A/N: I am in love with winner's album and their debut   

You let your feet glide against the dirt while you push yourself on the swing. You look down at the ground and watch while you bury your feet within the sediments. You tighten both of your hands on the swing's chains and you try to take a deep breath to prevent yourself from crying because of embarrassment. A tear slips out, and you try to control your breathing but you feel yourself keep shaking.

You always hated being left alone, and when hakyeon told you to meet but then ditched you later, that just made you more nervous.

You had to tell him today, but he left you in the empty park to go to something for a leader.

"_____-ah? Is that you?" You hear a voice come from your left and you see the man you wish you didn't see.

"Oh, hi wonshik." You greet with an empty smile and wonshik let out a dissatisfied frown.

"Are you okay?" He sits down on the swing besides you and he slightly rocks his feet so he goes back and forth.

"Yea, I am alright." You reply with no meaning and wonshik took a heavy sigh.

"To be honest, if you want--" but you hold up a hand to cut him off

"No, it is just, let me be for a second." Your voice trails off and you feel a reassuring hand on your shoulder.

"I won't be here as the man who wants to win your heart, I will be here as the man who wants to see you smile. So please, smile again?" He gives a lopsided grin that you couldn't help but smile as well. "Let's have a contest to see who can swing the highest, the loser had to give the winner ice cream." Wonshik proposed the challenge and you nod curtly so you could get your mind off of things. "Okay, let's start on the count of three." Wonshik glances at you and you give a mischievous look.

"Three!" You squeal and you push your feet of the dirt and your legs are high in the sky.

"Yah!" Wonshik yells and when you reach your maximum height, wonshik catches up and turns his head to death glare you.

You couldn't help but giggle at your own dirty ways of winning, and soon you feel yourself being pulled back and you are facing the ground again.

You bring your legs forward and you feel yourself go a bit higher and the potential energy made you feel excited.

"I went higher!"  Wonshik' legs surpass yours and you stick out your tongue in a mocking way.

"No way! You are cheating because you are so much taller than me!" You scold but wonshik ignores you.

You stop pumping your legs and you drag your feet, giving grass stains on your work out converses.

The friction between the ground and you slows you down to a stop and wonshik stops after you.

You chuckle at how childish the both of you are and he smiles as well.

The sound of a shrilling ringtone interrupts the laugher and you look down at a text from hakyeon.

For five minutes you forgot about your dilemma, but now you have to put an end to this stupid fight.

"Well I should head back the the dorm now." Wonshik stands and stretches his long legs.

"Wait, I am going in the same direction as you." You stand up with him and a confused look crosses his defined features on his face.

"Isn't your house the opposite though?" You hold up your phone and show the message. His face becomes as hard as rock at reading his band member's name but he just covers it with a fake mask.

"Well, let's walk together then."

You and wonshik stand outside of the unopened dorm room and you both take a shaky breath to calm your nerves.

"Before we go in that door, answer to what I am going to ask you." Wonshik' anxiety starts to make you feel more paranoid but you can't step out now and be a coward. You stiffly nod in agreement and he closes his eyes before speaking, "do you think you can consider me as a man to you?" He turns to look for a reaction but your eyes retreat to your converse that is covered in soil and grass.

"I mean-- I--" you desperately stutter to make a complete sentence but wonshik just shakes his head, already disapproving of your answer.

"Just tell me bluntly." His voice comes out cold and harsh, and it sent a shiver down your back.

“I’m sorry,” was all you could say because if you said more, you would just break down into a pool of tears.

You put your head down in shame, waiting for him to yell at you or to tell you how stupid and selfish you are being. You expect a scolding, but instead the silence just gets dragged out longer.

You slowly lift up your head to look for a reaction in his face, but he was avoiding eye contact and he bit hard on his lips.

You bite your lips when you could tell how upset he is, and you impatiently wait for a response.

The silence starts to build up and you could feel yourself feeling suffocated with each passing second.

Wonshik finally decides to save you, “it is okay, I understand.” He forces himself to say and he pulls you in a farewell hug and gently kisses your forehead, “I wish you and him the best, I promise I will give you that ice cream.” He cracks a joke to lighten up the mood, and it worked because you manage a small laugh.

“I wish you two the best.” He gives a sad smile, and salutes a goodbye.

Wonshik runs away to get himself from the embarrassment and frustration: but deep down he knew he just wants you to be happy.

You bring your fist to the door and you tap it three times, and you drop your hand to your side as if it was ten pounds.

Hakyeon opens the door and he lets out a sigh of relief, “you came.” He grinned like a child opening his presents on Christmas and he opens the door wider and gestures you to come in.

You walk in and he closes the door behind you, you slip off your soiled converse to the white slippers so you wouldn’t leave a trace of any dirt in their somewhat clean dorm.

“I-I’m glad you could make it.” Hakyeon does last minute and chucks any garbage in a corner so it is less noticeable. “Be right back. I just wanted to give you something as an apology for leaving you.” He stumbles with his words and he is going to retreat to his room but you grab his arm to stop him.

“D-don’t leave me again.” You whisper and he seems shocked at your words.

“I will be right back.” He promises but you shake your head.

“I don’t need anything because I already forgive you, all I want is for you to accept me again.”

A/N: hmmm idk what to feel anymore