“I love you Sun-Yung. I always did.”

I’ve heard everything what Myungsoo said very clearly however I couldn’t accept it.

I had no idea he hated his job. He worked there only to then leave it and move away with me..

I feel terrible. For this whole time, and even after my death I believed that Myungsoo is a bastard who probably cheated on me. A mass amount of guiltiness hit me. I thought and said  all these bad things about him when in real life, Myungsoo wanted the best for us.

I also kneeled so that I could face him.

“Don’t apologize. It’s my fault.. I’m sorry. I’m sorry that I didn’t believe you and I’ve only had the bad scenarios in my head. My heart is confused now that I know about all this but… You can’t kill yourself. You can’t.”

“And what is the point of my living?? They’ll kick me out of our house anytime soon anyway.. Sun-Yung, without you my life doesn’t have any sense.  I wanted to kill myself right after I found out you’re dead but.. I couldn’t accept the fact you’re gone. For the whole time I was keep telling myself that it’s not true. I didn’t go to work and I didn’t close the doors from our house because I waited for you. For this whole time. I believed you will come back. That’s why I didn’t end my life.. I had hope for you to come back. And look” He smiled sweetly “You’re here. I knew you’ll be back. And now we can leave this miserable world together. And then there will be just you and me. Forever, just like we planned remember?”

I shook my head. “You don’t understand. If you’ll kill yourself it will make things even more complicated. I can’t be with you anymore Myungsoo.”

His loving smile disappeared. “What do you mean? Of course you can, when I’ll die nothing will stop us anymore”

I didn’t want to tell him this. But I had no choice.

“Myungsoo.. that’s impossible. I can’t be with you because…” I took a deep breath. “Because I’m with someone else…” I whispered the last words.

Strangely, instead of being confused or surprised Myungsoo laughed.

“If that’s your ‘excuse’ to try to make me not to kill myself you’re wrong. Sun-Yung, I really want to do it and I will. Lying that you love someone else won’t stop me because I know it’s not true.”

I bit my lower lip. He really can’t kill himself. If he does then that will just complicate things even more. Exo k and m are is a mess already, Myungsoo’s death will make a even bigger chaos.

I really don’t want to hurt Myungsoo. Especially right now but I have to keep him away from death.

“I’m not lying Myungsoo. I-I I don’t love you anymore..”

Myungsoo kept smiling even through tears in his eyes didn’t stop falling. He didn’t want to accept the words I was telling him.

“I have someone else. Your death will be pointless. I won’t be with you anyway”

My heart ached as I said these words. Just a while ago he told me all of his feeling and telling him these cruel words was the worst thing I could do ever but I really couldn’t do anything other than this.

“Who is it?” Myungsoo suddenly said with a serious tone in his voice. He was looking right into my eyes which made me feel even more guilty and uncomfortable.

“It’s...It’s, complicated..” I sighed.

I couldn’t just simply tell him that I’m in love with 6 guys.

“Who is it?” he repeated. “If you love someone else I understand.. I can’t force you to love me back after everything I’ve done. You are allowed not to love me after I hurt you so much but just tell me who is it.

I want to make sure you’re in good hands. “

“I can’t tell you.. But you don’t have to worry about me anymore. I’m happy. And it will be the best for us both if you’ll be happy as well.. without me.”

Myungsoo suddenly started choking. He fell on the ground and started choking.

“Myungsoo!” I tried to pat his back or do something but I couldn’t reach him.  

A force out of no where pulled me towards the doors I screamed Myungsoo’s name as he was still on the floor choking, I tried to reach him with my hand but as I got pulled towards the doors, he just got further and further away.

I found myself back in the living room next to Myungsoo’s body. He was choking now as well. I panicked, not knowing what to do.

“Sun-yung I was getting worried, half an hour has passed alrea-” Baekhyun suddenly stopped in shock at the sight of me shaking Myungsoo’s body.

“HELP ME” I cried shaking Myungsoo’s helpless body endlessly. He wasn't’ coughing anymore..

Baekhyun ran up to me and kneeled next to Myungsoo’s body as well.

He placed his fingers on Myungsoo’s neck and he looked at me with a frown.

“H-he’s d-dead” said Baekhyun.