I knew I am a few minutes late. I am not surprised when I saw both of them hugging together. It is as if I’ve foresee it and prepared for it. Holding back my tears, I turned and walked away swiftly.

“Serve me right for being so draggy. Who can I blame now?”

Walking down the quiet street is indeed lonely,especially now. I board a random bus. Well as expected, it is also quite empty with only 2 or 3 people on board. I walked to the rear end and sat down. It is totally like how drama would show when someone is out of love and they would be like sitting at one corner emoing and such. Well, basically this is how I am feeling right now. After driving for so long, the bus came to a stop infront of a traffic light. I saw 2 figures. 1 of the figure looks familiar. I squint my eyes for a better look. Oh, it’s JiYeon with her boyfriend. Well at least they are fine together.

“2 happy couples today.” I smirked.

It’s almost 2am when I reached home. I assumed everybody should be asleep at this point of time. I walked into the house seeing the dimly lit living room. Kevin was sitting on the sofa watching some television program.  

“Not sleeping?” I asked.

“Nope, waiting for you to be home.”

“Hum, well what’s up?”

“Hyung, I’ve got something to tell you.”

I knew it. “What’s it?”

“It’s…it’s about Eun Hae and me… we’re…”

“Together.” I said calmly.

“Huh? You knew it? Did you saw…” he asked worriedly.

“Yup I saw it just now. Didn’t want to spoil the mood that’s why I went for a walk outside.”

He still looks worried. If I’m mean enough, I would make sure he feel duper bad towards me. But oh well, who asked him to be my cousin.

“I am alright, don’t worry. I am tired. Rest early.” I got up from my seat and pat his shoulder before heading to my room.

I plunged onto my bed straight. Thinking back what I had just seen. Am I really alright?

The next few days pass quite plainly, for me. Dongho approached me asking if I am alright. I assured him that my heart is almost healed and it doesn’t hurt much seeing them together. Well, it’s a lie. How can it not hurt seeing both of them together? Sometime I still couldn’t hold on to myself but look at Eun Hae repeatedly. I know I shouldn’t do it, but I just can’t help but to look, still having a slight hope she would come to me again.

 I went back performing at the school club at night. As usual fans would be gathering there, cheering for us. We gave in our 101% in the whole performance. But, there would be a special stage tonight. After we are done with our performance, everyone get off stage except me. Bringing out the chair and the stand, I sat down with my guitar in hand. The light turned dim.

“Neul ttokgateun haneure

I started singing the first line. Image of her flashed in when I am singing.

Neul gateun haru
Geudega omneun-gotmalgoneun
Dallajin-ge omneunde

Nan utgoman sipeunde
Da ijeundeusi
Amuir-anin deut geuroke
Useumyo salgopeunde

Geuriwo geuriwoso
Geudega geuriwoso
Meil nan honjasoman
Geudereul bureugo bullobwayo

Bogopa bogopaso
Geudega bogopaso
Ije nan seupgwanchorom
Geudea ireumman bureuneyo
Oneuldo
Nan bonenjur-aratjyo
Da namgim-obsi
Anijyo anijyo nan ajik
Geudereul motbonetjyo

Geuriwo geuriwoso
Geudega geuriwoso
Neil nan honjasoman
Geudereul bureugo bullobwayo

Bogopa bogopaso
Geudega bogopaso
Ije nan seupgwanchorom
Geudea ireumman bureuneyo
Oneuldo

Haruharuga jugeul gotman gateunde
Ottoke heyaheyo

Saranghe sarangheyo
Geudereul sarangheyo
Maljocha mot-hagoso
Geudereul geuroke bonenneyo

Mianhe mianheyo
Ne mari deullinayo
Dwineujeun ne gobegeul
Geuden deureul su isseulkkayo
Sarangheyo”

Tears start rolling down my cheek. I tried my best to control it, but I still failed. I took in a deep breath and walked down the stage with people clapping and cheering behind. I have no idea one particular person is sitting at the audience seat listening to my whole song.

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Vid: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rEh3_LY5wL4&feature=player_embedded

Lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/j/jung_yong_hwa/because_i_miss_you.html