Jongin knows life isn't meant to be happy forever. There are still times when he feels down. There are still difficulties taking control over his emotion. Doubts and insecurities are there once and twice. Sadness and regrets also pop out sometimes, but Jongin will never back away or run from his life. Not anymore.

Jongin finally can understand how to appreciate good things. He has to accept rains to create a rainbow. Happiness and sadness should be balanced, just like the white key and black key on the piano. At the end of the day, those two create a harmony.

Jongin also has stopped being jealous with somebody else's life. Everytime he feels envious eating him alive, he will remind himself that he should just focus more on his life. There is no point of envying someone else's life.

No life's perfect, even when it looks like it. Taemin's life is imperfect, Sehun's life is imperfect, Chanyeol's life is imperfect. Everyone struggles. Everyone cries. Everyone fights. Each has their own battles, something that they should deal with. Jongin has no idea about what is it, and he doesn't need to know it.

Back then, Jongin used to lusting over someone else's life. He used to envying everything under the sun but himself. Jongin used to hate his life, being insatisfied with every aspect of himself. But now, if he had a chance to get reborn in this life... He would still choose to be himself. He would never trade his life with anything, because he knows his life is precious.

Jongin promises himself that he will treasure his life with all his might. He will never ever complain about any difficulties that comes around. He has been given a chance to live again, that is more than enough blessing for Jongin already. He can't ask for more. He has been truly truly blessed, he has no other reason to mourn