EPILOGUE

I was currently getting ready to go out early in the morning, dressing up properly even if the one I'm visiting won't really see me. I got dressed and took my purse, looking back before closing the door. I smiled and decided to give my husband a peck on the forehead before I go. I walked over by the bed and leaned down to meet his forehead with my lips. 

​"I'm just going to visit Seunghyun, okay?" I whispered gently and all I got as a response was a groan and a stir. I chuckled to myself and gathered myself to walk out of our masters bedroom and to our children's rooms. I visited our eldest daughter's room, who's already three years old and saw that she was asleep. I smiled as I walked over to her and kissed her forehead. 

"Omma's going out for a bit, okay? I'll be back. Appa's sleeping." I whispered into her ear, knowing that she's able to hear me even if she's asleep. I walked out of her room and walked right inside my second oldest daughter's room to see that she's already up, but her eyes are droopy. I smiled and walked over to her, immediately placing my purse on the side of my hip as it slung over my shoulder. "Hi baby girl." I greeted her as I carried my two year old daughter. 

"O-omma." She called me without much enthusiasm, obviously still sleepy. I giggled as I rocked her back and forth to make her sleep. I did it for a few more times and finally found my daughter asleep on my shoulder. I smiled and laid her back down on her little bed and kissed her forehead. I looked back and smiled as I gently closed the door behind me. 

Lastly, I went inside my youngest son's room, who was only nine months old. I smiled as I saw him still sleeping soundly. I kissed his forehead despite me having to reach over his crib. Once I saw all my family members secured, I went out of our house and jumped inside my car to visit someone who changed my life. 

I drove for an hour maximum and have finally arrived at the destination, but of course, I couldn't forget about the bouqet of flowers I always get him whenever I visit Seunghyun. I took the flowers on the passenger seat and sighed as I got out of my car. I locked my car and swiftly placed my car key inside my sling bag. I bowed down at the keeper and greeted him. 

"Mr. Han, good morning. How have you been?" I asked him as he was busily sweeping the small driveway. He smiled at me as he fixed the hat on his head and greeted me with the same exact thing every year, "Ahhh! Sun Hee! It's nice to see you, visiting Seunghyun again, I see?" I nodded at him as I bowed again. 

"I'll take my leave and visit Seunghyun, Mr. Han." I told him politely as he waved me off. I turned my back on him and walked towards the small driveway and crossed many marble plates with flowers on top of them. I sighed slightly as I knew I was near Seunghyun's plate already. When I arrived at what it seemed like a small meadow, I looked for Seunghyun's name and smiled. I placed down the flower I was holding and looked at his name plate. 

Choi Seunghyun. 

November 4, 1909 - April 11, 2013

"Hey Seunghyun. It's me again. Well, it's been a while hasn't it?" I stated as I stared down his black marble name plate. Honestly, I would always go here with my family; my mother, father, unnie, and my oppa, but this year, I decided to go alone to have a piece in mind with Seunghyun. I had a lot to say and even if I know we won't be able to talk, well I'll be able to, I just won't any replies at all. From the time I met him, I wanted him to know that I am thankful to have met a guy like him. We had ups and downs, he tried to kill me, he took away our child, and he might have tried to separate me and Seungri, but I still can't help but be thankful. 

He's one of the people who brought me happiness at one point; he brought me joy, and he gave me love. Although it was somewhat a different context of love, where he was possessive and all, I still appreciate all the efforts he did. 

Right now, I was thankful because if not for him, I wouldn't be happy as I am now. 

If not for him, I wouldn't be with my family right now. 

If not for him, I wouldn't be with Jiyong for six years now. 

If not for him, I wouldn't be able to realize how good life is. 

After that day, I realized how wonderful life is. That I should cherish every moment of it. That I should love what I do or what I'll do in the future. Right now, I'm thankful because God gave me three amazing children whom I love so much, and a loving husband whom I can depend on.