I Confess

It's Complicated

Lee Jaejin's POV:

                As we get closer to our destination, I felt like I’m getting farther and farther away from her. I steal some glances at her from time to time, and it’s eating me up horribly. She was sitting quietly with thoughts obviously running in her head. I felt a chill ran down my spine and it brought me back to the past; when we were alone in that street and I broke her heart. A loud honking brought me back to the present.

                We were finally at the destination. I stayed for a while, not moving. I was just staring at the wheel; not knowing exactly what to do. We stayed quiet like that for a few minutes. I sighed and finally gave out a smile at her.

                “Mina.” I called her name so softly as if it was my last. I can feel my insides tearing up, screaming to let the get off of me. She looked at me with a wondering expression. Her eyes were filled with sadness, despite how much strength she puts in it. Unknowingly, I leaned my face closer to her as if some devil is telling me to kiss her. As I was getting closer and closer, some devil from another land came; my phone rang. It brought me back to my senses and I checked who it was. Yeah, that’s right. It’s too late for me now. I dropped myself in my seat before I spoke to her again. I laughed trying to make a joke out of what I did.

                “YOU SHOULD’VE SEEN YOUR FACE!” I laughed terribly, trying to drown my cries with all the laughter. She smacked me hard in the arm, absolutely pissed like a kid. She sure is precious all right.

                “Stupid.” She blurted.

                “I was just kidding. You were sulking for quite a while.” I was still laughing. I don’t know if she is buying my laugh, but I can feel it getting more unrealistic as time passes. I laughed a few more in order to gain strength to do what I am supposed to do before speaking to her again. “Let’s go, we’re late already.”

                We were almost there; just a few more steps and I would be losing her again like years ago. A strong wind blew as if making me recall of that cold night. I stopped and she did also.

                 “Can we walk a little slower? I’m kind of tired.” I said. Lame excuse is lame excuse after all. We were walking quietly under the moonlit place and the wind just kept on getting colder and colder as we came nearer “there.” How I wish time would stop at this moment. I looked at her again and she looked back, a complicated smile on my face.

                “We’re here.” She gave me a confused look by what I meant, without needing for my answer, Jonghun showed up with his guitar, and started singing one of our songs. She was standing there completely dumbfounded; her eyes fixed on Jonghun alone as if he was the only person right there right now. Well there was Hongki, Seunghyun and Minhwan too. We all had roles to play in this. She is smiling now. She’s right next to me but I can feel her drifting away further and further.

                “I’ll remember them even at the moment I die have I told you before? I love you there is no other way to say it I love you I love you other than those common words I say it again “I love you” my heartfelt confession today please never forget it I love you..”

                The song came to an end while I just started to figure out my feelings. “I LOVED YOU ALL ALONG..” 

 

author:okay, so this chapter is making e akjsdkda. T^T i am so lame.. can you guys tell me what you think abou it?? updates will be slow from now on since my 1 week absence from school is finally over.. so yeah please do tell me your thoughts.. T^T thank you! :) <333

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jujun123 #1
I miss this fic so much.. My first fav fic somewhere ard 2011-2012.. So i decided to re read this fic.. Peace
143mimoky
#2
Chapter 46: done reading this fic. thank you author for making a sequel. im up to that right now.
minari_j72 #3
its your first yet its so good ehehe ur so talented..i'll be waiting for that minari fic <3
minari_j72 #4
i just finished your story so wonderful!! i enjoyed every bit of it! im crying now <3 thank you..youre an awesome write..can you write minari too? hehe
minari_j72 #5
OMGGGG THIS STORY IS SOO GOOD!
babo_cy
#6
this is really awesome., did you know that you made me cry while reading this?., hahahaha well please continue on making nice stories, especially with ft island as characters., hehehe well done :S wooooooooooh *applause*
haruxii #7
I am reading it now :)) new reader here. Hehehe im at chapter 6 already ~~ wooh.
jaceBlue #8
first of all, amazing story you have here!
i was actually a little bit surprised that some instances are based on a true story.. (so thats why i was tearing here when reading *nod* *nod*)
i feel so sad with what happened to jonghoon. i know that somehow she also loves him, it wasn't just enough for her to forget her first love..anyway i hope u do a sequel for jonghoon..he deserves someone who will also love him..
thank you for sharing this story to us!! until next time! ^^

PS: sorry for a very long comment..i just felt so many emotions reading your story..
jaceBlue #9
i cried at chapter 32 T____T its so sad, i can really feel it..
stirred some memories...
jaceBlue #10
waaa~ jaejin definitely has feelings for mina!!
but what to do? seems like jonghoon is head over heels in love with her as well..

what to do?!?