Kyuhyun’s POV   I don’t know how long the silence in the car lasted but my mind was filled with a million different thoughts. I didn’t know what to say to Donghae. Hell… I don’t even know what to think.   “What signs are you talking about,” Donghae asked again.   I took a deep breath and answered, “Before listening to the tapes, I had a feeling Ryeowook somehow found out about the accident. You know… about my car accident. I remember going to his room a few nights before our planned comeback and he asked me if there’s such thing as a dangerous truth. Before I could ask him what he meant, he began to cry.”   “How is that a sign?” Donghae asked.   “He broke down Hae. Something was clearly bothering him and he was just unable to open up. Think about it. During our y Free and Single preparations, how many times have you seen Ryeowook break down or see his emotions being all over the place,” I asked.   “Quite a bit,” Donghae answered.   “We ignored the changes in his behaviour. One of the signs that someone is suicidal is when they have constant mood swings. A few days before he died, he was acting really strange. He would be really hyper one moment, usually when we’re rehearsing, and really down the next minute, usually when we’re back in the dorm. He showed signs of his constant mood swings. Ryeowook just revealed that he’s been mixing speed, and his prescription drugs. Because of his intake of mixed drugs, his emotions were all over the place. We didn’t take it more seriously and let it get out of hand,” I explained as I recalled Ryeowook’s behaviour.   Donghae  gave my shoulder a reassuring squeeze as I saw him nod slightly. He didn’t reply so I continued and said, “Another sign that showed that Ryewook was suicidal was that he was trying to tie loose ends together. He asked me what truth I wanted to know and I answered that I wanted to know the truth about the car crash. He was trying to put his affairs in order already. After Super Show 4, have you noticed that he didn’t care about his image anymore? He would go on days without washing his hair, go out in sweats, didn’t care about the way he dressed and didn’t even put a disguise when he went out. On top of that, he became unhygienic.”   Donghae continued to give me comforting gestures as I pointed out the signs.  On the midst of comforting my hysteric state, Donghae reasoned and said, “Now that I look back on it, there were so many signs that I missed. I was stupid to think that Ryeowook cried because of that giraffe stuffed animal. I was stupid a