I took a lungful of breath and I can’t help but fall for those tantalizing eyes staring back at me, waiting for me to speak.  Honestly, I don’t know how to explain everything without hurting my one and only love. I gripped the diary in my hand and started to open the pages. She trailed my actions with her eyes.

“Hon. This was my diary when I was a kid.” I started, feeling the nervousness creeping through my veins.

She looked at the page where my name was written and she started to laugh softly.

“Wow, I didn’t know you write diaries.” She said with a hint of amusement in her voice.

“I didn’t know either until I stumbled on this one.” I confessed.

I decided to just let the diary explain itself.

We looked through the drawings, the doodles, and the promise. Her eyes widened as she looked at me straight in the eyes, somehow pleading for some explanation.

I took her hand in mine and stared in her eyes.

“I am Toothy, Hon.” I said. I felt her grip tighten and I can see the look of disbelief in her eyes.

“It can’t be.” She stuttered as I saw tears flowing from her eyes, my heart broke at the scene, such a heartbreaker I am. I reached out and wiped her tears with my thumb.

“I’m sorry Hon, I broke your heart once again.” I let out my words as I felt my throat constrict, almost to the point of choking me.

She shook her head as she cried. I let her weep for a while, I know nothing about what she feels but I can feel the pain she was bearing with every tear and sigh she makes. My tears fell down on their own, temporarily blinding me as they clouded my vision.

“No Hon. Toothy is gone, she left me. Why are you doing this to me?” She cried out in vain, clenching our entwined hands together. I finally realized how cruel it was for me to reveal everything to her in a day. I sighed.

“The truth is, Hon, Toothy is indeed gone. I am Yoona, your Yoona. I, I lost my memory of Toothy and Hearty, I lost the memory of us before. I came back without knowing how precious memories slipped my mind, my first love, my Hearty. I’m sorry.” I sobbed as she tried to wipe my tears away.

“Even before, our destiny was already entwined. You, you left me. You were my first heartache, the reason for my tears. It was very painful Hon, I was there and the thought of losing you was real. You made me happy and the next; you showed me how cruel life is. I don’t know what to believe anymore, when the person you thought to be dead in years will show up again in your life, bringing the familiar pain of heartache.” She let her tears fall as I listened to every word she said.

“For all the pain I’ve caused you, sometimes, I just wish that I was a different person. All these times, I’ve been hurting the person I love though unintentional. My heart aches knowing I was the reason for everything you’ve been through. But, despite all of that, I won’t trade Toothy and Honey for anyone in the world. They made me meet you. No matter how ill the circumstances were when we were together, I will never trade them with anything. My memories of you, both happy and sad, you were still in it. I will never do anything to change that Yuri. I’ll do anything to have you in my life.” I uttered.

She shook her head and laughed lightly, tears still streaming down her face.

“How silly it is Yoona. It seems that I could never run away from you. You wouldn’t let me escape.” She chuckled.

“I was meant to find you here when I was a child. I was meant to receive your random text message. I was meant to meet you there in your lake house. I won’t say I was meant to break your heart because that’s the only thing in our story that I would like to edit out.” I confessed still holding her hand in between mine.

“Sshhh. Don’t. The heartbreak was necessary. Every tear, every pain and misery, I’m still thankful for everything Hon. It made me open my eyes, to search for you, to yearn for you. In many forms of love I’ve fallen for you and I’ll never change anything about that. I love falling in love with you.” She smiled at me and I couldn’t help but smile back.

“I love you too Hon.” I said as I kissed her hand.

I’m thankful that Yuri and I are finally together. No matter how twisted our story was, it still ended up with both of us together. That night, I took her hand in mine as we strolled in the garden of the restaurant we stayed in. The stars and the moon were shining so bright, guiding us as we walked together.

I had her hand in mine and she was hugging my arm as we walked.

“Are you okay with this Hon?” I asked. She stopped and looked at me.

“Okay with what?” She asked back.

“You’re my girlfriend now.” I said. She blushed and looked down, though I already caught her smiling as she did so.

“Why wouldn’t I be okay with that?” She smiled playfully at me as she played with our hands.

“Well, our relationship wouldn’t be easy. We’re both girls, and the world can be very cruel and discriminating.” I sighed as I looked up at the stars. She was silent and I was afraid she was beginning to doubt our relationship.

“I’ve been hurt too many times by not having you in my life, I’m sure we can work this out. I wouldn’t need the world when I have you.” She smiled at me as she held my face in her hands. We were face to face now, her hands on my face and mine on her waist. I felt our growing attraction as we leaned closer, she closed her eyes and I kissed---

I kissed her forehead.

I smiled widely as I saw the frown on her face as I pulled away. I looked at her with a ‘what did I do?’ look, looking as innocent as I can.

She pouted and smacked my arm lightly.

“You tease!” She exclaimed and walked away.

I laughed out loud as I watched her marching away. I ran towards her and stood in front of her, causing for her to stop and look away.

I smiled sweetly at her, hoping to get her attention.

“I’m sorry.” I said as I tilted her face to face me with my fingers on her chin.

She pouted. “No you’re not.”

I smiled and gently kissed her nose.

“There.” I smiled at her.

She smiled as I saw her blushing. She hugged me, with her arms around my neck and mine around her waist. She whispered.

“It wasn’t what I expected but I don’t know how anything you do make my heart skip a beat.” She buried her face in my neck as I tightened our embrace.

“I didn’t know you were this cheesy.” I giggled.

“And I didn’t know you’re such a tease.” She answered and laughed a bit, I joined her.

It was already late at night but the cold wind never faltered us. We started to head home as dark clouds started to appear and there was a slight drizzle.

I drove carefully with my hand on the steering wheel and the other holding hers. She was staring off outside and I just continued driving, wondering what she could be thinking.

Yuri POV

I stared out the window as we headed home. It was raining now and I fought the urge to trace the raindrops on the window. I felt Honey glancing at me but I stopped myself from looking back, because I know I couldn’t stop staring if I started.

I smiled at the thought of having her as a girlfriend. Until this day I never thought I’d be gay. I had doubts before but it was always a passing feeling. I usually had those doubts during those times I spent with Yoona. I guess she is really that charming and attractive. Just thinking of her makes my heart race and she made me do things I never thought of doing before I met her. I’ve become bold and selfish. I wanted to be with her always and when I ask myself why, I couldn’t bring myself any reason.

I keep thinking about what she said earlier, it wouldn’t be easy for us. I know that. We only graduated high school and we are both young. There are a lot of factors that makes our relationship shaky. But whenever I look at her, all those doubts fade away, and I can only feel myself be stronger with her by my side. I knew from the moment I accepted her, I’m willing to fight for her.

It scared me a little how easily I let her in my life again. All those years and days of pain, tears and confusion was resolved in a single day. I broke my heart a lot of times because of her, yet here I am willing to risk it again. Maybe it was because of her eyes; those eyes that I can never be tired of staring. Seeing her cry was more painful than I felt for my own. I will never want to look at her eyes with those tears and pain again.

I don’t know what will happen to us in the next years, but one thing is for sure, I’d do anything to have her in my future. I’m already looking forward to it.

Yoona POV

I called out her name as we finally arrived in front of their house. The lights inside were still on and some of the voices can still be heard when we stepped out in their front door.

“I guess they stayed up to wait for me.” Yuri smiled as we stood in front of each other.

“How thoughtful of them.” I smiled as she held my hand.

“Thank you for everything Hon. You made me the happiest girl alive by saying yes.” I smiled and kissed her hand.

“You don’t know how happy you make me feel. Take care while driving okay? It’s getting late. You should head home.” She smiled at me.

“I will. I love you.” I said and started to loosen my grip on her hand.

“I love you too.” With quick movements, she kissed my cheek and went inside their house as I stood for a few moments, still dumbfounded.

I smiled like a fool as I finally found the strength to walk away.

I glanced back one more time and I saw her waving goodbye from the window.

I waved back and settled inside the car.

I drove carefully as she ground was still wet from the rain. When I reached home, I ran towards the house somewhat ending up soak from the rain. I went in immediately and saw the three of them watching a movie, waiting for me. My mom stood up and looked at me with big eyes.

“My God! Yoong! Why are you so drenched?!” She exclaimed with worry as she took a towel and wrapped it around me. Robert prepared me hot choco and they made me sit by the fire. They look oddly at me as I sipped my drink.

“What?” I asked.

They shook their heads.

“You were smiling the whole time. What happened?” My dad asked with caution. They must’ve thought I already lost it.

I shrugged and smiled.

“I’m just happy.”

“The last time you looked this ‘happy’ was when you pranked your mom with worms and bugs.” My dad cracked up and Robert joined in the laughing fit. My mom just shook her head. I finished my cup of hot choco and stood up.

“I’m tired mom, dad, Robert. I’ll be heading to my bed. Good night!” I announced and kissed their cheeks. They just looked at me with amazement as I waltzed up the stairs. I showered and dressed, plopping myself in bed as I checked my phone.

From: Kim T shortie

Hey kiddo! You should learn to text your friends you know! Hyo is developing depression saying you don’t miss us! :(

I laughed a bit. I’m sorry I wasn’t able to text them often.

To: Kim T shortie

Sorry guys. I’ve been busy with this exercise program; they say it improves the height. ^^

I laughed knowing they’ll fall for this height thing.

Oh, another message!

From: Honey

Hon, are you home already? I miss you. T.T

I couldn’t help but smile at this sweet gesture. Yuri really is a sweet girl.

To: Honey

Yes hon, I just prepared for bed because I got wet from the rain. I miss you too. Mwah.

From: Honey

Oh, you should never run out in the rain again hon, you might get sick. And now you want to kiss huh? Kekeke.

I laughed.

So she really wanted a kiss earlier. Hmmm. I should plan for a date and maybe I can get a kiss there. Keke

to: Honey

yes hon. I want. :D

from: Honey

keke. You should wait. :P anyways, I’m sleepy hon. Let’s go to sleep, okay? :) I love you. <3

to: Honey

alright hon. Me too. I’ll see you in dreamland okay? I love you too. Mwah. *steal kiss* kekeke. <3

from: Honey

wah! Why would you steal?! You shall be punished! Look forward to it the moment we see each other again. Aaahh, I’m really sleepy. Night hon. :)

I just chuckled and decided not to reply. We won’t get sleep if we continue texting like that. I was about to sleep when my phone beeped.

One text message.

From: Kim T shortie

Is it effective? O.o

I laughed out loud and decided to keep the cousins wondering about the ‘program’.

For the first night in days, I slept with a smile in my face.

I’m living a dream with you Yuri.