JunKi's P.O.V.


I woke up and looked around. Jae's room. I must have fallen asleep here last night. I glanced at the clock. 9am? God, I haven't slept that much at all. We've been talking for hours last night anyway, I must have fallen asleep around 4am or so. And my back hurts really bad now, that's what I'm getting from sleeping on the floor. I glanced at the bed. Jae was sleeping so peacefully. He had a rough night afterall. I haven't seen him sleep so peacefully for ages. Well, more like a year and a half. Since she left.

I continued watching him. My little dongsaeng. He became too bitter for a seventeen years old. He got hurt and I couldn't do anything to stop it. Sometimes I think I should've tried harder, I should've been there for him more. But when I look back I'm not so sure that my interfering would change anything.

He looked like a little kid all over again. I couldn't help but smile at his face expression. I didn't know what to think now. After last night. We talked a lot about those new feelings he's getting. I told him my story, how I realized I'm gay. How I accepted it. I don't remember when was the last time he listened to me that carefully.

I understand him. I don't think he expected it, for me to support him and get what he's going through. I'm happy. I'm happy that he has me, he has someone who went through that all and can help him. I know that means a lot, I wish I had someone like that when I was on my way of discovering myself.

Of course he's on his own now. I don't know what's going on in his head. I mean, not completely. I know he's scared. I know it's hard. Especially since he's one of the most popular people in school. It's hard enough to deal with yourself and those urges that the whole community we're living in consider dirty and wrong. Almost sick. He has to deal with it now. And tomorrow, he'll have to deal with the whole school.

Finally, I stood up and went out of Jae's room. After doing my daily morning ritual in the bathroom I went downtairs and made myself coffee. As I started making breakfast someone appeared beside the kitchen door.


Yunho's P.O.V.


I stood there, watching JunKi hyung. It was weird, but lately I only saw him in the kitchen. Whenever I came here, he would be here. I began to wonder when is he gonna move his bed here. It looked like he was living in the kitchen.

He turned around and looked at me, but didn't really say a thing. Again he looked like he's mad at me. Maybe I'm imagining things again.

I kept standing there. I have the feeling that I make him even more annoyed. After what seemed like hours he finally spoke.

"You came."

Of course I came. What? You haven't seen me standing in front of you ten minutes ago? I'm telling you, hyung is acting extremely weird. And JaeJoong doesn't believe me.

I didn't know what to say. It was obvious I came. Oh right, why did I come.

"How's he?" I asked.

"How did it happen?" I hate when he does that. When I ask a question I don't expect another question instead of an answer. It doesn't matter how it happened, it just happened. That's all that matters, right? Besides, I don't quite know myself. I was too busy to watch over Jae anyway.

"I'm not sure. I haven't seen how it started. I just saw him... in the middle of it." I said feeling slightly uncomfortable as that image appeared in my head again. I'm not so sure I'll be able to erase that memory afterall.

"Oh, okay." JunKi replied. How can he be so calm? His brother might be turning into gay and he looks like he doesn't give a damn. I would be really upset if I were him.

"Okay?" I asked surprised. "Your brother made out with another guy and you act like you're fine with it?" I added raising my voice a little bit. He began to annoy me. Acting like it was the most normal thing that could happen.


JunKi's P.O.V.


As he said it I finally looked at him. It hurts, but I had to.

"Why are you so upset? My brother being a gay shouldn't bother you." I said calmly. Or at least I was trying to stay calm. "What? Are you afraid it'll ruin your reputation? Scared that those school bitc.hes will think bad of you now? Or even worse, think you're gay too. Maybe you and Jae are together? I bet they'll start fantasizing about you two, with those dirty minds of theirs." I said not daring to look away from him. I was mad. The look on Yunho's face was a mixture of fear, disgust and anger. It just made me feel vulnerable and pathetic.

Why the hell am I in love with this guy? Am I enjoying torturing myself? I shook my head and went back to making breakfast. Maybe he'll leave me alone and disappear. Out of my life. Let me live Yunho. Just go and don't look back. I want to heal and just... try to live without you.


Yunho's P.O.V.


I stared at him. I didn't know what to say, since he was right. I hated to admit it, but hyung was completely right. Actually, when I look back, I can't recall the time when he wasn't. I always admired him because of that. But now his words were stabbing me like daggers. He never said something like that to me nor made me feel like sh.it. Like I'm the worst person in the world. Have I fallen that low? That I don't want to aknowledge my best friend just because he's gay?

That's not me. I shouldn't be like that. I’m better person then that. I always despised people who were full of prejudice and believed in stereotypes. But this was more then that. I felt hurt. I looked at JunKi and it hurt me to see him like this. He actually looked like this meant so much more to him. It made me wonder if this was all about Jae or was there more to it. But I still couldn't say a thing.


JunKi's P.O.V.


"It's true, isn't it?" I said smirking and shaking my head. I didn't want to see him ever again, I kept my eyes on what I was doing.

"It's not." He started quickly, but I cut him off again.

"Maybe it will be better if you leave Yunho." I said glancing at him again and then put a knife I was holding into a sink. I looked at the window. "Maybe it will be better if you don't come back." I added quietly not expecting for him to hear me. He obviously did.

"What? What are you talking about?" he yelled suddenly. I closed my eyes.

"Just go." I said firmly and went out of the kitchen.


JaeJoong's P.O.V.


I was standing outside of the kitchen, listening to the whole conversation. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Something was telling me hyung misjudged Yunho, but I couldn't walk in and defend him. Instead I decided to wait and see how it'll end.

The next thing I knew, hyung was standing in front of me. I guess he didn't expect me there since he looked at me with wide eyes, causing me to gasp. His eyes... were full of tears.


JunKi's P.O.V.


I quickly pushed Jae and ran upstairs, into my room. I can't believe he saw me crying. Over that idiot.


JaeJoong's P.O.V.


What just happened? I feel like I'm in the middle of some drama, like the whole world turned upside down. And it all started yesterday. Wait. Yunho was asking me about hyung. He was acting strangely? Could it be?

Yunho interrupted my thoughts. I looked at him as he walked up to me.

"What's wrong with him?" he asked again. It looked like he forgot all about yesterday's incident for a moment. I looked at him.

"Don't you get it? He's..." in love with you. Stop Jae. You can't say that. Oh my god, how couldn't I notice it earlier? My hyung was in love with my best friend. It must have been awfully difficult for him to see him every single day. And I was wondering why he was so quiet and not like himself. He even looked devastated from time to time. And every time I'd bring Yunho home after school he'd do his best not to stay in the same room with us for a long time.

"... he just has a lot of problems. I guess... you know, I told you that yesterday. It's just Junki." I said quickly. Maybe too quickly. But I couldn't tell Yunho the truth. How could I? I can't believe hyung allowed himself to fall for this guy. Out of all guys around, he picked the worst. I love my best friend and all, but he'll never be with a guy, I'm even afraid he despises gays. Maybe he doesn't, or if he does maybe he'll stop, since I'm his best friend and it looks like I'm gay. I shouldn't think about it now. The point is, my brother is destined to get hurt.


Changmin's P.O.V.


"Hey! Changmin! Wake up!" I heard Junsu calling me, which was followed by him jumping on my bed and starting shaking me. This guy became too comfortable with me in such a short time. I opened my eyes and let out a groan, then glared at him. I reached for my glasses and put them so I could see him.

"What do you want?" I asked falling back on my pillow.

"Come on, get up, we're gonna make a hot guy out of you. You're starting school tomorrow, so you have to look perfect." He said cheerfully, I couldn't help but laugh. It looked like he came from another planet. How can someone be this happy and excited this early in the morning? And it's Sunday!

I slowly got up. I guess I had to, I didn't want him to think up of some painful way to get me out of the bed. I quickly showered, brushed my teeth and in a bit I was already finishing my breakfast. Living with Junsu was the best thing ever. The boy just cooks heavenly food. I began to think this was too good to be true. And the fact that I still had to meet Yoochun made me slightly nervous. I had the feeling that he's completely opposite from Junsu and that wasn't a good thing.


Junsu's P.O.V.


He was pretty quick. He actually surprised me. And he finished breakfast so fast, I just stood there and stared at him. Boy, this boy has such an appetite. I was happy he liked the food though. Yoochun never sais anything, I guess just him eating it should make me satisfied.

Soon we were on our way to the mall. I think I scared Changmin a little bit with the amount of clothes I was getting for him, but once he got changed into them he loved it. Who wouldn't? He looked so handsome, I was proud. We got him lenses and finally got rid of those glasses. I actually bought him another pair of glasses, just in case, but this one was more... let's say stylish. At least he didn't look like a geek. Finally we fixed his hair. By the end of the day he looked amazingly well. I didn't expect him to turn out this hot. I was satisfied with everything I did in one day. And I could tell he was too.


Changmin's P.O.V.


We came back home and I went to my room to leave all my new clothes. I looked at the mirror. So, this is new me. I like it. I looked at the window again and smiled. The change has begun.


Junsu's P.O.V.


Once we got home I began preparing the dinner. Yoochun called to say he'll be late. It surprised me, he never calls. He comes and goes whenever he wishes. Maybe he did it because of Changmin, not to keep us wait for him. The thought of Yoochunnie changing because now we have another person in the house amused me. If it happens I won't complain. Since the change will be to better, right? I hope so.

Changmin came downstairs. This time he made sure I heard him. I guess he doesn't want me to go all 'stop moving like a cat' like. I looked at him.

"You look great. I told you you can trust me." I joked.

"Thanks, for everything." He replied and I smiled.

"Oh, would you mind going to the store? I forgot buying some stuff." I asked looking at him. I didn't mean to make a guest go shopping, but since we're gonna live together maybe I should just stop thinking of him as of a guest. He's part of the family now. Kind of.

He smiled. "Sure." And took the list I handed to him. Soon he disappeared. I smiled.


Changmin's P.O.V.


I picked everything on Junsu's list and also some stuff for myself. As I finally made it to the counter I realized I didn't have enough money. Great, just great, this is so typical, just something that can only happen to me. I sighed thinking of the stuff I should return when a male voice spoke behind me.

"How much do you need?"


JunKi's P.O.V.


The guy turned around and looked at me with a surprised look on his face. I smiled.

"How much do you need?" I repeated. Since he didn't look like he's gonna tell me I turned to cashier. "How much?" I asked again, smiling. The girl melted. I resisted the urge to roll my eyes and just waited patiently. I realized I have a lot of patience. I must've developed that ability living with JaeJoong.

After I paid for the guy's and my groceries we went outside. He finally spoke.

"Why? Why did you do that?" he asked. I guess he was in the state of shock until now. He looked at me with wide eyes. I could see he was quite young, maybe two or three years younger then me. At our age, that difference means quite a bit.

"I just thought you needed a little help. Plus, I knew it will be pain in the @ss returning stuff, then come back for it." I replied shrugging. "I'm Lee Jun Ki." I introduced myself and smiled.

"Oh right... Shim Changmin." The guy replied and smiled back. Such a nice smile.

"Wanna go for a coffee or ice cream or something?" I asked suddenly. The guy seemed nice. And a bit lost.

"Well, I actually can't right now. They're waiting for me at home." He said. "Some other time, okay?" he added smiling again.

"Sure." I nodded. We continued to walk, I guess he doesn't live far from me. "I haven't seen you around here, what school do you go to?" I asked. I knew a lot people in the neighbourhood, I'm the kingka afterall.

"Yeah, that's because I just moved here from New York. Yesterday actually. I go to Seoul High, starting tomorrow." He said. Clearly he was happy he's in Seoul. I wonder what's he gonna feel like after spending a day at our school. I hope he won't be disappointed. Although, most likely he will be. With all the mess going on there, the whole Park vs Kim/Jung thing. Gets on my nerves.

"I go to Seoul High too." I didn't want to say I'm the kingka. It doesn't mean anything anyway. It's just a burden. Maybe I should just tell them all I'm gay and hopefully they'll leave me alone. "Well, I guess I'll see you in school then." I said as I turned into my street.

Changmin smiled and waved at me and I turned around heading to my house.


Changmin's P.O.V.


Thank god for that guy. It was embarrassing enough I didn't have enough money. JunKi seems like a good guy. Did I mention I love Seoul? People are great. I can't wait for tomorrow, school time. I'm gonna meet a lot of people and hopefully make some friends.

I got home. Junsu was still alone, waiting for me. He finished dinner in a bit and we sat down to eat. Just then, the doorbell rang and I got up to open it.


Yoochun's P.O.V.


I stared at the guy in front of me. Oh my god. Did I get the wrong house? I swallowed a bit as I continued staring and felt my heart beating like crazy. What the...

"Hi, you must be Yoochun." He said and smiled broadly. I shivered slightly at the sound of my name coming out of that y mouth of his. That smile... is the most beautiful smile I have ever seen. Don't tell me...

"You're Changmin? Damn, you're h--... a nerd?"