TaeYeon POV

I took out our couple necklace and keep staring to it. I'm glad that I'm still Teukie oppa's first priority. I'm glad that I'm that special to him. For him to leave his wife just like that for someone like me. Even, he know too well that we are restricted to be together he still come to my side. What more can I ask for?

But, I know she is there to stay. They will be in love again after I leave. I can't prevent it from happening. I admit that I'm so possessive that when I'm in love I want him by myself. That I can't even think straight when I see him with someone else. He can't be by my side. I need to prepare my heart. I can't let my heart to fall too deep. Because I know it will hurt me later.

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EeTeuk POV

SNSD already returned to Korea about a month. But, I can see how TaeYeon trying to avoid me. I can't let that happen. I can't be apart from TaeYeon. It's killing me inside. TaeYeon already in front of my eyes. But, she is now far from my reach. After all, I need to attend military for two years. We will be apart. It is not a short time and we don't even have a declared relationship. I can't bear if I see her already in relationship with someone else later. I will regret for my lifetime. I need to propose her before I attend military. I need her in my life.

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TaeYeon POV

Today, Teukie oppa want to meet me. I prepared myself after we finished our performance. I just put on sweater with hoodie. I put in my face mask as a disguise. I wait for Teukie oppa at our favourite park. Honestly, this is our first date after oppa's WGM and also after my return. I admit that I'm avoiding oppa all these days. It's not that I hate him. But, I know that I'll be fallen more and more with his affection, his love, his calmness, his protectiveness. I'm afraid to fall deep into his love again and again.

Oppa already sit beside me.  "Taengoo-yah. All these times oppa had been so afraid to confess. Knowing you is such a bless. Being together already make me addicted that I want to be with you every single time. Laughing with you already become my habit. Showering you with my love become my favourite thing to do. Being together with you in our own little world make me feel in ectasy. Neither of us ever say it is love. But, I know we both feel the same feeling. I know that we both need each other. I know we are real. I don't even care if they want to separate us. We'll meet LSM songsaengnim. Let oppa do all the talk. You complete my life. Let's us get married after oppa complete the military." Teukie oppa confessed to me already hold my left hand and also show me the ring. I'm shock. Both the confession and proposal at the same time. 

Deep down inside I do love Teukie oppa. But I've decided to bury all this feeling. I'm possessive that I can't accept if Teukie oppa will not love me anymore. Even, with the WGM things I already can't handle my feeling. Two years is not a short time. What if Teukie oppa's feeling fade in two years? What if I can't really wait for him these two years? Many things can happen in two years. For the first time, I feel grateful that neither of us do confess our feeling before this. Making this quite easier for me to reject both Teukie oppa's confession and proposal. I'm determined. I fake a smile and take a deep breath. "Ha? Michyeosseo oppa? You have Sora already. Don't tell me you don't fall for her after all those sweet moments. 2 years is not a short time, oppa. I might be fallen for somebody else. In fact, you are just my oppa. No less, no more. I don't remember having a declared relationship before with you oppa." ? Yeah, that described me perfectly now. Honestly, I feel like I'm going to punch myself right there, right then. I left oppa who just stand there dumbfoundedly. 

I cry all my heart. The rain pour down just after I left. I just walked to the playground and sit on the swing. I just let the rain soak me. Even if I get fever after this, I just don't care anymore. Let it be. I hate my ownself for doing this. Even if we are together, our company will never let it happen. Two years is not a short time. I can't trust myself. What if someone else comes to my life? What if two years without me change Teukie oppa's heart? I can see Teukie oppa changes after the WGM. I don't want to see that again when my heart already fallen for Teukie oppa. Call me selfish or whatever. Even me myself hate my ownself.