" It started about a month ago.

You know, at first it wasn't that bad.

There were those messages I got on my mobile. There are some ELFs that have our numbers but I never received messages with that content.

I know that there are haters outside and I had a hard time to get used to it. Sometimes I'm still bothered but not as much as in earlier years.

But those messages... first there were just negative comments in it about me being ugly and so on. Okay, it wasn't nice and I really don't know how this hater got my number but, well, there were friendlier messages from others so it was alright.

But it got worse... It seemed like this person knew things about me... things that really got to me...that hurt me... deeper than I thought...

In the beginning the person didn't write everyday... just every few days. But it became worse and until last week there were four or five messages everyday. They became longer and more offending...  it implicated our relationship, Donghae. Not that the outside knows something about it. I guess that person just assumes but nevertheless...

I got scared of my mobile, even if I didn't want to. I told myself it's stupid to even think about it. I tried to ignore it but I couldn't. Every ringing send the chills down my spine. A week ago, after the cold got away I decided to do something. I changed my mobile number as you know...

I got no new messages...

Until today... I guess...."

***

Heechul

"That's what he told us after we conviced him of talking. So, shortly said: We should keep an eye on Hyukjae."

Leeteuk ends his speech and looks around.

We gathered in Shindongs dorm after Donghae and Hyukjae went to bed. Fortunately everyone's around.They listened in silence, their faces changed from clueless to looking surprised. Now they just look blank.

" Bastard...", Kyuhyun is the first one to speak again. "If I ever meet this person..."

"You'll beat the crap out of him or her?" Sungmin asks.

"I didn't want to call it that but you're right."

I guess I'd accompany him. Many people think I'm cold hearted. But it's totally different. I have a strong protective instinct for my band mates... my brothers. And if someone hurts them I get mad, really mad.

Especially when it's about Hyukjae. We might be a little awkward around each other but that's just because sometimes I don't know how to treat him the right way. Was this sentence too harsh? Should I have comforted him another way? Questions that follow me around every time I'm around him. He's a crybaby. Most probably the one in the band who starts crying the easiest. I feel the strong urge to protect our little monkey. Even if he might never notices it.  

I was shocked when I got the message.

I still remember the exact wording.

Look after Donghae.

That ugly bastard who clings to him. How can you tolerate it?

Monkey?

I call him a swine...dirty...good enough to get eaten.

Relationship?

Just Donghae who pities him. What else should he do with him? He's good for nothing. Just fills the place someone who's worthy should get.

No looks. No personality. No talent.

He's got nothing.

He's nothing.

Take care of it or I'll do it.  

Hyukjae is such a precious person. How could someone think about him that way?

"How's Hyukjae-hyung?" Ryeowook asks. He looks like he's about to cry.

"Hae's with him.", Shindong answers for me. "He took him to bed. Hyukkie was totally out of it."

" This is something he doesn't deserve." Sungmin stares at the table, just like Yesung who nods slowly. " Calling him like that, saying he's not worth it..."

"Yes. Hyukjae always had a low self-confidence. And this is something even someone with a huge ego couldn't handle that easily."

"Siwon is right. That's why we will look after him. Not that obviously. You know him. If he thinks he worries us--"

"--he'd just say everything is fine and bottle it up again." I finish Leeteuks sentence.

Our leader agrees. "Heechul is right. He doesn't need to know. And there's still Donghae by his side. I guess he'll keep his eyes glued to him."

"He was mad after Hyukjae told you?"

I wave Kyuhyuns comment aside. "Mad is understated. I've never seen our fishy being in a rage like that. It was kind of scary. But he hold himself back. Didn't want to scare Hyukkie any more I think."

"Well, he's right. He needs to protect his beloved husband." Kyuhyun says, still frowning.

He's right. He needs to stay by his side. Even if Hyukjae says it's alright. I know him. Those word affected him. And Donghae is the only one able to convince him of the opposite.