My smile never left my face and my eyes never left hers as she sat in front of me during dinner. My parents were doing most of the talking together with Robert and they include us once in a while when they ask questions and we were bound to answer.

For the first dinner in my life I never focused on what was served in front of me.

I never felt like this before.

I can say Yuri is like the food that safisfies my hunger, even in mere sight of her.

I was lost in my thoughts of her when my father spoke and broke my trance.

"Yoona, where do you usually hang out when you stayed here?"

I looked at him.

"Well, I usually go to the lake and ride my kayak." I nonchalantly answered.

"Oh, do you remember everything now?"

My eyes opened wide with shocked.

Oh my God. We can't discuss this now, not with Yuri around!

"Uhm, yes. I remember all of it."

I replied and started to focus on my chicken.

I can feel Yuri's eyes looking at me as I ate silently.

"Uhm Yuri. I heard from Robert that you usually come here in our house." My mother spoke and asked Yuri.

Why are they doing this! Chill Yoona. Don't look up. Look at those peas, they're all green and cute.

I poked them with my fork.

Look at how cute they roll around.

I busied myself with the peas but I can still hear the conversation unfolding before me.

"Yes Mrs. Im. I usually visit this place. It is special to me." Yuri said.

Involuntarily, I lost sight of the peas and looked up to the person in front of me.

"Special?" My father asked with obvious curiosity in his voice.

"Yes. I used to have a friend who lives here. But she's gone." Yuri said with a hint of sadness coating her very words.

"What do you mean by gone, dear?" My asked, worried and stopped eating. Her focus entirely on Yuri. Well, all of us are staring at her, waiting for her answer.

Gone?

Yuri looked as if she was going to cry. Her eyes were starting to tear up but it remained strong. She breathed in hard and looked at my mom as she answered.

"It was a few years back when one summer, we were playing at the lake. We rode a little boat and--" She paused and closed her eyes. All I wanted to do was stand up and hug her but it seemed as if I was glued to my chair and my mind just kept still, waiting for her to finish her sentence.

As selfish as this may sound, I wanted to know if she still remember. If she still remember Toothy. If she still remember me.

 "It's okay dear. I'm sorry if I made you remember something painful." My mother stood and hugged Yuri.

Yuri opened her eyes and smiled at my mom.

"It's okay Mrs. Im. It's just that I haven't talked about this to anyone." Yuri looked down.

Then there was silence.

I couldn't help but feel a little disappointed.

After a while the mood lightened up when dessert was served.

"Yuri, do you like chocolate cake? This is Yoona's favorite." Robert said as he gave us each a slice of cake.

I smiled as I saw my favorite cake. It was layered with caramel and made with different types of chocolate. It's a good thing Robert prepared this, I've missed this a lot!

"Thank you Robert!" I stood up and gave him a hug.

They all laughed at me as I sat back down, Robert ruffling my hair and my smile just got bigger as I stared at the chocolate perfection in front of me.

"Pardon my daughter Yuri. She's just like that. So hyper with food." My dad laughed.

"When she was a child, I was so worried she'll get kidnapped just because some stranger bribe her with food. That's why I always make her carry a bagful of goodies anywhere she went." My mom laughed.

I was getting red from embarassment.

"Mom!" I whined, but they just continued laughing. I pouted.

"There was one time, we were having a tea party at my friend's house when I couldn't find her. I was so worried and had all of us there looking for her. By the end of the day, we found her underneath the food table, with empty plates around her, she was hidden with the table cloth!" My mom roared in laughter with the last part. My dad was laughing out loud with Robert and Yuri was holding her stomach from laughing.

I hate it when dinner ends and all they can talk about is me.

"This one never goes old. I took her to a fair when she was about 11. We were enjoying all the rides. When we were up in the ferris wheel, we saw people gathering below. When we got off, we went there to see what was going on. It was a pie eating contest! She was so eager to join and I had no choice but to enter her to the contest. Guess what? She won! She ate 12 pies in 5 minutes! She was so happy and full she was sleeping when we got home." My dad narrated and once again a round of laughter ensued.

Can't they like talk about my wonderful moments and not the embarassing ones?

I sighed and got myself my second serving of cake.

When they calmed down, they were surprised to find that there were only a slice left out of the jumbo sliced cake and looked at me.

They laughed again and when they stopped my mom stood up and gave me a hug and ruffled my hair.

"I always love our little shikshin." She said affectionately and I just smiled.

"Yep. Good thing she never gets fat with how much she eats." My dad smirked and I pouted.

"Well, I was kinda surprised with her appetite at first. You can't really judge her from her figure that she eats that well." Yuri said and smiled at me.

"Our chef Tony back home loves her very much. She's very loyal to him and hangs out in the kitchen most of the time." Robert added.

"Well, chef Tony is good! I love watching him cook." I said.

When we finished everything, I couldn't help but smile. Well, the dinner went well eventhough they were laughing and talking about me most of the time. It's just that I found it comforting that my parents and Yuri are starting to get along.

I was worried at first because I can sense that my parents were trying to see if Yuri is a threat to me. They do that all the time. I am well aware of how protective they can be.

We were all heading out and Robert was left with the remains of our dinner.

My dad suggested for us to take a walk by the lake since it was still seven.

Yuri and I walked side by side, a little behind my parents who were holding hands.

The night was cool and well lit by the moon.

I looked up and saw how beautiful the moon was. It was surrounded with a lot of stars and no clouds were in sight.

I was smiling to myself when my hand bumped Yuri's accidentaly.

We looked at each other, smiled and looked away.

My heart started beating fast and I had trouble breathing normally.

I slowly moved my hand only to be met by another.

I looked at her and she was staring at my hand that midway collided with hers.

I blushed with the contact and slowly made the first move to continue where we left off.

I held her hand and intertwined our fingers.

We looked at each other and shared a smile.

I looked straight ahead the path we were taking and let out the breath I was unconciously holding in.

Warmth.

Happiness.

Bliss.

Excitement.

I smiled at the thought.

We reached the lake and I saw my parents walking ahead of us, obviously busy talking with each other.

I smiled.

I don't know how they did it but I feel so happy seeing my parents like that. They still love each other through the years and I can say that they are happy with each other.

I wish I can find someone to share such happiness too.

I looked at Yuri and then at our joined hands.

I hope we'll grow old together too.

I hope we will be like them, sharing happiness each day of their lives.

I hope you feel the same way too.

I sighed and continued walking.

I have no idea how Yuri feels for me.

What if this is only a one sided love affair?

I don't want to think about it.

It makes me sad.

As for now I would like to live and think that she feels the same way for me.

Call me delusional, but if it's the only way to feel that she loves me too, then so be it.

Maybe Yuri noticed that we weren't talking and my mind was obviously flying somewhere else that she stopped walking and tugged my hand.

"Yoona, is everything okay?" She asked, worried.

I looked at her and flahed a genuine smile.

"Yep. I was just thinking how lucky my parents are for being together that long." I said as I looked back at my parents and we started walking again.

"Well, I don't really think that's luck. They are great people for being in that relationship for so long and still be happy. Only great people can built a relationship with trust and love through the years." She quietly said.

I nodded.

"I wish I could find someone whom I could share my forever with." Yuri said breathlessly. Though I was blushing, I wanted to for being cheesy.

I laughed.

"You're being cheesy again."

She pouted as she looked at me.

"Well, a girl can dream of her own happy ever after." She said.

I stopped laughing and smiled at her.

"I want someone whom I can grow old with, and spend everyday of my life loving that person knowing I'm being loved back." I said.

"Look who's cheesy now." She teased and giggled.

I just smiled.

I remembered what happened at dinner a while back and decided to ask her.

"Uhm, Yuri. Are you okay now?" I asked sincerely.

"Why wouldn't I be okay?" She asked back.

"Well, I was worried during the talk at dinner. I'm sorry you had to remember those, we didn't know you were bearing such painful memories." I said affectionately.

"It's okay." She said as she looked up at the star-filled sky.

"You know Yoona, I never felt so much pain other than that incident. Since that day, I can't handle people leaving me anymore and it made me lack involvement with people. I stay away as much as possible because I was afraid they were going to leave me too." She said, opening her heart out with those words.

"I'm sorry." I mumbled.

"Don't say sorry, it's not your fault." She smiled and tightened her hold of my hand.

I gave her a weak smile.

No Yuri. It was my fault. It was me all along. I was the one hurting you. You are holding the hand of the person who had hurt you all these years. I was the one you lost and shattered your heart and trust. I'm sorry I'm a coward for not letting you know. I'm still a coward now. Holding your hand makes it feel like a crime. I have no right in holding your hand after all I've done. If only I was stronger. If only I could tell you. If only I was brave enough.

I wanted to say all that. But it seems like there is something stuck in my throat and I can't let the words out.

I'm still a coward.

I sighed.

"Yoona. Do you want to know what happened?" She said. I think she's trying to convince me that it's not my fault.

I nodded.

As she unfolded the whole story, starting from the day we met, the days at the flower field, that fateful day at the lake, the memories kept on flashing in my head. I was like watching a movie. A movie of my own life.

When she ended, I saw that she was crying.

I hugged her and wiped her tears away.

"Shhh, Yuri. I'm here." I said as I tried to console her. I rubbed her back gingerly.

"It's so painful Yoona. I miss everything about her and I just couldn't move on after all these years. I often ask myself what have I done wrong to deserve all of that?" She sobbed as I held her close.

I was near tears myself but I shouldn't cry now. I should be strong for her.

When she calmed down we sat at the shore and stared at the water.

We were sitting side by side, my left hand holding her right and her head leaning on my shoulder.

"I was afraid when I went to your house and you were gone. I thought you left me too." She whispered.

I looked at her and leaned my head on hers.

"I'll never leave you again."

It was a silent promise. A promise from Im Yoona now and from Toothy too.

We stayed like that, enjoying the soft breeze and the comforting silence engulfing us.

There was something in my mind that I really wanted to know.

"Uhm, Yuri." I said gently.

"Yes?"

"If she ever comes back, will you take her back?" I looked at her.

She shifted her position and looked at me.

She smiled at me.

"Well, that would be impossible. She's dead." She said.

I sighed. It's so hard now, knowing she's thinking that I died.

"Uhm, let's just say that there'll be a miracle." I said.

She smiled wider that time.

"Of course I will. I will be the happiest girl in the world." She said with so much happiness it broke my heart.

I didn't know it'd be painful. I didn't know you could also feel jealous with yourself.

I hate Toothy right now.

I know I'm Toothy but how can I tell her when she's grieving for me thinking that I'm dead years ago?

Can't you see the Im Yoona now Yuri?

I sighed.

She looked at me.

"Don't worry Yoona. I'll learn to get over her." She said as she hugged my arm tight.

I smirked.

Well, I'll make you get over my 'dead' self.

I'll make you fall for me again Yuri.

Not as Toothy. But as Yoona.

I'll make your present so much better than your past.

I'll never make you cry again.

I'll make you happy.

Im Yoona will be at your side today and always.

I'll show you that I'll grow old with you, look forward to it.

Yoona fighting!

 I sent her home after that using the limo my family used to get here.

I once again smiled as I drove off, touching the cheek where she kissed me.

I smiled.

One point for Im Yoona.