Hannah sweeps the drink in her left hand by the sight of those eyes on her, panicking that she won’t get what she wants. Right away when that person walks past Kai to reach her, Hannah holds her right hand with the other drink as far away as possible.

“Stay away!” she bursts out, her voice shaky but her eyes are glaring at the pair of eyes staring back at her. His face is made of stone, strict and furious he looks at her, leaning over her to reach the drink in her hand.

“Hannah, stop it,” Jonghyun demands in a low, husky voice that shows he is tired and furious at her, and he finally reaches the drink to take it from her. He stands up straight, giving it to Kai who puts it on the washbasin. “Thank you, Jongin; you can go now.”

Hannah feels like a child being scolded because of him, wanting to glare at Kai when he leaves but she doesn’t because Jonghyun is there. “I did nothing wrong,” she defends herself, sounding more of a child than she wants and she looks down, upset that she failed and that he of all people had to come.

“Of course you did nothing wrong; you asked an underage to get alcohol from you while you hide in the bathroom. Very nice of you,” Jonghyun sighs when squatting down by the booth-door, looking at her with softer eyes. “What are you doing, Hannah?”

She keeps her head low when pouting.

“You are sitting on the floor,” he mentions with another sigh, but this time she actually looks at him; glaring at him.

“Then you can try to wear these heels without getting tired,” she exhorts shortly. “I’m sitting on a magazine, not right on the floor.”

“Get up.” He doesn’t listen to her, and when Hannah doesn’t seem like she is going to follow his command, he grabs her arm to pull her up, ignoring her whining when pulling her out from the booth.

Hannah leans against the wall when he lets her go, feeling dizzy from getting up that fast. Jonghyun is shaking his head when pouring out the containing in the glass to fill it with water instead. Still pouting, her head still dizzy, Hannah asks when he arrived. Her head pounds from getting up too fast, she has to close one eye because of the feeling.

“I have just arrived; I asked Emelia by the bar if she had seen you when she saw Jongin getting two drinks,” Jonghyun explains and pauses the story to give her the water, “drink.”

She glares at him, but takes the glass in her hand.

“He is underage, but he said he was getting it for a friend; he couldn’t lie, so I went with him,” Jonghyun says, holding a finger under the glass to lift it up to her lips. He doesn’t say that Emelia was the one chuckling and telling Kai he is holding something in because he looked guilty when being questioned, and then Kai had said Hannah wanted the drinks and that he didn’t know what to do. Poor boy, Jonghyun thought; he wouldn’t have been able to say no to Hannah if he was in Kai’s shoes either. And when he came inside the bathroom, seeing Hannah sit on the floor in the shortest dress and pouring drinks down … Jonghyun shakes his head by the memory.

Jonghyun takes the glass when it’s empty, filling it anew. This time, Hannah just pouts at him, crossing her arms over her chest.

“What’s wrong with me drinking? Everyone else is doing it,” she complains at him wanting her to drink water. She doesn’t want to say she feels sick drinking the water, secretly hoping she will throw up like she originally planned but also, she doesn’t want to throw up in front of Jonghyun.

“You are not allowed to drink,” Jonghyun murmur and nods at her to take the glass. She just glares at him, not showing any signs of taking it.

“I know what I’m doing,” she tells him, leaning her back against the wall with confidence.

“Apparently not,” Jonghyun growls and then on his lips, breathing through his nose when putting down the glass on the side. “You are sitting in the bathroom and sweeping drink after drink on your own. That’s not knowing what you’re doing. I’m taking you home.”

“You just got here,” Hannah is fast to say at his last words, her voice weak. She hasn’t gotten enough to drink yet.

“And now we’re leaving,” Jonghyun answers and takes her wrist to lead her out, but Hannah gets out of his grip. The alcohol is affecting her now, she can feel her whole mind change and she is frowning at him.

“I want a drink.”

Jonghyun is stunned by her saying those words; it took him off guard and Hannah backs up against the wall again, nodding at her own words. She is drunk. He has seen it before, but the difference between him and Kai is that Jonghyun is her boyfriend.

He step up to her, touches her arm, not grabbing it like Hannah expects so when she is busy waving his hand away, Jonghyun touches her chin with his other hand to lift her face up to meet his, and he kisses her. Hannah blinks by the warm lips, as if she just woke up, but her eyelids are tired… She looses her breath when Jonghyun takes a closer step to her and she can feel his body lightly pressing against hers, and his lips are on hers. Hannah lets her arm go around his neck to pull him closer, deepening the kiss by letting him get access with his tongue and his simple kiss becomes a passionate make-out session. Her knees get weak from his tongue and she thinks she would glide down on the floor if he wasn’t holding her up against the wall. She moans, her fingers goes through his hair, Jonghyun lets his hand travel down her thigh, impressed with how her high-heels makes it easier for him to grasp a hold of the back of her thigh. The fabric of the dress is strange, but he is gone in the thoughts of the kissing instead.

Not until he feels her arms loose strength around his neck he pulls away, holding on to her arms when Hannah weakly tries to hold on to him again.

“We’re leaving,” he tells her, again in a demanding tone.

She pouts, not happy that they are leaving without her doing what she has waited to do all day. He holds on to her hand, leading her out the bathroom and inside the party hall. There, Hannah says she has to say goodbye to her ladies; she knows Emelia is by the bar. Jonghyun lets her lead, but even if she loosens her grip of his hand, he doesn’t loose his. She grimaces a bit for that he won’t let her go on her own. Just one more drink; can she somehow get it from the bar with him there?

Hannah puts their hands behind her back to change to the other hand when coming up to where Emelia and some others are standing together. She stands behind Emelia, glancing at the bartender but begins to introduce the staff and a dancer to Jonghyun, who though already has been introduced once doesn’t mind to join in the conversation that is being held there. The blonde girl smiles when seeing his attention on the others, and she is fast to motion for the bartender she wants a drink.

As if she is on clouds, Maria slinks up on Hannah’s other side, happy and flushing and excited over the dance-floor. She calls for a drink from the bartender and Hannah knows Jonghyun is looking at them when her hand leaves his. She has an excuse to turn away; Maria is happy and talkative, saying she has danced so much already that she is thirsty. Hannah gets her drink and she hides it with her body from Jonghyun, who is standing a little behind her, and Hannah can’t stop smiling at her evil plan. She drinks carefully to not get caught, nodding to pretend she is listening to Maria.

Maybe she will throw up when she comes home. Hopefully not on the way…

Hannah hurries to finish the drink, even if she is feeling horrible from all the alcohol she has poured down, and now she knows she won’t take anymore. She feels sick.

“Maria,” she says loudly, a hand on her friend’s shoulder, “Jonghyun is taking me home.”

She nods and looks behind Hannah, waving to someone and then hugs Hannah to go back to those she dances with and Hannah turns around to look at Jonghyun. She imagines him glaring at her, as if he saw her sneaking a drink without his approval, but she puts her arms around him, feeling dizzy and her eyes can’t focus. Jonghyun gives her a peck above her ear – or he might say something, she doesn’t hear – before he is leading her out.

It takes forever until she realises it is a third person walking with them, and by then they are already by Jonghyun’s white car.

“Julia,” Hannah giggles and moves from Jonghyun to Julia, to embrace her for a hug when they stop outside the car. “Where are we going?”

“Home,” Julia chuckles at her, smiling, “did you drink a little too much?”

“Why are you going home?” Hannah whispers to her. She is wasted now. If it is only the alcohol or if she is completely gone because of the pill too, she don’t know and she probably will never know either – not that she minds.

“I’m tired,” Julia answers lets Jonghyun hold on to Hannah when taking a seat.

Hannah hurries in the backseat with Julia, surprising both of her friends as they expected her to sit at the front. Hannah smiles when taking on the seatbelt, happy that Julia sits in the middle and not far on the other side.

“Where are we going?” she asks when the front door is closed.

“We are going home…” Julia answers and grimaces at Jonghyun who is sitting by the steering wheel.

Hannah pouts out with her lower lip and sadly looks at the side. “I don’t have a home…”

“Don’t be silly, you live with me,” Julia says, trying to cheer her up as she does know what that comment is about. Hannah doesn’t move though, suddenly very sad.

Jonghyun drives out on the road, low music playing through the speakers of the car and Hannah hears it, but still she doesn’t hear it.

“Hannah,” Julia says in a low voice, leaning a little to the younger girl, “did you drink because of your family?”

She wants to cry, continuing to pout and she thinks she get tears in her eyes when looking at the driver. He looks handsome, she thinks with a sigh. She can’t look at her friend, and she can barely keep her eyes open.

“What family?” she mumbles tiredly and rests her head on Julia’s shoulder. It’s uncomfortable, but she does it anyway. It is dark outside, completely black in the sky, but everything around them is lightened up by neon signs and street lamps and cars. “If I drink, I might forget,” Hannah adds quietly, “it might be- it could vanish from my memory.”

Hannah forgets things at times. During the after party now, she could recognize some faces but she has absolutely no memory of who they are. She once forgot her own birthday, but it was just for a moment. If she drinks, maybe she will forget her family that doesn’t like her… Maybe that was her goal all the time: not to throw up, but to drink to forget.

She breathes in and moves her head to the other side.

“This car reminds me of Jonghyun,” she whispers.

Both Jonghyun and Julia look at her. Jonghyun glances in the mirror back at her, confused; who does she think is driving?

“You are completely wasted,” Julia laughs though, not seeing how Hannah begins to pout again.

She pulls in her dress, uncomfortable with how short it is and she keeps her legs together. Julia got to wear shorts and a fancy top, looking as if she has been at a fancy summer party. Hannah looks like she is ready to show her leg to get a customer on the street.

“I want to drink too,” Hannah mutters to Julia after being quiet for some time. Julia had talked to Jonghyun about drinking, limits and such, and Hannah was in her own thoughts for a while. “I want to get drunk and make mistakes too… Who doesn’t do that in our age?”

“Carolina,” Julia jokes and laughs. Hannah smiles weakly too. “I’m impressed with myself actually, for not drinking so much this time.”

“Do you ever think about one-night stands?” Hannah whispers to Julia, not really sure what language she is using but Julia’s eyes widens because Hannah’s boyfriend is sitting there. Jonghyun doesn’t react; she spoke in a mix of Swedish and English.

“I’m single; what else should I think about when I’m on a party? But we only meet idols, it’s strange that way,” Julia answers and looks at Hannah. “Do you think about it?”

She shakes her head, to Julia’s relief, and Julia glances at Jonghyun who is trying to know what she means because other than Hannah’s question, they speak in Korean. It’s rude otherwise, Julia thinks, to keep him outside the conversation. Or should she speak in another language in case Hannah says something bad?

“Or I have thought about it,” Hannah admits, speaking in Korean again; “I haven’t thought of people, but just … if it really is like in the movies when you wake up next to a stranger.”

“Is that the kind of mistakes you were talking about?” Julia grimaces.

“No,” Hannah giggles, a little embarrassed. She wants to speak in a lower voice so the driver won’t hear.

“Because you do know you have a boyfriend, right?” Julia asks in Swedish.

“I know,” Hannah answers, in Korean. The mix of languages is confusing for both Julia and Jonghyun, while Hannah doesn’t notice is. “Julia… If you imagined the future, would you see me and Jonghyun together still?”

This time Julia catches Jonghyun looks in the mirror at them. She is confused, but he looks more confused. She feels bad for him to have his girlfriend sit in his car and talk about him as if he isn’t there.

“How far in the future do you mean?” Julia asks in Swedish, not sure she wants to talk about this.

Hannah shrugs her shoulders. “A few years?” she guesses. Julia wants to hit her for continuing to speak in Korean all of a sudden.

“Why wouldn’t you be together?” Julia continues to ask in Swedish, trying to hint Hannah on the language.

“Love isn’t eternal,” Hannah whispers, and now she actually says it in English. But continues in Korean; “He is the perfect boyfriend, even when I make him mad at me; he is perfect. For me, this is … a crazy love… It is crazy… I just love him more and more, I think, and the more he looks at me, the more I think he really loves me too… But… it’s impossible, isn’t it? Me, being insane and annoying, and him… oh, Julia, you really got no idea…”

Julia is smiling, and Jonghyun almost misses the green light on the road. He is biting his lip, a habit Julia remembers Hannah has. It is her first time actually in the same car as them, only with them, and she realises it now when seeing that habit.

“This car reminds me of him,” Hannah whispers to her, touching the backrest for the seat in front of her, “it smells like him too.”

“I wonder why,” Julia giggles, rolling her eyes at the youngest. She is really wasted; commenting the interior of a car while talking about her boyfriend who she somehow doesn’t seem to know is in the same car.

Hannah is quiet for the rest of the ride, just sitting there and breathing in the smell of her boyfriend in the car, and the other two keep glancing at her to see if she is awake. Hannah is awake, only now and then closing her eyes tiredly. She can hear Julia and the driver talk with each other, and she melts away to the voice of her boyfriend. She likes that voice, like chocolate melting in your mouth against your tongue.

She is wasted, making Julia laugh when they are getting out of the car and Hannah can’t even hold on to the door to get help up. Jonghyun holds her both hands to help her out of the car, supporting her with a strong arm around her when following Julia inside the apartment-building. He smells lovely.

Getting inside the elevator, Hannah walks to the corner, but the moment she is trying to sit down, Jonghyun holds on to her.

“Don’t sit,” he demands, holding two strong hands on each side of her. Hannah whines and leans her head back against the wall.

“My feet hurt,” she complains, stamping with her feet tiredly.

“In a minute you will get out of these shoes,” Jonghyun calms her, embracing her for a hug to make sure she doesn’t sit down.

“How did you get here…?” Hannah then wonders; confused with that her boyfriend all of a sudden walked them to the elevator.

Jonghyun leans back with raised eyebrows. “I drove you…” Is she completely wasted or what?

Hannah keeps frowning, not remembering him in the car. She can’t remember who drove them, and her expression that doesn’t change make Jonghyun say she will drink more water when they get inside. Hannah puts her arms around him for a hug when he has said that.

“I’m happy you are here,” she tells him with a smile.

Julia rolls her eyes again, stepping out of the elevator first while the couple following behind. Hannah randomly giggles when waiting for Julia to open the door, and Jonghyun smiles because he honestly has never seen her drunk like this before. Getting inside the hall, they are met by the puppies that their manager dropped off earlier, and Hannah is just about to lean down to greet them when getting a surprise to see Jonghyun put his fingers on her shoes.

“What’yo doing?” she mumbles with a giggle. She leans against the wall, lifting her foot up by Jonghyun’s soft touch on her ankle. Julia takes off her shoes and disappears in the apartment, calling for the puppies to come too – to not stay with the embarrassing couple. Hannah keeps smiling at Jonghyun taking off the shoe and she giggles when he places a kiss by her ankle. She giggles with him holding her foot that she looses strength in the other leg and she glides down against the wall, not noticing how surprised Jonghyun gets at first until she is sitting there in front of him, laughing like crazy. If no wall had been there, she maybe would have fallen down like a tree and hurt herself. Now she is sitting on someone’s shoe, but Hannah just laughs and Jonghyun laughs with her. She is adorable, she is pretty and she is drunk, and she is his.

Jonghyun laughs when holding out her other leg, taking off the shoe to put it to the side, and Hannah giggles, moving her legs when he traces his hand up. He looks at her, amused to see this side of her and he leans forward on his knees to kiss her, and also to pull down the dress a little over her thighs. He saw her underwear; red. If she wasn’t so drunk, he would look forward to undress her right now. But for the moment, he helps her to stand up, ignoring his own needs.

Her feet hurt so badly from wearing high heels and when walking forward she is on her toes, trying to get used to the flat mark. Jonghyun tries to lift her up but she screams and puts his arms away, almost sitting down to not have him lift her up, and then she leads him inside the living-room where she wants to sit in the sofa, but Jonghyun wants to go to the kitchen. Julia is in the kitchen, and with Hannah trying to pull him to the sofa, Julia comes in the right moment with a bottle of water and a glass for them. She has some food with her when she comes back, and the puppies are following her as she heads upstairs with it. Hannah sits down in the sofa, satisfied to sit down comfortably, and Jonghyun sits down next to her where he pours water for her.

Her face grimaces a little when he gives her the glass of water, but now she actually drinks it without hesitation or complaints. She isn’t feeling as bad anymore, though she isn’t sure if she has to use the bathroom soon.

“Did you just send me home or are you staying over night?” she asks when letting him pour her more water in the glass. She holds on to the glass with both hands, sitting on one leg to face him and Jonghyun is just perfectly sitting there, pouring water for her with kindness and love.

“I’m staying over night,” Jonghyun answers and puts the bottle on the table, looking at her drink the water.

She doesn’t finish it right away this time, and when she stops drinking, Jonghyun picks up the foot she isn’t sitting on. Hannah smiles when he puts her foot in his lap, starting to massage her affectingly.

“Why are you doing that?” Hannah giggles, leaning back in the sofa, not knowing what else to do.

“Your feet hurts,” Jonghyun answers with a glance up at her behind his lashes.

She stops giggling, not smiling either. He isn’t smiling when talking to her. “Are you tired?” she wonders in a low voice, sitting back up straight to look at him. Jonghyun keeps looking at her foot that he is massaging with both hands. She doesn’t like massage, but she doesn’t stop him.

“A little,” Jonghyun answers, “I have spent the day in the recording-studio.”

“Oh… Should we go to bed then?” Hannah suggest, still in a low voice. Her voice doesn’t suggest anything else than sleep, and it makes him grin when looking at her.

“Shouldn’t you ask if I’m angry at you?”

She rests her arms on her legs where she is holding the glass of water, putting her head on the side. “Are you angry at me?”

“Yes,” he answers and roughly pulls out her other leg so she falls back and Hannah laughs even if she spills some water on the dress. Jonghyun chuckles and takes the glass away from her. “You’re impossible.”

She takes her feet away from him, kicking him lightly on the leg when he tries to grab at least one of her feet, and they both laughs when she leans forward to hit his hands away from her feet. Hannah stands up, making Jonghyun face up to keep an eye on her hands, and he smiles when meeting her eyes as Hannah rests a knee on the sofa before she lies over him. Her arms rests on his shoulders and her face touches his to make sure her lips will find his for a kiss.

Jonghyun places his hands on her when she sits astride him, leaning over him while kissing each other and he smiles when she giggles at his fingers burning through the dress’ fabric to her . Her kisses tastes cold from the water she has been drinking, but sweet from the alcohol earlier, and her lips feel y against his. He really doesn’t know how he came across this, to get this kind of girl. She is sweet so sweet; he thinks about in the car, how lost she was but her words were honest and his whole body is warm knowing she loves him. She even confesses to her members. But she is y oh so y; how she now is pressing her s against his chest and their tongues playing and her hands like always goes up around his neck to touch his hair.

He has to force his head back, breaking the deep kiss, to get some air, breathing out at the ceiling to collect his thoughts. Hannah lowers her position a bit to smile up at him. He has gotten out of breath from kissing, from her whole body, mind and soul that he can’t think straight.

“I love you so much, Hannah,” he confesses, breathless still.

She looks at him with a smile growing widely in her face before she leans over him to give him a peck on his lips. “I love you too, Jonghyun.”

It is the least hesitation and embarrassment he has ever heard her say when saying those words to him, and he knows it is because she has been drinking but he knows that she is honest, and she would never say it if she didn’t mean it. He smiles brightly and grabs on to her head to press her lips against his, continuing to kiss her intensely even if she is giggling at how hard he is holding on to her. His hands holds on to her face, gliding down to her jaw to keep her face where he wants it and Hannah can’t breathe at all in the beginning with him pressing their lips and faces together. She holds on to his wrists, not removing them but getting support to not fall, and when Jonghyun parts his lips she is fast to follow and she takes a deep breath when they deepen the kiss. Her lungs are filled with air, giving her the chance to not faint from his intenseness, but the air leaves again when she moans. He really knows how to use his mouth.

They must be too intense because soon they stop kissing to pant, catching their breaths. She looks at him, biting her lip that is sore from his.

“I’m sorry,” Hannah whispers and gives a soft kiss on his chin, and when Jonghyun blinks at her she has this young and innocent face-expression, even if she is wearing make-up and her eyes are red from alcohol.

“For what? Getting drunk?” he asks in a low voice, amazed by how breathless he is from the intense make-out session.

Hannah shakes her head, locks of her hair falls down her face and he puts his hand over hers when they both wants to put the lock behind her ear. “For not letting you enjoy the party,” Hannah murmur with a pout; she thinks she has to use the bathroom soon. Jonghyun smirks.

“I was planning on kidnapping you anyway,” he answers and chuckles at her confused face-expression. “I never had the plan to be there for long.”

“Oh…” Hannah seems surprised when understanding what he means and Jonghyun keeps smiling at her. She then smiles and kisses him again, starting over on the session.

This time they are letting each other breathe while kissing, their tongues playing and Jonghyun’s hands are by her waist and by her leg that is next to him. Her skin is soft, his fingers keep caressing lightly up and down, being tempted to start caressing every inch of her skin. Hannah smiles when he bites on to her lip, and she glances at his face when her warm fingers glide up under his shirt to see the way he clenches his teeth for a few seconds by her simple touch and Hannah looks satisfied when giggly leaning forward to kiss him again. Jonghyun loves to have her touch him, even if it is with one brush or her whole hand, he loves every single touch. Now it distracts him a bit too, how her fingers glide back and forth over his waist, touching his skin and even if her palm is resting some weight on him, her fingers are soft as feathers on his sensitive skin and he is almost shivering from the insides.

“Hannah…” Jonghyun breathes, breaking them apart and he removes her hand too, feeling all sweaty when managing to pull away from her. It feels like minutes he has been trying to get his mind on track, trying to realise that he is hard and he wants her.

“What?” Hannah mumbles and blinks when meeting his eyes. She seems tired, and he can’t stop thinking about how drunk she has been tonight.

“We shouldn’t do this,” Jonghyun answers and holds her hands away from touching him. Hannah grimaces a bit, sitting up straight.

“Why not?” She hasn’t even noticed how hard he is, how much he wants her.

“You’re drunk,” he says and Hannah’s face-expression and body language changes right away. Her eyebrows raises and she almost wants to put a hand on her hip to look at him as if he just said something that doesn’t make sense.

“And you are saying you don’t want to kiss your girlfriend because she has been drinking?” she asks. “You think I’ll take advantage of you or something?”

“Mostly vice versa,” Jonghyun begins and Hannah rolls her eyes tiredly.

“It’s not like we haven’t kissed before,” Hannah mentions and sits next to him. She comes to think of that he might be talking about , and she adds; “And it’s not like I will wake up in the morning and regret doing something that we have done several of times before either. Who knows—I might be better drunk; you tell me.”

She then gets up on her feet.

“I have to go bathroom,” she mutters, blinking several of times when standing up. She still gets dizzy when getting up too fast and she walks with one foot crossing the other to the bathroom, really having to use it.

Jonghyun stays behind, watching her leave the room and then frowns when hearing her walk up the stairs. She is still drunk. He grabs both the glass and bottle of water before following her upstairs, heading inside her bedroom where he sees she has closed the bathroom’s door after her. She could have used the bathroom downstairs, but he guesses it’s better if they go to bed instead of falling asleep downstairs.

He glances around in the room. Last time he was here, he didn’t walk around in the room much, and when he wasn’t lying in bed he was distracted by Hannah. Now he can look closer at her things, especially her bookshelves where she has books and pictures and more put up. He looks at the pictures; one photography leaning next to the clock in the bookshelf is of Hannah from some school photo—he doesn’t know which year it is from, but she looks pretty in it. Most of her pictures are with her members, and he smiles at some new Polaroid pictures of Hannah with their pets that he goes through as she has them in just a pile in the shelf; she still hasn’t unpacked and sorted everything out in her room. Next to it she has a small photo frame from London (it’s obviously from London because it is written ‘London’ on it and it has shapes from the London Bridge, London Eye and Big Ben), but the frame is empty. Jonghyun purse his lips at it. A lot of things in her room seem unfinished, but then again, she has only lived here for a month soon, and with 5 Pieces’ schedule it is understandable.

He turns around to the bed, glancing at the bedside-table. She has a lamp, a drama script and a pad to write down notes. Jonghyun takes off the watch on his wrist, putting it down on the beside-table while something about the script catches his attention. He takes out the things from his pockets to put on the table while his eyes are stuck on what she uses as a bookmark – it looks like a picture… He picks it up, opening the script to see the picture, and frowns. The picture is from … 2009, he thinks, when SHINee during the summer was promoting [Juliette] with s, and 5 Pieces was promoting their first album at that time too. In the focus it is Hannah and FT Island’s Honggi, both smiling and her head is tinted a little towards him, and on her other side Jonghyun is, not as much in the focus as he remembers he had come running up to join in the picture. He has this picture too, knowing Honggi has one as well; they have many pictures together.

The bathroom’s door is opened and Jonghyun looks up. Hannah looks y and tired when coming inside the bedroom, her feet bare and hair ruffled by her own fingers, and she has cleaned her face from the make-up. She looks so y in that dress, looking like that. When she sees him in the room she holds back a tired yawn.

“Why do you have this picture?” Jonghyun asks, showing the picture from three meters away. Hannah sees it is the bookmark she has for the script she is reading for her new drama, and she shrugs her shoulders when walking around the bed to come up to him.

“You look cute in it,” she answers and takes the picture and script from him, glancing at the picture with a nod.

“Cute?”

“Yes,” Hannah bluntly says and puts it back on her bedside-table before she sits down on the bed, looking up at him. “You looked very cute.”

Jonghyun smiles at her comment, always remembering her as the cute one when she was backstage, bowing to everyone and everything while charismatically being dressed for [Once Upon a Time] and at that time she was always having her adorable expressionless face when looking at anyone. Jonghyun remembers how Hannah would bow and greet SHINee in the mornings when they met backstage for rehearsals, smiling by the memory of Hannah’s bad Korean when she tried to answer their teasing questions as polite as possible.

He looks at Hannah when she stands up again, smiling at each other before she walks over to her wardrobe to pick out a newly washed t-shirt.

“What do you want to do now?” Hannah asks Jonghyun when she walks to the end of the bed, throwing the t-shirt on top of it and it is like she doesn’t know he is looking at her when she pulls the dress over her head, taking it off, and Jonghyun is just staring.

She is wearing matching red underwear, a y red bra and that he knows she wore at the concert too and he is breathless when she takes her hands through her hair to put it hanging over her right shoulder. And in a second he thinks she is teasing him because she is upset he didn’t want to kiss her because she is drunk.

“Screw it,” he growls in his throat and Hannah looks confused at his words, dropping the t-shirt she just picked up when Jonghyun lungs at her and before she know it she is taken over by his lips and hands.

He kisses her roughly on the mouth while his hands are searching her back, his tongue forces an entrance when Hannah is still grasping the situation and she moans in his arms. Jonghyun holds on to her body, his hands feel big the way they grab on to her waist and holds her against him, how he loves her skin. Just when Hannah begins to catch up on the rough kissing, Jonghyun’s lips leave hers and he kisses down her neck, one of his hands lets the length of his fingers travel up her body, feeling her skin softly; his other hand glides to hold on to her back.

Hannah did not expect this. It is sensual the way he holds her, the way he kisses her, the way his fingers sends shivers through her body, and all she do is biting on to her lips. Her breathing has gone faster.

When she came out of the bathroom she first off didn’t expect him to be upstairs (he was supposed to be downstairs, waiting for her and they would watch a movie together), and her drunken mind had decides to change clothes, so that is what she did with the thought of that Jonghyun has seen her before – and she kept her bra on just to not seem overly confident with her body. To have him attack her was not expected, but it’s not like she dislike it (who would?), it’s more that she couldn’t enjoy it better.

She can feel his lips reaching down to her s, kissing her right above the fabric of the bra and if she bites her lip any harder she will begin to bleed. Hannah breathes out, realising she has been holding her breath, and she grabs a hold of his shirt, forcing his head back up to hers where their eyes meet and she smiles at the hungry look in his eyes. With one step back she lifts her leg up on the bed behind her, taking him down with her when she lies on her back, and they kiss again when she begins ing his shirt; Jonghyun helps her, eager to continue and he pulls the shirt down his shoulders, struggling because he hasn’t ed all the buttons and the shirt gets stuck over his wide shoulders. He looks down, breaking the messy kiss to the single button, seeing how Hannah’s body moves when she laughs at him, and before he has gotten the shirt off she pulls his face to hers again, kissing him with her hands tousling his hair. Jonghyun drops the focus from the shirt he is still wearing, ed, and he presses his body over her, both of them reacting when their skin touches and they deepen the kiss.

 

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Hannah wakes up with a thunderous headache, frowning the second she tries to open her eyes. Her stomach feels nasty too and for several seconds she is just lying there on her back, wondering why she can’t move and what has happened. Then she remembers drinking and she sees an arm lying over her chest, a low breathing is heard on her left side. Oh her stomach is taking turns. She swallows nervously, both from a hangover and for having her boyfriend there. The bedroom is dark, but Hannah knows what room she is in and where she is lying in the bed, so she stretches out her right arm to turn on the lamp on the bedside-table. While the lamp is adjusting the light in the room she turns her head a bit to the left.

It’s rare for them to lie like this. Jonghyun is usually on her right side. He looks peaceful when sleeping; his hair is a mess, revealing his forehead and his lips are enormous and red, and she smiles on the inside by the sight of him. He is lying really close to her, and she thinks he has been lying like this for a while because she can really feel the weight in his arm lying over her.

The dream of watching him sleep is interrupted by her hangover, and Hannah tries to get up from bed without waking him up. She grabs her and the t-shirt she was supposed to put on when he threw himself over her, and blushing she pulls the t-shirt on first when rushing out the bedroom. Not being drunk anymore, Hannah knows the distance and runs to the other bathroom next too where she locks the door and falls over the toilet to throw up. She is pretty sure she would wake him up if she had thrown up in the bedroom next too, and lucky her no one is using this bathroom.

While the drinks from yesterday is coming up, she thinks about what time it could be – it should be morning, but what time – and where her members are – they could still be out, they could be downstairs, they could be sleeping…

She takes her time in the bathroom, making sure she has nothing more to throw up and that she won’t do it again, and she washes her face, mouth and hands several of times before she is done to step outside (she has put on the too). Outside the bathroom, Hannah stops with tired eyes, looking at Maria standing in the corridor. Maria is dressed in pyjamas pants and a yellow tank top, still wearing make-up and her hair is in a high pony tail. Hannah is jealous that her friend can look stunning with red eyes and ruined make-up from the party.

“Did you just come home…?” Hannah is the first to say something, rubbing her eyes that she can’t keep open for long. She is tired and her headache is hurting; though she think it has gotten slightly better after throwing up.

“I’ve watched Pirates of the Caribbean downstairs with Emelia and Mi Young Unnie – Yong Hyun Oppa had a date in the middle of the party, so he couldn’t come even if he promised after five drinks. So…” Maria glances up and down at Hannah and the youngest blushes, pulling down her t-shirt to try covering herself, though it doesn’t do much; “… did you and Jonghyun have fun?”

“Mhm,” Hannah shyly smiles, secretly wishing she could hide her blushing face behind her hair.

Maria giggles at the shy youngest. “If you want later, there are chips and other things in the kitchen… for that stomach of yours.”

“Thanks…” Hannah whispers and the two of them walk by each other without another word, Hannah with her head down out of embarrassment. She was caught without pants after throwing up by her leader and friend, and her boyfriend is lying in her bed - >Hannah does not feel good. But she feels like it is something normal people go through; these intimate awkward moments as if your roommate just caught you right after .

Hannah closes the bedroom’s door carefully after her, peeking over at the bed. He is still beautifully sleeping, now lying on his stomach and his back muscles look deadly y in the lights from the lamp. It would be nice to join him again, but Hannah looks at the time and makes a face. It’s half past six in the morning.

Instead of going bad to bed, Hannah checks her cell phone first – which she has to search for before she finds it – and then turns on her laptop to sit at the lower end of the bed to not disturb her boyfriend’s sleep. While the laptop is taking its time to turn on, Hannah takes out her calendar; first to write about yesterday (what she remembers) and also add about this annoying hangover she has. Oh, she really wants to sleep… But she checks her mail on the laptop; checks her schedule and goes through the mails one by one, trying her best to focus and take notes if it is from her manager or from SM Entertainment. She has a meeting with Lee Sooman today; his secretary has even sent a mail to remind her about it, and says she can come in between 12:00-15:00… Not very specific with the time today it seems like. They want to remind her of the combat practice this week, and for some reason she sees in her schedule they have written when Weekly Idol feature 5 Pieces is airing this Wednesday and Life of Pieces on Thursday.

What Hannah actually wants to look up is the fans’ reactions from their concert. There are articles out about it, making her smile and feel proud over their hard work and she gets all this-is-too-much when reading an article writing only the best parts and filling up with enormous lies about a “perfect live” and “perfection from beginning to end”. And that is what journalists are saying! One article do say “for being non-Koreans, they surely work the Korean market perfectly” – meaning that 5 Pieces sing and speak Korean, they perform like Korean idols and everything about the concert was just … Korean. Hannah doesn’t mind that, but it is put in a negative tone in the article, which she has a little issue with.

She hurries to brush her teeth after finding a new mail sent from SM Entertainment and when she comes back, she sees that they have sent a video clip to all ladies in 5 Pieces. On the mail it reads ‘international celebrity news brings up 5 Pieces concert opening!’ and Hannah checks the video, her jaw dropping when keeping the volume low and seeing some European news program talking about 5 Pieces concert.

‘The world sensation 5 Pieces who has this year put everyone in a daze have this past weekend started off their world tour BLACK & WHITE in Seoul, South Korea,’ a man is saying in the clip while a small video next to him is showing clips from the concert. ‘5 Pieces opened up the concert this weekend for 30.000 fans with their hit song [Black & White], performing all of their Korean hit songs and more that kept fans jumping for three full hours! Not just was the concert for three hours, but 5 Pieces was putting on different acts and performances with over 30 of their best songs – all performed live and most included an intense dance routine. Before the concert begun on Saturday, 5 Pieces answered some questions and talked about the tour at a press-conference…’

Hannah pause the video when Jonghyun makes a noise, but when looking at him he is still sleeping, and when she turns back to the laptop she wants to focus more on the fans’ own reactions. There are to articles and fan-accounts, all kind of things, and she smiles at every page and thing she reads and finds.

- “The best concert EVER! And I have like seen a lot of concerts in my 40 years alive, but this concert surely gets on TOP3. Why? Because it kept fans excited from the beginning and we screamed, laughed, danced, sang, cried – everyone did what 5 Pieces did, all together. It was such a moment shared for three hours with 5 Pieces and Puzzle and you can really see the hard work they put in the concert. And all of them looked hot in every outfit they put on, and indeed, this concert beats last year hundred of times.”

- “5 Pieces’ BLACK & WHITE Tour was this summer voted as the most anticipated concert of the year, and that was voted well. 5 Pieces knows how to put on a show for all ages and they didn’t forget a single hit song and they were just flawless… AND! They performed Michael Jackson in such a style that no one knew if we were supposed to cry and faint or shout and stare, AND they did a rock version of that Japanese hit of theirs and it was such an amazing concert and I can’t say the highlights and they were hot and their voices are beautiful and they sang acapella and Julia cried the most at the end so sweet and they were really lively and everywhere on the stages!!!!”

- “EM O___O I just need to say that. She was flawless. Her solo stage was OMG – she performed her own rap! It was sooooo freaking good! That voice of hers, that look of hers… Damn, and she kept fooling around with her members and OMG… I got nothing to say. Speechless! I want to see it several of times again!!!”

- “Folks, 5 Pieces have become legends! With that kind of concert they filled it out with EVERYTHING we love. They were cool and charismatic, cute and adorable, funny and foolish. No one can beat 5 Pieces! Screw everyone else, these ladies are perfect!!”

- “I had heard before the concert that Hannah was upset because of her family, but she looked so good on stage… Her voice the first day was completely insanely perfect. I think she saves her voice the most because she doesn’t scream like Maria and Carolina xD But it was so good! And their outfits were Y! Please make a comeback~~”

- “These young ladies really give their all and seem to truly enjoy the stage. You go 5P!”

- “I’m completely obsessed with 5 Pieces… This concert was the best thing I have ever witnessed in my whole life and it is like a whole package of life put in three hours concert and 5 Pieces is just ing terrific!”

- “Opening like the most perfect perfection saying the world is black and white, teasing throughout the concert in the most perfect way, then makes all of us cry as they reveal how thankful they are for us fans and they sound so beautiful when singing [The Rainbows Colours] to just us, and then we can’t stop crying because the perfection of the concert comes to an end… It was the most perfect time in my life and I cried so many times. Hannah performed [I CRY] and I was sure she was going to cry but she was really into the song and she looked like she really needed to sing it for us and yes, Hannah, we love you so much so stay strong and keep doing your best and we’ll do our best and please don’t ever change! I love Maria, she keeps fooling around with Carolina but then is all forgiving to Hannah and they are all such an adorable bunch…… How am I supposed to sleep after this T_T”

- “I admire 5 Pieces so much. They did wonderful, they have a meaning behind each song and performance. I will never love anyone as much as I love 5 Pieces!”

- “NOBODY can SING, DANCE and OWN for THREE HOURS like 5 Pieces with FLAWLESS performances!”

- “Oh jeez… Where to begin? The opening – oh my, it really raised the expectations and the hall got so hot – and they performed their recent hit songs, plus another song that was really cool with Maria and Hannah’s amazing voices and the others were rapping coolly, and then they performed Michael Jacksons songs like no one else! That was freaking hot and cool, seriously, they take advantage of the whole stage and you were never bored. I loved when they performed [One and Only] because it was a really cool remix where we just sang and danced as if we were at a disco. The solo songs were flawless too, the ladies really do their own thing with Emelia’s own rap, Maria doing old classic songs, Carolina doing Backstreet Boys in her own version, Hannah did her own song in a y remix and Julia did a dance song by Rihanna. Their ballads were beautiful! I have seen DBSK live, and these girls live up to the name of being the female DBSK – seriously, they sang acapella and power ballads and they were flawless!!!!!! One of the highlights were though [WHO-I AM]. It is really a song telling 5 Pieces’ story, how they kept being pushed down in the past but they kept standing up. It is so deep and meaningful and powerful and it was just so flawless and hot and they were wearing the easiest but y and coolest outfit ever. Oh, and another good part if you came the second day; a lot of idols were there! EXO were visible wherever you sat in the audience as they had their stage outfits on, but it was really cool!”

She keeps yawning, excited for the amazing comments about the concert, but she is too tired to go around screaming about it – she guess she can do that later with the ladies; share the moment – so Hannah turns off the laptop again, puts it on the side to lie down in the bed again, yawning once more behind her hand before she lies on the side to look at Jonghyun. He sleeps like a puppy. Saying he has insomnia and whatnot; he never seem to have trouble sleeping in her bed. Hannah smiles at the thought, managing to put away the headache and small nasty feeling in her stomach by looking at her boyfriend. And that arm of his laying between them makes her glance from his face to his arm.

Hoping it won’t wake him up; Hannah places her fingers by his elbow, slowly and carefully. He doesn’t move and she puts her hand in his, entwining their fingers lightly and she relaxes when knowing it doesn’t wake him up. Her family can say whatever they want; she loves her hybrid and the world knows that now, she has nothing left to hide.

 

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X. devonalias