There are times when you feel abandoned because people around you changed. And then, you think back, did they really change that much or have I not known them at all?

A friend of mine once told me, 'it's either people chose to change or you didn't know them at all'.

A girl sighed as she looked outside the window of her bedroom.

She had been clasping her phone as long as she arrived but to her surprise, no single text message from him. If you're wondering who's him, it's Honey.

It broke her heart for these past days that their relationship is slowly fading.

It made her heart ache when she checks her phone the moment she wakes up but she can no longer see an 'i love you hon, good morning :)'

It always bothered her that she was out there enjoying herself yet a part of her couldn't afford to even crack a smile. That part is Honey's place in her heart.

She wouldn't deny the fact that she is starting to focus her life into the reality of it.

She let her eyes wander off into the sky.

Maybe it's time to wake up from my dream, my dream with you Hon.

It broke her heart knowing that she never saw this one coming.

She always believed that Honey is real. She always tell herself that Honey will be there to catch her when she falls.

She closed her eyes as she felt the slow cracking of her heart.

It was painful, but it was still bearable.

Honey is still here, is he?

As if on cue, her phone vibrated.

She shook her head slowly as her lips couldn't help but smile.

Here she was telling herself to let go and just one message she's holding on a little bit tighter.

from: Honey

hi hon. how are you?

hmmm. no i love you?

She shook her head lightly.

She should never think of things like that.

to: Honey

i'm fine hon. i was waiting for you. i love you. :)

And she didn't know that her message tore the receiver's heart in two and how much pain she've caused with a single I love you.

It was a little while until she received a message again.

from: Honey

hon. i'm sorry, but i can't continue this anymore. i'm very sorry, please forgive me.

It was involuntary. How her hands felt weak and how her knees gave up on her.

She couldn't control her tears as she sat on her bed, feeling the impact of the words she just read.

to: Honey

what do you mean hon?

It was hard to come up with a reply.

from: Honey

i lost my heart to someone else hon. i'm really sorry. i know i promised to love you, i didn't mean it. i'm so sorry.

She should be at least angry right now and trash her room with her broken heart, but she didn't.

Instead, she found herself smiling with quiet tears streaming down her face.

She tried to muffle her sobs when she covered her face with her hands, but the sound was too much. She must let it out, for the pain is too much to bear and she was afraid to shatter forever if she kept it in.

She lied in her bed in a fetal position.

It was painful.

Her dream is now truly ending.

She couldn't get angry at her Honey, for she was in no position to be so.

All she could feel from that message was sincerity and sorrow.

Just who is she to keep him from finding his true happiness?

Honey didn't plan on falling in love with someone else, she stole his heart the way she can never do.

Right now, she's drowing herself with her tears, silently hoping that she'd meet someone who'd steal away her heart too.

That way she'll know how happy it is to feel love and how to break someone's heart the way Honey just crushed hers.

It was not because she wanted to hurt someone, she was never selfish.

But she wanted to know how much it'll hurt to bring pain to someone who loves you.

For being in Honey's shoes, she'll understand how much guilt and pain he felt for leaving her, and how she can slowly mend her heart and forgive.

I want you to be happy hon, even if it's not with me.

Yoona bit her pillow hard to contain her sobs.

She burried her face down and nobody knew just how much she would like to suffocate herself right now.

Her body was trembling with pain, fear, guilt and a thousand more different emotions that her poor heart is experiencing at this very moment.

It was so painful that she wanted to just jump off the balcony and end her suffering.

She never knew breaking someone's heart will hurt her just like it was her own heart she brought pain upon.

Maybe because she loved Honey for that long.

Her heart feels so empty, when she knew the part of her that Honey owns died along with her words.

Why is it so hard to do something right?

I broke up with Honey because I know I'll be only hurting her when I'm head over heels for someone else.

But I couldn't think straight knowing just how much I broke her heart right now.

In either ways I broke her heart.

I know I will carry this guilt with me forever.

I loved you Honey, so much that I couldn't get you off my mind. But I guess, the heart knows too much than the mind, for when I met Yuri again, I knew I just couldn't let her go.

Her pillow was soaked with her tears when her phone vibrated.

from: Honey

i wish you the best honey. it hurts but i'll try to move on. thank you for being honest with me all this time. i'm sorry i didn't make you fall in love just like how i fell in love with you, but i don't regret anything. thank you for our time together, it was a blessing to have known you. it'll be hard to forget you hon, to be honest. and i will miss you a lot. but i'll make it, because i'll be strong for you and find happiness too. i know your feeling bad right now, please don't. i want you to be happy hon. i wish i could see you be happy but i know that's impossible now. i hope she can make you happier than i've made you. don't worry about me, but please let me say i love you one last time, because i still do. I love you Honey, goodbye.

She let me go.

I should be happy but my tears just wouldn't stop from falling.

I've hurt her a lot. I would be lying if I say that I don't love her anymore, because a part of me still do.

to: Honey

thank you hon. i love you too. a part of me will always love you, but i hope you'll find a better person than me. a person who will never break your heart just like what i did. i hope you'll fall in love and be loved back far greater than how much i did. i want you to be happy hon. i know you're a strong person, and i couldn't help but feel sorry for not being able to meet you in person. you are a chapter of my life that i couldn't help but smile upon. we've been through a lot hon and i wish i never would have caused you pain. i'm really sorry, please forgive me.

It took a while for me to type those words.

My heart couldn't help but shatter with every word and the pain just kept on pouring like salt rubbed on my wounds.

I wish I never caused you this much pain.

I want you to fall in love like how I did Hon. Please be happy.

Two girls buried in their sorrows, lying in their own beds, minds thinking of each other but unaware of it.

They broke their hearts and they don't know how they will face tomorrow without having to lean on each other anymore.

Flames to dust, lovers to friends, why do all good things come to an end?

There is only one thing that they kept on praying hard for.

Hope.

Hope but for different things.

One is hoping to move on and be happy to mend her broken heart.

One is hoping to let go without ever feeling regret and be happy of her choice.

For they both know, broken hearts don't have a scientific cure, and when you get broken, make sure it's worth it.

And they both know with the love they had and lost, the pain was just worth it, just like how much happiness and bliss it was worth before.