sa plates ko pero nakuha mo pa talagang gumanyan. Nakakairita ka naman."

"Oh, I'm sorry Winter I just wanted to give you sweets because you've been working here kanina pa. Hindi ko sinasadaya Pup, I'm so sorry."

"Just don't bother me Karina please lang, nakakabwisit."

Iniwan ko siya sa kitchen at bumalik na kagad ako sa study room. Nung pag upo ko at nakaharap na ulit ako sa monitor, biglang natauhan ako. Kahit pa madami akong ginagawa, sobrang off ng sinabi ko sakanya.

Three months na kaming magkasama sa condo same set up, three to four days siya dito tapos sinusundo siya on saturdays, nasasanay na kami and we both love it. Ngayon lang ata ako nag snap ng ganito kasi ang dami kong ginagawa talaga and it's overwhelming. Pero hindi pa din reason yun para maging rude, kaya I need to apologize to her. I also realize na hindi ko manlang siya nakakausap pa or na-hug ng isang beses, dahil sobrang busy ako ngayon araw.

Nagpunta ako sa bedroom at dahan dahan ko sinilip kung ano ang ginagawa ni Karina, nakita ko siya na nakaupo at nagbabasa. Tumabi ako sakanya para yakapin siya. "Baby I'm sorry."

"It's okay, I'm sorry too. Hindi dapat kita ginugulo when you are doing something."

"Okay lang naman babe, ang dami ko kasi ginagawa tsaka nairita lang ako kasi kadiri naman yung pinakain mo sakin. I'm sorry for being rude."

"It's okay wala yun. Don't worry Pup next time I'll be sensitive, I'm sorry."

"Okay na yun Rina. Tara let's take a break, I miss you."

 "A babe break?"

"Yes babe break, tara dito muna tayo I want to cuddle with you."

The babe break, it started nung nag living together trial kami for six days. Babe break means we have to stop and take a break from what we are currently focusing on para lang ma-relax ng konti and to give each other attention. Kahit ano pwedeng gawin during babe break, cuddling, making out, nooky, manonood kami ng kahit ano or anything basta it invloves the two of us. How long does it take,well depende sa ginagawa.

I pulled her with me nung humiga ako sa kama and I trapped her in my arms. "Pup you are choking me!" Sigaw niya habang nagttry kumawala. "No I'm not, I'm just hugging you kasi namiss kita, parang acquaintances lang tayo today eh."

"You are the one who's not paying attention to me, puro ka kasi plates."

"So wag nalang ako mag pasa ng plates, gusto mo?"

"No way Winter, bawal! I actually like how you are with your studies, at first akala ko talaga bagsakin ka, but you're not naman pala because you are smart and diligent."

"Bagsakin talaga? grabe ka naman mang judge" I hugged her tighter habang nag aattempt pa din siya kumawala. "That's what I thought when I was seeing you in the pathwalk, you kinda look mischievous. Especially in the cafeteria when you're with Ry and Ning."

Both of my arms and my legs are wrapped around her hindi na siya pumiglas pa and now she's hugging me back. "Grabe baby jnudge mo kami kagad, maingay lang kasi talaga si Ning tapos mukang gago si Ryujin."

"That was my first impression Pup, I'm sorry. Ang ingay niyo kasi."

"Hindi ako maingay babe, si Ning and Ry lang yung naririnig mo. Pinagtatawanan ko lang sila." 

"If you say so. Come here stay on top of me I want you closer, I need a hug." Nung sinunod ko yung sinabi niya bigla niya akong niyakap ng sobrang higpit, yung muka ko sumakto sa chest niya. Mukang nananadya si Rina at ginagantihan niya ako. "Baby nasquish na yung muka ko sa s mo hindi ako makahinga!"

"Oh you don't like it?"

"Your s? They are nice,but you're killing me with them, hindi ako makahinga!" Ayaw niya talagang tumigil at mas hinigpitan niya pa yung hawak sa batok ko. "Ayaw mo tumigil ha, okay fine." I bit her right lightly kaya nagulat siya."Winter it tickles stop it."

"Ayaw mo? Okay, madali ako kausap."

"Don't do it over my shirt." Napaangat yung ulo ko nung marinig ko yung sinabi niya. "hahaha what? gusto mo pa direct? Okay madali nga ako kausap." Pinasok ko yung ulo ko sa shirt niya and I bit her again, medyo tinatagalan ko when I started making circles with my tongue, naramdamam ko na umayos siya ng pwesto and she spread her legs open kaya nadikit na yung stomach ko sa center niya. This is not a good sign, matatagalan ako lalo sa plates kapag nagtuloy pa tong ginagawa namin. "Baby, punta nalang tayo sa dining, mag early dinner nalang tayo para tuloy tuloy na yung review mamaya."

"Pup it's only five in the afternoon, are you hungry? Though I cannot cook today."

"We still have food from last night, reheat nalang natin and you know you don't have to cook, we can always order."

"Yeah I know but it's super unhealthy."

"Then order salad or yung organic bowls with quinoa and stuff. Next time we can get bags of salads na yung ito-toss nalang because I don't want you to get tired kakaluto."

"But the salads in the grocery taste awful."

"We can get one from the the market place mas okay yung choices dun. You don't have to cook especially this week, may exams ka pa nga bukas eh."

"It's fine we only have three days and then we can enjoy our Christmas break. I already got gifts for you and I am so thrilled. The gifts are well thought out Winter I'm pretty sure you're gonna love it."

"Babe parang nirremind mo yan sakin araw araw. One of these days tignan mo madudulas ka tapos masasabi mo na sakin yan gift mo."

"I won't spoil it, oh my gosh I am gonna feel bad."

"Yeah I understand, nakakainis pag nalaman or failed yung suprise eh dba Karina? Naiirita nanaman ako pag naalala ko yung uniform na gift ko sayo. Gago talaga si Ning, ang layo sa concept na naisip ko eh."

"Hahahaha you're still not over that version of our uniform that turned into triple XL?"

"Nakakainis eh, ang hot mo pa naman sana pag sinuot mo yun tangina parang naging kumot."

"What made you think that you'll be able get my exact body measurements? You even used a tape measure for wood and stuff, ang weird mo talaga pup. How did you even take it without me noticing?"

"Sinukatan kita baby nung tulog ka. Hirap na hirap kaya ako, nag google lang ako kung ano yung parts na dapat sukatan eh."

"Don't think about that na, I told you I'm keeping it, it's there at home. Do you want me to wear it next time we..?"

"Stop it. Tangina ang laki parang hindi nga sayo yun eh. Saan naman banda naging y yun, parang nakaka off."

"Hahahaha I appreciate the effort. Everything you do for me, I appreciate."

"Good to know. Tara na babe, I still got a lot of things to do. Sana mag fast forward na to next week excited na ako sa Christmas break. Pero hindi din pala."

"Why?"

"Less than six months nalang ggraduate ka na, hindi na kita makikita sa school. Tapos siyempre hindi ka na uuwi dito sa condo, ang lungkot kaya nun. Wag ka nalang kaya umalis dito?"

"Pup don't get sad about things like that, it's unavoidable."

"Honestly I'm kinda scared. Pano pag hindi na nag work yung relationship natin, two years pa ako mag aaral pero ikaw nag wwork ka na, pano pag may na-meet ka na iba?"

"Winter please, don't you trust me? You're starting again. Nothing's going to change, I will just be working, with regards to time we can always work that out. I'm not going anywhere okay?"

"Yeah, alright. Sige I'll go to the study room na, call me pag gusto mo na mag dinner."

"Okay, wait before you leave, where's my kiss?!"

"When you say that babe naalala ko yung dean niyo na mukang gago. Do you remember that, nung hinatid kita sa building niyo nung September, he saw us right in front of the building when I kissed your mole. Nakakatawa itsura niya, ang sama niya tumingin hindi naman niya ako mapagalitan."

"Hahahaha yeah, I just didn't look his way. Okay pup, babe break is over."

"Call me pag gutom ka na ha, I'll help you prepare the food. I love you baby tuloy mo na yung review."

"I love you my snail puppy. I'll see you later."

First Christmas Week As Girlfriends

Four days nalang Christmas na, sinasamahan ko yung baby ko mag shopping, she's getting gifts for her sisters, grabe buti nalang nakaisip siya ng excuse at nakatakas kami sa "couple shopping" invitation nila Ning and Giselle. Grabe kung natuloy yun malamang namuti na yung mata ko kakahintay namin sakanila.

This week is very busy, there will be a Christmas party at Rina's place, well siyempre aattend lahat ng friends namin. Parang gago mga friends ko, well si Ning and si Ry lang pala, pero si Ryujin pinaka taeng tae, before finals week pa lang hindi na siya mapakali dahil nalaman niya na baka makasama sa Christmas dinner yung mga ate ni Karina, hinahayaan at pinagtatawanan nalang siya ni Yeji sa mga pinagsasabi niya.

Sinabihan ko na sila ni Heejin na umayos at tigilan muna yung pagka foul mouthed nila lalo pag kaharap sila ate Tiffany and ate Irene. Nung una simple party lang yung plano nila Gigi and Rina, nung nalaman ng mga ate niya, they asked someone to organize kaya wala na kailangan intindihin at nakaayos na lahat.

Napag usapan na din namin ni Rina kung pano kami sa holidays. I will be spending the Christmas eve with them, tapos pupunta siya samin on Christmas day pero sa New Year's and birthday ko hindi kami magkasama kasi may party sa bahay nila. Well ganun naman ang ginagawa nila yearly.

Naalala ko lang yung sinabi sakin ni Giselle dati, hindi ko kasi alam kung pano ko itatanong kay Karina, gusto ko malaman kung aattend ba yung Jaehyun sa New Year's Eve party. I plan to ask Gigi pag nagkita kami on the twenty second. 

"Pup are you bored? Wait lang ha, I'm just waiting for the item then I'll be at the counter na."

"Okay lang ako dito. Take your time babe, wag ka magmadali."

"How about you, don't you need to buy anything?"

"Wala naman masyado, nakabili na ko online eh matagal na nadeliver. Ah yung kay mom nalang pala, daan nalang tayo sa Rustan's."

"Okay, where do you wanna have lunch?"

"Ikaw, are you craving for something?" When I asked her naka tingin lang siya at hindi sumagot. Mukang alam ko na. "Baby I think I know what you like, huhulaan ko."

"Sige, what is it?"

"Are you thinking about donkatsu?" Ang laki ng smile niya, alam ko na talaga mga gestures ni Rina and we're on that stage na kahit na hindi siya magsalita, sa tingin palang gets na namin yung isat isa. "I'm craving for that Pup, you're so good how did you know?"

"Na-sense ko lang, we're soulmates eh dba sabi mo nga? Pero walang ganun dito babe, we have to drive and go to the restaurant pa. Gusto mo try yung iba naman, there's one in ATC at least yun parang ten minutes lang from our house, pati pala sa bahay niyo malapit lang."

"I'm almost done here, but we should go to Rustan's na before we transfer to another place. What are you getting tita?"

"Perfume, si ate nabilan ko na ng gift. Baby who did you pick for the white elephant?"

"It's a secret! Ikaw who did you get?"

"Ayaw mo nga sabihin yung sayo eh."

Meron kaming exchange gift. Ang nag decide sa price limit ay si Ning, Lia and Giselle. Masyado kasi kaming busy sa school works kaya nag agree nalang kami. Nung bakasyon na, nawindang kami pare parehas sa price limit, hindi ako aware na para palang may auction na magaganap tapos yung mga wish list puta parang straight out of fashion week. May nalalaman pa silang up to this season's collection lang ng specific designer yung pwede ibigay. Buti napag usapan ulit namin at binabaan nila yung price limit. Pareparehas kaming mapuputulan ng cards dahil sa kagagawan nilang tatlo. 

Yung nabunot ko madali lang bilan ng gift, nung nabasa ko yung wishlist niya alam ko na kagad kung ano and saan ko bibilin. Almost same sila ni Giselle ng gusto. Sana lang chill lang yung baby ko pag nagpapalitan na kami ng regalo at wag iinit ang ulo niya pag nalaman niya na si Somi ang nakuha ko.

After bilin ni Rina yung mga kailangan niya, bumalik na kagad kami sa Alabang, wala masyadong traffic pauwi kasi maaga pa kaya mabilis din kami nakarating, sakto pa kasi lunch na. First time namin ittry yung restaurant na may donkatsu, it has good reviews at mukang okay naman yung food based on the photos.

Sobrang excited na ako sa 22nd we're going to have a party na magkakasama kaming lahat. Dati kasi kaming five lang tapos sa pre-Christmas dinner pa yun sa bahay namin, mga ganap lang naman pag ganun nag eend up sumasama kami nila Ning sa barkada ni ate Taeyeon tapos nakikinig kami sa mga kwentuhan nila. Pero parang tanga magkwento sila ate Yuri lalo si ate Hyoyeon, sa sampung sinabi nila eleven dun puro kagaguhan.

First time ng friends from my side na makakapunta sa house nila Rina and ngayon palang nila mammeet in person yung mga ate niya, sana successful at walang magkakapikunan.

"Babe excited na ako on the 22nd kasi complete tayong lahat."

"I'm glad that HyunJin will be able to attend. We're complete pala the twelve of us, oh no but there's a seat filler included."

"Seat filler? Who are you pertaining to?"

"Who else. Sino ba yung biglang nasali sa group?"