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There's no such things as forever.

I love you.
That's what you always say or whisper into my ears.
But it's all lies. There's no reason, no sincerity to it.
You leave me just like that.
So easily, so effortlessly. 

It had always been only me, myself and I anyway.
There's nobody, everything is meaningless.
There's no more sugar-coated words from you.
I don't know if I should be glad or sad.
 

Tonight, I just wanna be crooked.
I wanna scream to my hearts content and perhaps, walk along the streets to spot couples, venting my anger on them.
I thought it would be better this way.
You know, let people join in my pain, my sadness. 

Pabo yah? Quit fooling around! Keke!
I was wrong. Utterly.
As I walk along the streets, emptiness and loneliness is killing me.
Memories of our past, your laughters, my chucklings creep into me.
Unlike my heart, the weather is perfect.
This is when I realise,
No one is weeping for me.
No one is weeping with me. 

I will stay by your side, forever and ever. I promise...
I, who believed in you and was happy, now look like a fool.
You, who pinky-promised, now is happy.
Happily living your life with another guy.
That's not me.

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