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Taeyang's POV

"Hey."

"Hey." I laid next to her on my bed. I started playing with my fingers. How am I suppose to ask her? I wrapped my arms around her playing with her hair. I rested my head on her shoulder - taking in a deep breath - smelling her.

"What are you doing?" She giggled. She looked over at me.

"Nothing, beautiful." I smiled hoping she can't see through it. I know she's leaving soon. She never tells me when. Just soon. It makes me nervous, anxious, sad. "I wanted to ask you something." My smile slowly faded.

She can see right through it. She can feel somethings wrong. Her eyes started to worry. "What's wrong?"

I sighed. "When are you leaving?"

She exhaled. She closed her eyes. She planted a kiss - a deep one. "Soon." She was staring at me. "Let's get something to eat," she whispered with a smile. "Please?"

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Mag's POV

I'm sitting on the couch in the living room watching TV. Ash is right next to me. I need to talk to her, but I don't want to draw attention to us. Dammit, I'll just text her.

Taeyang asked me when we're leaving....... i didn't tell him yet. - Mag

WHAT? You haven't told him???????? - Ash

I just said soon. Did you tell Vic? - Mag

Yeah, of course I did. I told him last week after we talked to YG. - Ash

How did he react? - Mag

He was sad. But he said we'll deal with it later. He wants the rest of my stay to be happy =/ - Ash

I took a deep breath and looked over at Taeyang. He's cooking us dinner. He's chatting with everyone else enjoying himself. I can't imagine him not being him. Distant, sad, depressed.... I took a deep breath. I should tell him.

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Taeyang's POV

I finished cooking fried rice. My diet has been no carbs.. So rice is mandatory. Everyone devoured it well.

"Young-bae," Top sighed. "You'd make a fine wife." he was patting his stomach. "All we need is beer." He laughed to himself.

I shook my head. I got up to the fridge and grabbed Soju. I tossed it to him. "Hyung," I yelled.

His eyes widen. "I love you, Young-bae."

Everyone in the room started laughing. Maknae got up an collected he plates. "Since Hyung cooked, I'll clean." Maknae was unbearably perky right now.

Ash got up and followed. "I'll help too," she smiled and started laughing.

"Mag, how'd you like his cooking?" Jiyong asked. "Pretty good, huh?"

Mag nodded. "He's a far better cook than me." she giggled. "The only thing I'm confident in is instant noodles."

"Reallly? He makes the best I've ever had." Jiyong smiled. "Let's have a cook off!"

Mag started shaking her head. "No no no no.." she started laughing louder. "I.. it's the only thing I make that's edible."

She's so cute. "I'll teach you." I said softly.

She looked at me and smiled. "Aww, really?" she bit her lips. "You're the best!" she hugged me. I wrapped my arm around her shoulder.

Jiyong was watching us attentively. "Well," he drummed his fingers on the table, "I got to go to the studio and meet Teddy." He got up and grabbed Top by the shoulder. "You too, Top."

Top nearly fell off his chair. "Huh? Why?"

"He wants to go over the other tracks." 

Top finished his beer and tossed it in the trash can. He frowned. "See you guys later."

We waved bye to them. Daesung ended up leaving to go out with his What's Up cast members. 

"Hmmm," I whispered in Mag's ear.. slightly kissing it. "What are we going to do?" 

She started giggling. Hugging me tighter. "Who's Teddy?"

I jerked my head back, "huh?"

"Sorry," she laughed, "I wanted to ask you yesterday, but you know," she looked at me, "anyways, Jiyong mentioned him again. Who is that?"

"Ohh," I leaned my head on hers, "he's our producer. After he texted you, he had to leave. I wanted you guys to meet yesterday. He probably would have made things a little easier," I laughed, "do you want to meet him?"

"Sure."

"Right now? You can see how Jiyong works," I chuckled. Jiyong in the studio brings out a whole different person. It's something I like seeing.

"Right now? I don't want to intrude more than I already am." She turned to face me, but she was looking down. She started playing with the strings on my basketball shorts. I bit my lips. Why does her hand go there? 

"If you want.. did you want to do something else?" I leaned myself lower so I can see her face. "Hmm?"

"There's no way to roam around the city, huh?" She said softly. "I mean, I know we really can't.. but can we drive around?"

I sighed. I know we haven't been able to go out together on a date aside from Jeju. I don't know if we can. I looked towards the walls. "Well, did you want to go to the movies?"

"Really?" Her voice got higher. 

"I don't know yet - if that's really possible." I really don't want her hopes up. "Let me call Ji first."

Her smile got a little smaller. "I'm sorry. It isn't a good idea."  She got up, "let's go upstairs."

"Nooo," I pulled her to sit again, "I actually know someone that owns a theatre," I looked through my phone. "I haven't talked to them for awhile, but they might be able to get us in without being noticed."

She shook her head. "Let's just go upstairs."

I sighed. "You sure?"

She nodded and got up pulling me off the chair. She bit her lips. "Does this apartment have a pool?"

A pool. My eyes widen. I completely forgot. She's never been to the roof of this apartment building. "I have an idea." We were in the elevator already. "Want to go camping?" I laughed.

She tilted her head to the side, "what?"

"The weathers nice tonight. Let's sleep outdoors under the moonlight," I said. That sounded so... cheesy.

She rolled her eyes at me. "You're so funny."

We got off the elevator and walked to my room. I opened the door and sat on my bed. "I'm serious. Let's nightswim. The rooftop is ours for the night. We can watch movies there, too. I'll bring my projector."

Her eyes widen. "A projector?" She walked towards my open arms.

I hugged her, "just trust me. You'll like it." I scoffed putting my hands under her shirt. "We're going to enjoy this night."

"I enjoy every night," she giggled. "Don't you?" she joked.

"I enjoy every moment." I felt my bulge developing. 

"Sure," she said, "Help me put on my bathing suit?" She took off her shirt. "I have problems tying it." She giggled.

My bulge is made. I sighed and my lips. I was staring at her. I ran my hands up to her bra buckle pushing her closer to me. She leaned her face closer to mine. I snapped her bra off. She was trying to hold it in place still. She pushed me on the bed. She threw her bra on the floor. She placed her hand on my bulge - rubbing it softly. I closed my eyes enjoying it. She leaned closer to my ear. "This is for AFTER the swim. My bathing suit is in my bag over there," she whispered as she pointed to a purple bag on my desk. I laughed. I sighed and got up to get the bathing suit. I know my bulge is noticable. When I turned around, she wrapped herself in the blanket.

"What are you doing?" I asked tossing the bathing suit at her before I laid on the bed again.

"I was cold." She smiled. 

"Can I lay in there with you?" I took off my shirt.

She smiled and lifted the blanket. She was . She bit her lips, "I don't feel like swimming anymore." She pressed her lips together. 

I laughed, and went under the sheets with her. "You're sneaky," I said wrapping the blanket around us. I hugged her closer to me feeling her skin. "I like it." I kissed her. 

She rubbed my stomach going under my basketball shorts. She was playing with it. "I'm craving it," she whispered into my ear. My eyes widen. What was she craving? It might explode in there.

"What?" I said in disbelief.

She laughed and pushed herself on top of me. She kissed me and went under the covers. She was kissing down my chest, down my stomach. My hand started running down her hair and I started pushing her down more. She giggled. She was tracing my v-line with her finger.. kissing all the way down. Until finally, she took it out. I grabbed her hair. She was it.. wrapping her tongue around it.

"Oh my God..." I said under my breath.

She finally put it in... just the head only. She was it so hard and running her teeth softly on it. I cringed. It felt amazing. I felt the pressure trying to release. Not yet, I kept telling myself. I don't want to go yet. I pulled her head off of it. I was panting. I never felt that before. She started the head like a lollipop. Hard, but slow. Finally, she puts it all the way. She it so hard, I almost yelled. As it came out, her teeth ran through it softly. That pain was excruiating, but I was craving for more. I wanted her to do it again. It came out. She didn't use her hands. Her hands were gripping my thighs. She kissed my stomach up to my chest, my neck, my jaw, and finally my mouth. She spread her legs, gesturing to put it in.

"You like it?" she said. "Tonight is about you." She kissed me. She pushed it in. We both moaned as it went all the way in. She placed both her hands on my chest. She was staring at me. She smirked. I was looking at the most beautiful girl in the world. I grabbed her hand and kissed it. Placing it on the side of my face. Then, her eyes started watering. She leaned down and kissed me again. This time, this kiss was deeper and stronger. When it parted, she bit my bottom lip. She was breathing a little harder. I felt something wet hit my cheek. I ran my hand through her hair pushing her harder on my face for our next kiss. I let go of her and I see she's full of tears, but she was smiling.

"What's wrong?" I asked softly. I rubbed her cheeks. 

"I'm leaving next week." 

My smile disappeared. I saw tears running down her face... one by one. My hand dropped from her cheek. It grabbed her hand, putting it on the side of my face. I kissed it again, watching her face. Watching how she would react. I couldn't say anything. Instead, I just wanted to kiss her. Keep kissing her. I wanted to have all of her. As much of her. I leaned myself up kissing her again. My hands were on her back - gripping her tighter to me. I held her when I sat myself up. We kept kissing until I pushed myself away. Her eyes were red - she was still crying. Even when she cries, she's still beautiful. I didn't know what to say. I ran my hand through her hair, holding her head up. I wiped her tears with my hands. And I kissed her again.. softly.

I never had this sudden urge to just ... have . The most passionate possible. I wanted to show her how much she meant to me. How much I'm going to miss her.

I didn't want to break the kiss. I kept kissing her and wiping her tears.

This time, the way I feel is much stronger. I threw her back on the bed.. with me on top. "Tonight is about us." I said looking her dead in the eye. "About us." I said again. She smiled. She put her hand around my neck, rubbing the back of my head.

I kissed her softly and I slowly myself in. Each time, I held her tighter. I didn't want to let her go. I want to feel her heart beat. Feel the pounding in her chest. I wanted to hear her breathing change. A little deeper, a little faster. I wanted every piece of her. I didn't want to lose any moment of touch. Each time I went deeper, the more I wanted to feel her body cringe. Feel her body arch. I wanted to kiss every part of her.

Finally, we stared at each other. I pushed it in and I watched her expressions. She kept staring at me. And at that point, we both knew how we felt.

That night.. was one of the best nights of my life.

It wasn't just we had.

It wasn't anything like that at all.

There's no other way to put it.

...

We made love. I made love.

I love her.

and she's leaving next week.