LUHAN'S POV

as soon as the party ended, we say goodbye to each other..

and Hee Rin hugged Tao so tight as if she's not going to see him again..

I was driving and Hee Rin was beside me sitting in the passenger's seat.

I would glanced at her every moment while she was just facing the window..

she's so quiet..

"uhmmm... so.. how's the party?" I asked. breaking the silence.

"it's good.." she smiled.

"yeah.."

then there's this silence again.. 

it's so awkward.. 

should I say something!??? 

"Hee Rin.." I gulped.

"huh?" she looked at me.

"uhmmm... how's your day?" I asked.. tsk.. what a stupid question luhan!! 

"oh.. it's fine" she smiled.

"I didn't know that today is Tao's birthday" she added as she sighed.

"really?" I chuckled.

"yeah.. I should've bought him something" she pouted.. she's so sad.. 

I felt a pang in my heart as she mention Tao's name..

does she like tao???

I tighten my grip on my car's wheel as I gulped heavily..

"do you like Tao?" I asked without looking at her.. I don't want to meet her eyes.. I just don't...

"ofcourse" she said.. and I can see her smiling through the corner of my eyes..

she likes tao?!!!

please kill me now..

I didn't respond anymore.. I just focused on my driving.

I feel like I'm about to cry.

as we enter our house, I walked to my room and was about to open the door when Hee Rin talked.

"Luhan" she mumbled as she hung her head.

"uh--yeah?"

"what is wrong?" she said while keeping her head down.

"what do you mean?" I asked..

she sighed heavily before she answers.

"why are we like this?" she asked.. w-why are we like this?..... actually... I really don't know.

"what do you mean by that?" I asked.

"you know what I mean.." she sighed.

"why are you so confusing?" she added as she furrowed her eyebrows.

it's because.. I love you hee rin.. and sorry for ignoring you this past few days..

I'm trying hard not to fall for you..But in the end I know I would still do..

yeah.. I'm avoiding her because of that... And because of Ji eun..

I love Ji eun.. and I don't want to hurt her..

but knowing that I'm madly inlove with my wife.. I don't know what to do..

and I made a promise to Ji eun, and I don't want to break it

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"nevermind.." she sighed as she