03.38 a.m.

Jiyong and Taeyeon stayed in each other embrace. The room turned silent right after their nerve-wracking and silly conversation with Heechul ended, their mind wandered everywhere.

Especially Jiyong

‘She deserves a better man’

‘The G-Dragon... scandal maker, sensational idol, notorious playboy’

‘You, with your fashion disaster… Did you really think that everyone praised your fashion sense? Think again!’

Heechul’s words stabbed straight to his heart

It hurts.

‘She deserves a better man’

Those words might be the very last words he wants to hear in this entire galaxy.

The conversation was really… Bad

Heechul with his defense mode, talked all the ugly side of Jiyong

And Jiyong with his defense mode, tried to convince Heechul that he loves Taeyeon more than everything

And he’s willing to do anything for her

And he’s willing to leave everything he has just to be with her

Crazy

Yes, he is… Crazy for Kim Taeyeon

‘Just by looking at her, my heart feels easiness. Just by hearing her laughs, my sadness disappears. Just by looking at her smiling face, it’ll fix my broken day. The hollow feeling when I see her cry. When she’s not around, I’ll miss her so badly to the point that I couldn’t think or breathe properly. She’s my air, she’s my sun, and she’s my life now, hyung. I’m willing to give up on my career for her, if I have to. I will let go every single thing in this world just to be with her. I don’t care about those things. All that mattered for me now, is her. MY Kim Taeyeon. ‘

He didn’t think twice before saying those words to Kim freaking Heechul

It’s more like an instinct to him because he has to stand up for her, to preventing her from leaving him.

Frankly, he personally doesn’t know what will be left in him if Taeyeon away from his life.

When she already turned into his air

When she already turned into his sun

When there’s her name in every heartbeat

When there’s her name in every cell of his brain

What will be left then, if his reason for life is leaving him?

He can’t find the answer. Heck, even his brain is too scared to think about that.

But he’s sure that she’s happy with him

She was always smiling…

 Always laughing…

Her eyes twinkle every time he kissed her…

She always gave him her loving gaze every time they meet…

And every human made mistake

Of course there’s time when she was crying and hurting because of him

But still, she was happy with him, right?

Strangely, he can’t find the answer too. And the uncertainty starts to clouded his mind

Then, it hits him hard.

The ugly insecure feeling is coming back

And it brings back his worst version of words in this entire galaxy:

‘She deserves a better man’

Really?

03.56 a.m.

“Baby, you turned quiet for more than fifteen minutes already. What’s wrong?”

Taeyeon propped up on her elbows then leaned in to give him peck on his cheek.

“Tell me… tell me… te...te...te...te... tell me~” she sang WG’s Tell Me just like he used to when something bothered her mind.

And that made Jiyong laughs

“That should be my line, Taeyeon.” he playfully retorted

“I have no other choice, mister. You turned into a handsome rock for more than fifteen minutes, and leaving no clue for me.”

He turned his head to Taeyeon’s direction, greeting her eyes with his sad and worry gaze.

And in a flash, she knew that Jiyong is feeling insecure.

Taeyeon leaned in once again and planted a soft long loving kiss on his lips. She kissed him slowly, sweetly, lovingly, tried to put all her feeling for him trough the kiss. She wanted to show him on how much she loves him, on how much he meant to her, on how precious he is for her life.

God, she loves him.

And Jiyong got her message. He pulled her closer by her waist, so she was on the top of him. Totally lost in the shared moment with Taeyeon’s pleading kiss and Jiyong’s hands caressing her back. They continued kissing for a few more minutes before Taeyeon pulled herself from the kiss.

“Don’t ever think about that again, Jiyong. You know that I love you.”

Sometimes he thinks that maybe, Taeyeon has a supernatural ability in reading people’s mind.

His mind, to be exact.

“I know, baby. Just… I feel, somehow Heechul’s words was right. That I’m not good enough to have you, that I’m a trouble maker and scandalous idol, that you’re too—“

His words were stopped by her lips.

“Stop it Jiyong, I meant it!” her voice raised a little

“Sorry baby.”

A heavy sigh escaped Taeyeon’s lips.

“Jiyong baby, my sun, my life, my everything… you’re not a bad guy. You’re kind and warm. You’re free like a bird, which sometimes caused you a trouble. You’re very loyal to your friends that sometimes led you to doing some crazy thing with them. You’re a great son that made your parent proud. You’re a great musician that made your fans attending and chanting your name crazily on your concert. And you’re a great person that made my heart swell in happiness with every word, every gift, every sweet memory you gave me.”

Jiyong was on the verge of crying when hearing this

How can be a person could be so kind and understanding? Despite his ugly side, despite his despicable past, she is still being able to found his positive things. Suddenly he felt ashamed for ignoring her for weeks just because his nonsense jealousy. And not to forget his mistake—

“And everyone made mistake, my love.”

Wow…

She sure has that kind of ability

“You don’t have to feel small or insecure. The other people might saying that you’re far from perfect, but for me… you’re beyond perfect.”

She was smiling and he was crying.

Crying like a little boy