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"This was snug and I's party, how can I forget. All of us got shocked sa nalaman natin that night, Ry alam mo I still find it absolutely unfair on Winter's part. Right? Hindi manlang nila sinabi satin earlier, medyo naiinis pa din ako kay snug pag naalala ko yun."

"It depends on how you see it naman kasi, kay Winter wala lang, pero dba nainis siya kay Karina about dun, sobrang big deal nun, imagine umabot pa ng ilan months bago nila sinabi sakanya. Pero alam mo naman to si Winter attach and detach lang solusyon niyan lagi tsaka hindi nagtatanim ng sama ng loob kahit kanino."

"Panong attach and detach?"

"Tanga edi ayan, kaya tayo andito ngayon. Ikaw hindi ka talaga nakikinig kasi pag nagkkwentuhan tayo eh kahit nung college Ning lumilipad na talaga isip mo. Wait asan na ba si Gigi? Papunta na si Yeji sabay kami uuwi ngayon kasi di ako nagdala ng car."

"She's still in a meeting, dito muna ako. Mag ffacetime kami ni Yuna dahil nasa backstage daw siya ng pfw. Mag ggreet daw sakin si Olivier Rousteing"

"Dapat isama tayo ni Yuna dyan eh, gusto ko makita sa personal si Gigi Hadid."

"Mahiya ka nga, makuntento ka may Yeji Hadid ka na."

"Of course noh my babe is smarter and hotter."

"Yun pala eh, so wag ng mag Gigi Hadid."

This one, pinag isipan ko if I should include it here, pero big deal yung nangyari kaya hindi pwedeng hindi ko isulat dito. It was during Giselle and Ning's party, they rented out Buddha Bar in Makati. The night was really fun at first, andun halos lahat ng friends and acquaintances namin, until Rina and Giselle revealed something that I never expected and all of us got stunned. After what happened, nainis ako siyempre, pero hindi naman grabe. That is the good thing about my girlfriend, napag uusapan namin lahat at naayos din kagad. Well, I meant to say "was".

We're in the last days of October, school is on break and on the fourth of November pa ulit yung pasok. Students being on break, meaning no acads, no plates, no deadlines at higit sa lahat ang daming halloween parties. Isa sa pinaka inaabangan namin yung party ni Giselle sa friday, on saturday pa talaga birthday niya October 30 pero naging advance nalang ng one day para sakto sa friday at pwede mag party hanggang may liwanag na.

Andito ako sa bahay namin sa Alabang, kami lang ni Rina and yung mga kasambahay ang nandito since nasa office sila mom and ate. Wednesday palang, I came here Sunday dahil tinamad ako umuwi nung Saturday night, pano nakakapagod naman kasi yung naging practice game namin, buti nalang hinatid ako ni Karina pauwi.

Speaking of my baby, dahil sa nangyari na na-stranded kami nung bumagyo early this month, meron days na allowed siyang matulog sa condo, pinaalam ko kay mommy and ate na dun nalang siya mag stay pag hanggang 9pm yung class niya. Pumayag din kagad sila kasi mas safe nga naman and hindi siya mapapagod, pero gusto nila hiwalay daw kami ng kwarto ni Rina, asa naman eh ginagamit ko na as study room yung isa. Yung parents and mga ate niya pumayag din sa set up pero may condition, nung una gusto nila na sila ang magbabayad ng utility bills ng condo pati yung monthly dues, hindi pumayag sila mom kasi nakakahiya naman daw, kaya napagkasunduan nalang na fifty fifty kami.

Kaya yun, starting this month umuuwi na sa condo ko si Karina, she stays there from wednesday to friday. Sinusundo lang siya ng driver on Saturday morning, hindi kami sabay nun kasi may class ako sa araw na yun. Hindi ko din inexpect na ilan months palang kami yet we are already sort of living together.

We're spending the afternoon hanging out dito sa kwarto ko, nagdala ng three flavors of ice cream si Rina na halos lahat hindi ko type yung lasa. "Pup sige na, you have to taste it." Kanina niya pa ako tntry subuan ulit nung vegan ice cream na cookie dough flavor. Nung unang subo okay naman, nung second time umayaw na ako dahil ang tindi nung after taste. "Babe ayaw ko, I'm never eating that, kadiri eh."

"Oh really, never?" Sinubo ni Rina yung isang spoon ng ice cream at nag straddle siya sakin, kanina pa kami nakaupo dito sa couch."hey what are you doing? Baby ano ba yan!" She's starting to the spoon seductively. Tinitignan ko siya habang ginagawa niya yun, parang nag init bigla yung cheeks and tenga ko. Tanghaling tapat kung ano ano nanaman ginagawa ni Rina. "Tigilan mo yan sige, or else.."

"Or else what?"

"Or else I am going to do this." I pulled her by the neck and I kissed her lips. Binitawan niya muna yung spoon na hawak niya and she went back to sit on my lap. We were still kissing, our hands were starting to move all over, nakahawak na ako sa chest niya and naffeel ko that she was trying to unhook my bra. Hinubad niya yung shirt ko and I removed hers also. Tuloy lang kami sa ginagawa namin, I was kissing her on the neck and she was gripping my hair. "uhhmmm I want you to.." Nakahawak ako sa upper thigh niya, bigla kong nilusot sa underside ng shorts niya yung kamay ko and I was trying to reach for her privates. Nung malapit ko na mahawakan, bigla naman may nag vibrate sa bulsa niya. Hinahalikan ko siya sa leeg pababa sa dibdib niya habang tinitignan niya yung phone niya. "Pup wait it's Gigi." 

Hindi ako tumigil sa ginagawa ko, I was kissing her chest kahit may kausap siya sa phone. I ed her shorts while I kept on devouring her s.  "So you are telling me that she is here and she is going?!" Umalis bigla si Rina sa lap ko, kinuha niya yung shirt niya sabay pasok sa bathroom. I didn't mean to eavesdrop on her pero ang lakas ng boses niya kahit pa nakasara yung pinto. She seems really upset while she is talking to Giselle.  

Pag labas ng bathroom halata sa muka niya that she is agitated. "What's wrong?" Tanong ko sakanya nung umupo siya sa tabi ko. "Nothing Pup, may sinabi lang si Gigi."

"Why do you look upset?"

"I'm not, don't worry about it Winter, it's nothing."

"Alright, you don't have to tell me kung ayaw mo pag usapan."

"Yeah. Pup can we lie on the bed? I want to cuddle with you." 

"Sige, lipat tayo. Are you gonna eat this bland ice cream pa or lagay ko muna sa freezer?" 

"It's not bland naman, it's just gluten free. In the freezer nalang, nawalan ako ng gana." 

"Hindi kasi masarap kaya nawalan ka tuloy ng gana, wait here I'm gonna bring these to the kitchen." 

Bumaba ako para ilagay yung ice cream sa freezer at kumuha na din ako ng water. A part of me is getting curious sa kung ano yung nakapagpabago ng mood ni Rina. Kanina naman masaya siya, but now halata sakanya na naiinis at may iniisip siya. Hindi ko nalang muna pipilitin na magkwento, usually naman kusa din siya nagsasabi sakin.

"What do you want to do today?" I asked her. Nakahiga lang kami sa kama and we are spooning. "Just this, I want to cuddle with you."

"We can go out if you want, it looks like you are in a bad mood, what made you so worked up ba?"

"Wala naman, it's not important." Humarap siya sakin at sumsiksik sa leeg ko, bukod sa parang naiinis siya, mukang inaantok pa ata si Rina. "Baby tara later, let's drive around nakakainip na dito eh."

"Where are we going?"

"Naisip ko lang, let's drive around Manila bahala na kung saan tayo mapunta, we have waze naman eh. What do you think?"

"Sure, we can go anywhere and I'm up for it. Do you want me to drive?"

"Ako nalang, iwan mo nalang car mo dito. Mamaya nalang tayo umalis around three, you can sleep muna quarter to one palang naman."

Ayos din talaga si Karina, nung narinig niya ata yung word na sleep talagang nag instant shut down na siya at hindi na sumagot. Tinitignan ko siya, hindi na gumagalaw habang naka hug at nakasiksik yung muka niya sakin, natutulog na kagad.

Before 3pm nakaalis na kami sa Alabang, we plan to drive around Manila at bahala na kung saan kami pupunta. May mga snend si Ning na suggestions kung ano yung mga pwede namin gawin. Good thing hindi ma-traffic because it's a weekday and wala naman pasok yung mga schools.

"Babe check out this link snend to ni Ning, gusto mo itry natin to?" Inabot ko kay Rina yung phone ko and inopen niya yung link na snend sakin ni Ning. "Food trip in Binondo? hmm interesting, yeah we can try it."

"I can park the car somewhere and then we can walk around, gusto mo?"

"Sure pup! I'm actually so excited to explore!!"

"Muka nga ang ingay mo eh. Wag ka na sumigaw babe naririnig naman kita magkatabi lang tayo."Natatawa ako kay Rina, ang lakas pa ng boses niya ngayon, kanina para siyang puyat na biglang nang hina. "Hahaha I'm not, I'm just excited because this is too random."

"Buti may energy ka na noh? Tinulugan mo ako kanina eh."

"I have energy now because I was able to sleep. You know what, I really sleep better when you are hugging me."

"Totoo ba? Para naman you sleep better kahit saan, kahit nga ata nakatayo ka ang sarap ng tulog mo."

"Pup you are always making fun of me. Why are you like that?"

"Making fun of you? Kailan naman yun Karina imbento ka nanaman."

"No, I'm just kidding. Pup give me your hand." Inabot ko yung right hand ko sakanya, pinag entwine niya yung daliri namin at hinalikan niya ng ilan beses. "Wow ang energetic mo na talaga, may pa-kiss kiss ka pa sa kamay ko, kanina kinakausap kita hindi ka na sumagot tinulugan mo ko epal ka."

"You are more epal than me Winter."

"Ayaw mo yun same tayo?"

"We are really made for each other Pup."

"Hindi din."

"Winter you are gago. Bagay kaya tayo and you are the only one I like." Nagulat ako sa sinabi ni Rina, natatawa akong napatingin sakanya. "Baby bakit minumura mo na ko?!" Tumatawa din siya habang magkahawak pa din kami at parang ni-rrub niya ng light yung tip ng ilong niya sa kamay ko.

"Of course not, I'm just kidding. I love you so much, I won't swear at you."

"Kakasabi mo lang ng gago eh."

"It was a joke and I didn't mean it. Come, let me hug you." Buti naka stop kami dahil red light, nag lean ako palapit sakanya, and she gave me soft kisses on my lips and may face."Baby just to remind you, ibang car namin yung gamit natin ngayon tsaka hapon palang, kitang kita tayo sa labas oh."

" I forgot."

Nung makarating kami sa Binondo, pinark ko yung kotse sa malapit na mall at nilakad nalang namin yung restaurants na nasa list. Pinili namin yung mga may pinaka okay na rating and reviews, tsaka gusto ko din talaga subukan yung dumplings na binibida ni Ning.

Unang una namin pinuntahan yung Dong Bei Dumpling, medyo madaming tao sa loob pero ayos lang kasi hindi din kami mag stay ng matagal. Masarap nga yung lasa and it's authentic kaya dinadayo talaga ng tao. Mas okay talaga yung lakad na ganito, yung biglaan dahil minsan mas nagiging worth it pa yung experience.

"Pup I want to eat rice, do you wanna go to Tasty Dumplings?"

"Yan ba yung may pork chop? Sige tara para early dinner na natin to."

Next stop namin yung Tasty Dumplings. Nag order kami ng tag isang pork chop rice, the food is really good and ang laki ng serving kaya nakakabusog. Buti nalang sa mall kami nag park at malayo layo yung kailangan namin lalakarin galing dito sa restaurant na to.

"babe how's the food?" I asked her dahil kanina pa siya hindi nagsasalita. Nung na-serve na yung pagkain hindi na kami nag usap ni Rina, masyado kaming nag focus sa kinakain namin na pork chop."I like it, it's good."Sabay subo at nguya ng mabagal. "Baby ang cute mo talaga kumain. I like watching you eat."

"You always say that when we're eating hindi na ako nacconcious, I got used to it."

"edi okay, totoo naman kasi eh ang cute mo."

"Mas cute ka because you look like a puppy. Finish your food na pup so we can go."

Pagkatapos namin kumain at magpahinga, naglakad na din kami pabalik sa parking nung mall. Meron pa kaming isang pupuntahan before umuwi, we're just gonna get coffee at The Bayleaf. Si Rina yung nag drive papunta, ako nalang yung magddrive samin pauwi.

Naguusap lang kami dito sa Sky Deck habang umiinom ng coffee and kumakain ng dessert, kanina ko pa napapansin na parang may gusto sabihin si Rina pero hesitant siya and iniiba iba niya lagi yung topic. Mas nacucurious tuloy ako, iniisip ko kung related ba to dun sa pinagusapan nila ni Gigi kanina.

"Pup I have a question."

"Ano yun?"

"Hindi ka ba magsasawa sakin? You see me almost every day na, we are technically residing in the same place, four days a week."

"Hmmm I don't think so. Dba we always say that we want to live in the same place, ayan nangyari na. Tingin mo ba magsasawa ako?"

"Hindi naman, but okay lang talaga sayo yun may ka-share ka na sa space? I'm scared na baka magsawa ka sakin or you might discover things that you don't like about me."

"Ano ka ba baby, hindi din naman tayo nagkikita lagi dun kasi nasa class tayo and I like it, mas ginaganahan ako umuwi kasi andun ka, tsaka mas madami ako nagagawa na school works."

"I feel the same Winter."

"The vibe of the condo is different. I don't know, it became happier and complete. Tapos ang sipag mo pa mag linis nahahawa tuloy ako."

"So I guess that's a good thing? You know what I like the most when I started staying at your place?"

"What?"

"When we go home together."

"Ah yeah, bakit hindi ko naisip yan, grabe it's the little things talaga. I'm really happy with our new set up baby, buti talaga pumayag parents natin."

"That's true, I think it's because they trust us enough."

Ito yung isa pang bago sa relationship namin, may araw na parehas yung oras ng uwian namin ni Rina, ang ginagawa niya sinusundo niya ako sa building namin tapos sabay kami umuuwi, during those days hindi din ako nagdadala ng car kasi mas gusto niya na naglalakad pauwi. Grabe, I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing nasasanay na talaga ako na kasama ko siya. So far okay naman, hindi naman nadadamay yung ibang bagay lalo yung studies namin, we still do our own thing, and hindi naman ibig sabihin na dahil magkasama kami sa iisang place, magkadikit na kami palagi.

"Pup I have another question."

"Okay go lang, you want more dessert, gusto mo mag order pa tayo?"

"Hey that's enough na, it's too sweet."

"Oo nga, okay na ko sa coffee. Ano yung question mo?"

"I'm not sure how to-"

"Ano nga?!"

"Winter, magagalit ka ba sakin if you find out that I kept something from you?"

 "Ano yun?"

"I'm just asking, I wanna know your answer."

"Depende, ano ba kasi yun, why? Are you hiding something from me?"

"I am not. I'm just asking you."

"Depende, but if it's something like may ginawa ka, cheating or basta mga ganun, magagalit ako and we're gonna break up"

"What if it's not as heavy as that naman? Like a minor thing."

"Gano ka-minor? If it's a small thing and it won't affect our relationship baka maiinis lang ako sayo kasi hindi ka nagsabi, pero wala lang naman yung mga ganun."

"Alright."

"Ano ba kasi yun Karina? Kanina ka pa eh akala mo ba hindi ko napapansin, something's bugging you, halata ko sa face mo."

"You know that we're always honest with each other, I'm gonna tell you something Winter pero sa friday na. Don't worry Pup, hindi naman grabe but I'm pretty sure na magagalit ka sakin."

"Ano ba kasi yun bakit hindi mo pa sabihin ngayon? Is it going to be hurtful pag nalaman ko?"

"No, but I'm sure na magagalit ka kasi hindi ko sinabi."

"May ginawa ka ba Karina? Did you entertain someone?"

"No!!! Bakit ba ganyan iniisip mo, I will never do that. Please Pup, sa friday sasabihin ko sayo."

"Nag start ka ng ganyan conversation tapos sa friday mo pa pala balak sabihin, malamang mapparanoid ako."

"No, don't be, it's not gonna hurt you I promise, it's not related to cheating, it's not related to our families basta Pup trust me, please."

"Malala ba yung sasabihin mo sakin?"

"No. For me it's not but I'm sure na magugulat ka."

"Tangina, it's not helping. Is it going to break us up, ganun kagrabe?!"

"Of course it won't! I want to stay with you forever, you are not going anywhere Winter. I want you to be with me and we're not going to break up, ever."

"Nakaka kaba kasi eh first time mo lang kaya mag sabi ng ganyan babe, nakakainis. We always tell each other everything tapos ngayon may pa-suspense ka pa."

"Don't worry, it's not something major that will break our relationship, I am confident about that."

"Okay sabi mo yan ha, you know that I trust you."

"I know that kaya nga sasabihin ko sayo lahat sa friday. I love you Pup, I love you so much, sana wag ka sobrang maiinis sakin."

"What the baby it's not helping, it's only making it worse. Bigyan mo nalang kaya ako ng clue kahit isa lang, para matahimik ako."

"Okay, what I'm gonna tell you on friday is more related to you, than it is to me."

"Are we talking about a person here or a situation?"

"Both."

", baka naman ako yung may ginawa tapos hindi ako aware. I didn't do something bad baby, alam mo naman lahat ng ginagawa ko."

"Winter you are so cute, I trust you so much and you are not doing anything wrong, okay? Let's wait for Friday."

"Okay sige."

"I love you so much Pup, always remember that."

"Yeah I know. Same lang naman tayo."

Nag tagal pa kami sa Sky Deck at medyo late na kami nakauwi, nag dala si Rina ng car nung pumunta siya samin kaya hindi problema yung pag uwi niya sakanila. Hindi ko maiwasan isipin yung sinabi niya kanina, ano kaya yung malalaman ko and I know that it's a big deal kasi sinabi naman niya na tanggap niya yung possibility na maiinis ako sakanya. Ang weird lang, wala talaga akong idea kung ano yun, pero kinakabahan ako.

October 29 Giselle and Ning's Party

Late na ng makarating ako sa Buddha Bar, mag isa lang ako nung papunta dahil nauna si Rina and Gigi. Hinatid lang ako ng driver kasi plano ko talagang uminom at may dala din naman na car si Rina. Pag pasok ko sa club ang tagal ko hinahanap yung mga friends ko, ang daming tao and most of them are familiar faces. Nakita ko din yung mga acquaintances nila Giselle. Tntry ko tawagan si Rina and sila Ning pero hindi sila sumasagot.

Hinahanap ko sila sa crowd pero hindi ko talaga sila makita, napatingin ako dun sa dj, because the ones in the dj booth caught my attention. Hindi kami usually dito pumupunta pero yung dj mukang familiar or baka may kamuka lang, I guess she's not a local. Tinignan ko ulit yung crowd wala talaga sila Ry, pero may idea ako kung saan sila mahahanap malamang vip area lang din. Nung napadaan yung isa sa high school friends nila Gigi, tinanong ko kung nasaan sila Rina, and tama nga ako vip area sa second floor at tinuro niya pa sakin si Giselle na may kausap na group pero mga mukang hindi familiar and some of them are caucasians. 

Nung naglalakad na ako papunta sa second floor nagulat ako ng biglang may yumakap sakin mula sa likod."Hey, who allowed you to be this hot?" Alam ko na kagad kung sino to kaya hinawakan ko na yung kamay niya. Pag tingin ko of course I'm right, si Karina. "Baby I was calling your phone kanina pa."

"I'm sorry the signal is kinda jammed. Oh my god Winter, you are so ing hot!" I gave her a light peck at nag hug kami. "Really baby or you are just drunk?"

"No I'm not I am just saying that you look really good, but yeah we're already drinking. Let's go, andun na sila Lia." Hinawakan na ni Rina yung kamay ko at nag lakad na kami kung nasaan yung mga friends namin.

"Winter my main girl!!!" Sigaw ni Yuqi, yung mga ganyan intro niya sigurado ako alam ko na ang kasunod. "Come here take this shot, look andito din si Ry!"

"Pup, you can drink whatever you want but you have to control it okay? You can sit with them, I'll just be here."

"No party buddy tonight?" tanong ko kay Rina."You are my party buddy,