I felt lost..confused. I finally saw her face but why things keep happening the way I don’t want them to be. I guess it’s my destiny…

Back at the apartment…

I approached the living room, there stood my manager walking back and forth with an upset look while my fellow members have their head looking down at the table with some pictures. I wanted to go straight to my room but they noticed me

“Jaejoong, what were you thinking?!” my manager yelled

Wondering what he said “What are you saying hyung?” What did I do? I came closer to them and he shoved a picture in front of my face. I stepped back and got a hold of the picture. My eyes widen when I saw Boa and me at the beach, me kissing her.

“Do you know what this means? It’ll affect your career and the group also! What am I going to do with you?”

I can’t speak. I don’t know what to say. How will I tell the people about me and Boa..now that she hates me..and can’t even remember me..ahh! Jaejoong think!

“Thank God we found the person who took these or else people will freak out about it”

“I’m sorry” I uttered. I ran to my room and leaned against the door. Why do these things happening to me? Can’t I be happy?

After a while, a knock awaken me from my thoughts
“Jae, open up. We need to talk” I opened the door revealing the other members.

“Where’s hyung?” I asked as I scanned the living room

“He went to AVEX building” Changmin answered

“Jae, we’re sorry to what happened..based on the pictures, I guess things didn’t go smoothly on the both of you” Yoochun spoke up

I sighed and went back to the living room. I told them what happened earlier

“Bwoh? She can’t…? But how is she now?” Yunho said, shocked with what he heard and the same goes to the other members

“The doctor said she’s fine” I told them “I need your help”

“What is it Jae?”

“You see, I came up with a decision…I decided not to see Boa”

“What! Are you crazy? You’ve been looking for her and now that you found her, you’ll leave her? Are you….wah I can’t understand you anymore” Yunho said, irritated

“What I said about not seeing Boa, doesn’t mean I will completely get her out of my life. I’ll just watch her from a far”

“Sounds like spying or stalking”

“Changmin, it’s not funny you know” Junsu smacked the maknae’s head

“But hyung, why did you…” Junsu continued

“Because it’s my fault why she’s suffering right now. If I’m not with her, she will be safer and…and she will completely forget about me” I felt pain pierced through my heart. I need to sacrifice for her..for my love for her..she deserved to be happy

End of pov

The other four can’t do anything about it. They also don’t know what to do. Is it really true that Boa won’t suffer when Jaejoong’s not by her side? Jaejoong thought it was for the best but the thing is, he doesn’t know that….

At the hospital…

“She’s resting now…ok, I’ll call you if something happen” Mr. Kwon closed his phone after his conversation with his eldest son. He entered the room and saw his wife looking at Boa

“Dear, you should rest now. Why don’t you sleep for a bit?”

“No, I’m fine” Mrs. Kwon held her daughter’s hand

“About Jaejoong, do you think it’s a good idea?” she asked her husband still looking at Boa

“It’s only Boa who will know the answer to that” Mr. Kwon responded

Hours had passed and Boa’s parents fell asleep on the couch sitting next to each other
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“Where am I?”