Krystal POV

I walked to the other members ready to go up the stage. "10 SECONDS LEFT FOR F(X)!", a staff member screamed around. I took a deep breath. We sticked out our finger together. "1, 2, 3, F(X)!", we screamed. "Come on, let's enjoy it!", Amber said before we stepped on the stage. It has been more than a month since I left the hospital in China because of the incident at the airport. My condition was behind compared with the other members. SM suggested to leave me out of this concert, but I refused SM's suggestion, I don't want to dissapoint the fans and ofcourse the other members. They would have to work even harder than they already did. Dancechoreography of 5 songs would change if I was absend. I wanted to perform as five, like we did in the past. Sulli just came back from her hiatus. I don't want to ruin the thought of fans, seeing another member absend after watching four members for a long time. And eventually I don't want any articles about my absence with Jessica's departure as excuse. My footsteps on the stairs to the stage become heavier by every step. The moment I stood on the stage, seeing the huge amount of people cheering for us gave me energy. So many people are watching us, everyone except one person who was always by my side during these kinds of stages, Jessica. The song played, this is the fifth and last song we're are going to perform. I stood ready in my position. The public quiet down a bit when the song started to play. "Let's show them what you have", I encouraged myself. "Ay Wait a minute... Jeonggeul sogui rul ttara...".

Kai POV

I stood behind the stage looking at the monitor what displayed the stage performances. I fixed my gaze on the monitor, following Krystal's dance moves. I just couldn't stop looking for her on the screen. I'm not supposed to do this, but I still do. I've told myself many times to stop looking at Krystal like this. If I keep doing this, I am going to ruin Krystal's idol image and there is a possibility Kim Young Min will fire me. That man's outerappearance was so different compared with LEe Soo man's appearance. I just got to know them both for about more than a month but they were totally the opposite kind of men. The one was black, the other white. The one fire, the other was like water. I remember when I was just a second too late for the meeting, Kim Young Min was so angry because I was "late". Lee Soo Man defended me back then, telling Kim Young Min not to be so strict. Starting that day I felt like Kim Young Min hated me even more than he already did. SooMan telling me that Youngmin didn't like couples inside the company was totally true. After the first articles about Krystal and me were released, YoungMin had some grudge on me. I don't want to face him again because of my relationship with Krystal. I'd rather be beaten up than see that man, I'm honest. The SHINee members who just finished their performance before f(x)'s performace passed by and greeted me. They stood beside me, watching f(x)'s Red Light performance on the monitor. "Why is Soojung wearing sunglasses?", Onew asked me. "I am not sure, she didn't tell me about it". Onew nodded. I didn't even wonder why Soojung is wearing glasses, but now Onew mentioned her sunglasses, I became curious. "Krystal looks tired", Minho said with a worried voice while the other SHINee members walked away to prepare themselves for the next performace. I looked at Minho with a huge question mark on my forehead. "She just doesn't look like she's fit, is she okay?", Minho asked. "She said that she was fit enought to perform", I anwsered. "Ah okay. Jongin, I have to leave. See you next time", Minho walked in the same direction as the other SHINee members. I waved and I looked back on the monitor. Everytime Krystal appeared on the screen I fixed my eyes on her. She did kind of struggle while performing, as in not being stable. The song is coming to an end. I should stop being worried and look away. I turned my back to the monitor and slapped myself softly on my cheeks without anyone seeing it, to check if I w