One week had passed. For some, it is enough to clear doubts and trust again; for others, it was time to move on and let live; for a few, it was time to give chance and love truly; and for one girl, it was time to go home, and rearrange her life.

Yoona couldn't help but think of how one summer changed her life. How confusion, doubts, love, friendship, infidelity, commitment and relationship are the things that swirls like a whirlpool inside her mind. It was very unfamiliar for her, it was like riding a rollercoaster for the first time. No matter how hard you tell yourself to calm down, your heart betrays you above anything else.

She stood in front of the full body mirror inside her designated room. She was nicely tanned now, if you see it that way. She sighs as she tells herself.

Who was I kidding? I'm as red as a crab. I'm burnt.

Yes, Im Yoona is red, literally.

Well, who wouldn't be? When she spent most of her time in the water, swimming, diving, snorkelling.

Her friends even joked that she probably had spent more time staring into the fishes and corals of the sea than talk to them.

She was deeply sorry inside, because she knew that it was true.

You see, when she is submerged in the water, it seems like she found the only place where she can find true peace.

It was indeed a little cowardly to escape from the harsh reality she's in, but she convinced herself that just this once, she will free herself from everything.

It was quite funny when she realized that she found more comforting company from the sea creatures from her own two legged friends.

Maybe, I'm a demi-god and I'm a daughter of Poseidon!

She smacked herself hard on her forehead. How could something that random and nonsensical just pop out of her mind. She sighed.

I'm going crazy. Demi-god huh?

She shook her head and let out a chuckle. She proceeded to pick up her bag and let it hang loose on her shoulder.

She went out of the room and found out that most of their friends have already left. They were now back at the docks. She stayed beside the Kim cousins as they bid their guests goodbye.

"Hey Yoong, your ride still not here?" Hyo asked.

"Yeah. I called home already, don't worry." She quitely said, looking intently at her red arms.

"Your mom will get a heartattack seeing you like that. You'll get cancer if you continue doing that, choding! I'm warning you!" Tae said as she ruffled the youngest girl's hair.

They all laughed and started to compare their skin colors, teasing and making fun of each other along the way.

Then, they noticed a black limo parked a few feet away. 

Yoona sighed.

It's time to go.

"Hey! Stop sighing already! Don't worry, a few more weeks and we're going to see each other in class again!" Hyo said as she hugged Yoona goodbye. Tae joined  and they walked Yoona towards her car.

I'm going to miss you two.

Yoona stared at the figures of her friends as the car drove off.

When she arrived home, their maids who welcomed her can't help but stare at her wide-eyed.

I guess I really look that bad.

She went to her room and started to sleep. She was all tired from the trip and she was a little disappointed when Robert wasn't the one who fetched her.

'You told me, you won't leave again!'

'You lied!'

'You're hurting me.'

'Don't you like me?'

'Hon?'

'Hon!'

'Honey, I love you.'

'Toothy! I missed you so much.'

'I love you.'

' I love you.'

'I love you.'

'ahhhh'. Yoona shot up from her sleeping position and sat upright on her bed. Those voices are haunting her, wanting her, needing her. They're back, injecting themselves into her mind, tugging on her heart, wanting to know who was really inside.

She tightened her grip on her blanket.

She slowly lifted her hand and touched her chest.

Her heart is beating so hard, it seems like it's going to jump out of her chest.

Be still my heart, I know we have to decide soon.

She stood up and took a bath.

I stared at myself at the mirror, still red.

I guess I have to prepare myself for dinner.

As expected my parents were there waiting for me.

My mom's eyes went wide and my dad couldn't help but chuckle a bit.

I sighed and went to kiss their cheeks.

I sat down at my usual seat.

"I bet you had a lot of fun." My dad said with a very generous amount of teasing tone.

My mom stared at me intently.

"Have you seen yourself in the mirror?" She said as she motioned the maids to serve the food.

I frowned. My parents can be quite the bullies.

"Yeah, yeah I know. No need to remind me. I look like a crab, I'm red and burnt." I said defeatedly and looked down in despair.

I heard a loud laugh, my dad was having the time of his life laughing and my mom joined after.

Some parents they are.

Dinner was loud and lively after that. I miss them so much without even knowing. When we finished, my father spoke.

"Uhm, Yoona, I was thinking that maybe we'll spend the rest of the summer in your grandfather's house near the lake. I want us to have some family time before you go to college. How about that?" My father smiled at me and my mom went and hugged me tight. So they really missed me.

I smiled at them and nodded.

"Sure dad."

After some quality family time spent watching old movies and my parents ganging up on my skin, I finally went back to my room for some rest. We're leaving tomorrow.

I stared at my ceiling. This seems to be more of a hobby now more than anything. When you just stare at something that seems to have been a constant in your life. No, you're not staring at nothing. It works for me like a thing that is always there but you can never reach. I meant that not literally of course. These are the times when I think answers are known to me, known to my heart, yet my mind could never comprehend.

What is keeping me from knowing the truth?

Is it because I'm staring at the ceiling that's why I can't appreciate the beauty of the night sky?

Am I surrounding myself with a wall that enclosed the obvious answer to my questions?

What is hindering me with the truth?

What is keeping me from choosing?

Is it fear?

If fear, fear of what?

Fear of uncertainty?

Rejection?

Pain?

I closed my eyes.

How can one feel so empty when searching from within?

Am I empty?

There is only darkness engulfing me.

I tried to void myself of any other thoughts. I focused on myself. For this time, I'll think only of myself. Can love be this selfish? To think only of one's self?

But if I won't think of myself, my mind will be clouded with so much thoughts on what is right, what is wrong, what is acceptable and what is ideal.

But I never asked myself, what made me truly happy?

I shook the fishes away from my mind, I don't need distractions distractions right now.

I look back into my past, before the inhibitions, before the commitments.

I wanted to trace my first laugh, my first smile, and the person who made me happy.

Right now, in the darkness I'm facing, only one person came into my mind.

All along she was there.

But I inhibited myself from letting her in my heart, where she should be.

I'm sorry for being a fool.

I'm sorry for hurting you.

I'm sorry Kwon Yuri.

I promised I'll be back right?

Now, I'm coming back to you, with my whole heart to offer.

It's time to be free.

It's time to be me.