Thirty Four: Things to Ponder About

Blue Kiss
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-Sehun‘s POV-   I wasn’t called to the headmistress’s office that afternoon as I was expecting so I went straight home to change out of my uniform, planning to head to the hospital. I took a shower, drying my hair with the towel quite briskly as I went out of the bathroom. On my way to the bed to put my shirt on with the towel still draped over my damp hair, I banged by foot on the edge of the computer table, knocking things over to the floor on the process.   “Aish!” I muttered to myself. Somehow, my low tone seemed too loud in the still house. It was a new feeling being alone in it with Aerin bustling around all the time. It wasn’t that I haven’t tried being alone, but knowing that the person you’re always with wasn’t coming home anytime soon gave it an eerie feeling. I was so used to Aerin’s footfalls around the house and the sound of ‘Black Dalia Murder’ blaring in the speakers connected to the iMac or the sound of gunshots whenever she’s playing her gory, zombie game on maximum volume. When she was here doing those crazy stuff, it seemed annoying. Now, the only thing that was deafening was the silence. I missed her so much.   I removed the towel from my head and picked up some of the things that fell like her pencil holder and some picture frames, including the one that contained our photo. It was a stolen shot of us at the garden while we were playing under the sprinklers, but she still liked it too much that she insisted on buying a personalized frame just for it. I remembered arguing with her about it the previous summer. I can only smile at the idea now of how she thought it was cute. I sighed, putting it back to where it was.   I continued drying my hair after that. Aerin-ah, wake up already. I was supposed to go with her to Kai’s family dinner that night, but now that she couldn’t, I was having second thoughts about attending. Kai’s folks were good people who valued their son’s happiness above everything. The boys were all going as planned. I guess I’ll run in a little late. I had to see Aerin.   I went up to her portion of the room, not knowing why I went there when I saw a paper bag on top of her desk. Wondering what it was, I took the bag and opened it. A box in blue and silver wrapping was inside. I could tell they were shoes. I read the card that was stuck on top of it just by the electric blue ribbon that sealed it. It was for Kai. I sighed. She even bought a gift for him early. I couldn’t help but wonder if she had a premonition about what happened to her.   Sighing, I went back down to my part of the room and took out the tuxedo I needed to wear for the occasion and stuffed it inside the bag I was carrying with me to the hospital along with the presents for Kai. After changing, I took out the Ducati I owned and rode to the hospital. When I got there, only Ms. Na was there, watching Aerin. Ahjumma’s secretary smiled at me the moment she saw me enter the room.   “Sehun-ssi, what are you doing here? Don’t you have a dinner to attend to?” she asked.   I nodded at her. “It doesn’t begin until seven,” I said. It was like two hours before that. “I’d like to watch over Aerin before I go there.”   The secretary nodded. “The president went out for a bit. She’ll be back soon.”   I set down the bag on top of the other bed and sat down on the chair beside the bed. I looked at Ms. Na. “You should take a break. I’ll keep her company.”   She hesitated, but agreed eventually. “I’ll be back. I’ll just grab some coffee. Thank you.”   I simply nodded at her and she left the room. The moment I was alone with Aerin, I began staring at her, taking her hand in mine. She had improved for the past three days with her bruises going down. I brushed away a few strands of stray hair and tucked them behind her ear. Her skin felt cold under my skin.   Suddenly, I wished I had been more honest towards her. Now I didn’t know when I’d be able to express how I felt about her. I’m sure she had an idea, but it wasn’t enough. Like Chan Yeol hyung, I wanted her to hear it for herself. I needed to know how she would react to it. I sighed, leaning over her I kissed her on the forehead then sat back down without taking my eyes off of her.   “Aerin ah…you silly girl…wake up now. You’re missing so many things,” I whispered. “I’ll take you around Seoul again if you just open your eyes for me…for ahjumma. Please snap out of it. We all miss you, especially me. I don’t have anyone to argue with. You don’t know how lonely it feels sleeping alone in our room. Nobody nags at me to clean. Everyone’s waiting for you to wake up already. Kai is sad that you can’t attend his party and the rest of the guys are feeling down as well. You’ve got to recover for your mother’s sake and mine, too. You still have that deal with Chan Yeol hyung. How can he prove his worth to you when you’re lying there like that?” I sighed. “How am I going to tell you that I like you when you couldn’t even hear me? I look stupid already so just open your eyes. I don’t care if you laugh at me. I just need you to be well again…” My voice trailed off after that. I didn’t know how much I could take seeing her like that.   I breathed in, unable to exhale. I didn’t really feel like going to Kai’s party, but I hated to disappoint him. He’s already feeling down enough that Aerin wouldn’t be able to make it. It’s the least I could do to show up. I slowly got up from the chair and took the bag I
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Alisha0074 #1
Chapter 24: Wow..poor girl who could choose between those 2 anyways.... I feel ya girl!!!!
Alisha0074 #2
Chapter 15: Is it too late to declare for team sehun???
themeeka #3
Chapter 15: So glad the comment section barely gave spoilers. Rooting for #sehun as of the moment lol
almassbrn
#4
Chapter 74: this is so cuteee
hildanova #5
Chapter 74: This is one hell of a story.. I'm so drawn to this one.. I've been rooting her with him from the beginning and glad that they did end up together..
Babbie #6
Chapter 75: Kinda hard to get to ur other stories when u can't copy and paste links u provided n ur story list is not visible under ur profile...
adyoreyou
#7
Chapter 71: I... *TURNS ALL THE TABLES IN THE HOUSE PUNCHES THE WALL* whyyyyyyyyyyy chanyeolllllllll huaaaaaa i read this story just because of him this is heartbreaking sob sob T.T
trsndewi
#8
Chapter 58: Why sehun so sweet?!!! Aering must choose Sehun!!! #TeamSehun
Ileeny #9
I really enjoyed this story. I have no idea why it's not featured. And something that kind of made this story unique was that you included a lot of characters' perspectives. I don't see that a lot so it was refreshing to see.