Little Steps
Regret"So I'm sorry. For what I said to you at the hospital. For pushing you away. For not being there when you need me. And for not being a friend you deserve. I'm sorry, Hakyeon. "
N doesn't reply and Leo couldn't find anything else to say either so they just sat in silence until they eventually fall asleep, huddled next to each other, enjoying each other's warmth in the cold atmosphere.
N is waken from his comfortless slumber by the sound engine roaring and Hyuk's soothing voice.
"Hyung, wake up. We're going home. "The maknae calls N softly as he shakes the leader awake.
N opens his eyes to the sight of Hyuk peering at his face, a taxi and Leo who's loading the trunk of the taxi with their luggage. "Home? "He asks somewhat cluelessly .
Hyuk nods. "I know I said that we're only going home if you and Taekwoon-hyung has made up but I changed my mind, hyung. I don't want any of us to get sick and since you're pretty much trembling right now, I guess I'm a bit too late. "He explains. "Sorry, hyung. I'll get you some meds soon, okay? "
N blinks and only then does he register how cold he's feeling at the moment. "I'm fine. "He chose to lie instead, not wanting Hyuk to feel guilty or worried.
Hyuk nods somewhat unconfidently as he offers his hand to help N stand up and thankfully, the leader accepts his offer but still wobbled nonetheless. "Careful, hyung. "He advises and N just smile weakly as an answer before practically throwing himself onto the backseat of the taxi.
Not long after he has settled down, Leo comes and was about to sit next to him when Hyuk told him no. "You sit in front, hyung . "Hyuk orders the main vocalist.
Leo hesitates.
"Its okay, Hyuk. "N assures. "Let Taekwoon sit here. I have something to tell him. "He says and Hyuk just let out a resigned sigh before letting Leo take the seat he wanted.
As the taxi starts moving, Leo waits anxiously for N to tell him the thing that he wanted to tell him and after what felt like an eternity to him, N finally starts whispering; voice low and soft.
"I forgive you, Taekwoon. "
Leo blinks, his heart skipping a beat. "You forgive me. "He repeats even softer, searching into N's eyes for the sincerity that he craved for so much.
N nods, smiling a little. "Sorry I was too emotional yesterday. "He says. "I know you deserve to know what you did wrong so it wasn't your fault for asking. I was over reacting, I suppose. "He admits some what sheepishly.
"Hakyeon, thank you. Thank you. "Leo says gratefully,not knowing how else to express the swelling happiness in his heart.
"But Taekwoon, do know that the pain is still here. "N says, clutching the left side of his chest. "And perhaps it will stay here for who knows how long. "he concludes. "So let's take it slow. "He says. ""Lets take little steps, just like how we did when we first met. "
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