Krystal POV

"Goodnight Soojung", Victoria turned off the lights and shut the door behind her. Luna who I share the room with already fell asleep. Victoria isn't feeling well but still takes care of me. After I got another message from Junmyeon, I missed Jongin once again. Fortunately Victoria didn't go sleep and listened to my story. I think beside Victoria, the other member also know what I am going through the last days. It was around 12AM when Victoria offered me to drink one shot spirit to forget the thoughts. It's unusual that Victoria is offering me to drink alcohol but we both have our reasons. My face is going to bloat anyway because I won't be able to sleep, so drinking just one shot isn't that bad. And beside that, it's not like I will get a hangover tomorrow. I looked at the dark ceiling and dozed off...

"Let's make a picture~", Amber said and we took our position beside Junmyeon. A staff took several pictures. When I thought we finished our schedule today and was about to leave the place, Junmyeon called me: "Krystal, may I speak you for a moment?" I don't know this man and I don't believe I've ever known him. The way he called me didn't sound like a fan would call his idol. I automatically turned myself around. I could see staff members around me underhand paying attention to us two. I bowed a bit, afterall I've to be respectful even though I am an idol. "I know it's really weird what I am about to tell you, but could you please listen to me?", the soldier asked. The other members already left the place to change, leaving Junmyeon and me alone. I feel uncomfortable. I am not an open person. "They story I send in, it's Jongin's story... You might have moved on but Jongin didn't. That's all I wanted to tell...", without letting me speak about my thoughts, the man walked away. Like nothing happened, people were moving around me. So the story... I followed Junmyeon's direction. My steps went faster and faster, where did that guy go to? I looked around and passed by every possible area Junmyeon could have gone to. Eventually I gave up searching for the soldier who claimed he send in Jongin's story and searched for my manager. After asking for my manager, I finally found the room with "f(x)" written on the door. Instead of entering the room, I just froze. It might be better if I stay alone for a moment. You might have moved on but Jongin didn't. If I can trust Junmyeon's words, Jongin didn't move on. He didn't move on in the past two years, couldn't he let me go the past two years? What is taking him so long? If he didn't move on, why didn't he contact me...? I can barely hear my own thoughts anymore. I can barely see what's written on the door anymore, it's all white. Instead of looking up; keeping my tears in; I just stared at the floor. The thoughts of us both not being able to move on is annoying and I hate it. It's like being bullied by those who are weaker than you but you can't do anything to stop them. It makes me weak. It feels like being kicked all over my body. It makes me realise how fragile and delicate I am. The tears I tried to hold in streamed down my cheeks. The tears me weak self can't hold in. Caring about what the others think of me is the last thing I can think of right now, I just want these thoughts to stop ade me, forever.

Kai POV

Unlikely a few years ago, I am behind the security instead of being part of the security. I didn't sleep for last night and I am waiting here like a delusional fan at 4AM in the morning. I continiously looked on my watch for the time, what takes so long? Junmyeon persuaded me to do it. "Two years have passed by and there are new chances. Just watch the link I've send you below...", he said. I watched the episode Junmyeon was starred in. I watched him interact with f(x), he told me about it after the show was broadcasted on tv. I never felt like watching. He said I'd like it but all I could think about was the past, what I wanted to get rid of. Today proves that I can't get rid of the past. If I could chose between my biological father or mother, stepmother or stepfather or Krystal to be by my side, I'd chose Soojung. She is the most caring one by my side beside mom and stepfather who won't ever return by my side until the day I die. I am waiting for Krystal to return from Japan. A few fansites of f(x) have already gathered around the airport with their huge cameras. Fortunately there aren't many crowds today, the crowds Krystal's dislikes. As the fansite noonas started to move, I panicked. "Are they coming?", I asked one of the noonas. "Yes I think they are coming", the woman said and focused on her camera wich she pointed at the entrance of the arrivals halls. I immediately recognized Minjoon hyung who first appeared with some luggage on a trolley. Because there weren't many fans around in the morning, the only one who were waiting for the members were the fansite noonas, just a few fans, security and me. Everytime the sliding door opened, I took a step backwards. I cannot do this. After Minjoon walked came out from the arrival hall, he waited for the other members but no one came out. That's the time I could pull back. I walked away far enough from the fansite noonas so I'd be able to see Krystal without her seeing me. I wanted to show myself to Krystal, show her I am back. But I am cannot, I am not prepared, I don't know what to expect. I should just observe from a distance. I turned my back to the arrival sliding door and frowned my eyebrows and caressed my own face. "Wake up Jongin", I told myself. Just then I heard camera snaps behind my back. I turned around and then saw flashes from the camera. Five girls including their managers calmly walked into the arrival hall and walked in the direction of the aiport exit. After I released the girls finally arrive