"No! All you need to do is just dice it!" yelled Jaehye. She and I didn't go to school today. I woke up with a headache, and threw up. I was surprised when I saw Jaehye home. I thought she had left also. Hoseok even left a message on my phone saying, This is your chance, don't blow it off. Since we didn't go to school, we decided to make food for the boys when they get back. I thought Jaehye wanted the carrots thin and short... But she wanted them dice. "We're making curry idiot. I said it millions of times already!" She let out a big sigh. I think I'm getting on her nerves... I'm sensitive alright! Especially towards Jaehye! I pouted and diced the carrots. 

After all the carrot cutting, I left the kitchen to sit in the lounge. I left her alone to finish her cooking. I didn't want to be in her way. I wasn't feeling good either... Gosh, hangovers. I barely even remember what I did last night. All I remember was Jungkook coming home and yapping about whatever happened to him. I'm pretty sure I knocked out after that. 

Jaehye came in and handed me a plate of curry. "Eat. I'm sorry for yelling at you earlier. I'm just grouchy from not having any sleep last night," Oh right, she was with Mark. "Since you kept talking, and talking, and talking, I couldn't sleep," Wait what? "You were going somewhere also when I got back last night and-"

"I was talking to you?" I asked. I had a talk with Jaehye? When? How? Last night? Did I say anything foolish to her!? Oh my gosh... "I didn't say... Anything stupid, did I?" 

Jaehye looked at me with wide eyes, "Oh... I'm... guessing you don't remember," I shook my head. "Better off that way," 

"No wait! Tell me!" I said as I stopped her from going back into the kitchen. 

"If you finish your food then I'll tell you," she smiled. I rolled my eyes. 

"Fine. Promise!" I said as I stuck my pinky finger to her. 

She scoffed at me, "You're so childish," but she hooked her pinky with mine, "Promise,"

I swear I almost choked from eating too fast. I had to run to the kitchen for a drink. 

"Slow down will you?!" laughed Jaehye as she pat my back. "You didn't even say anything to me last night. Don't worry. All you asked was where was I and I ditch school without you knowing. Don't worry, it's nothing big," I looked at her with a raised eyebrow as I cleared my throat. 

"I feel like there's more," 

"No... there isn't," she said as she headed to the lounge.

"Jeon. Jae. Hye." I said as I went after her. 

"What," she said with her hands on her hips, "I'm being serious. You drunk so much last night, you wanted to go look for me since I didn't get home till midnight, but I was already home telling you not to go,"

"Liar," I said. I should be believing her, but somehow I couldn't. 

"Well, your loss then," she said as she turned away. 

"Yah," I said as I grabbed onto her. 

"Ah!" she said in pain. I immediately let go of her but grabbed her arm again as lifted up her sleeve. Bruise. Why was it bruised? It looked like someone clawed into her. "You... You weren't suppose to see that," she said. I looked at her. 

"Did I do this?" I asked. She didn't answer. "Yah, answer me. Did I do this," 

"No, you didn't so-"

"Can you stop lying!?" I shouted. "Why do you keep lying to me!" 

"Fine! Yes, you did this! Happy?" she shouted back. That's it... I pulled her instantly into my arms and sighed. 

"I'm sorry," I said, "I'm sorry I hurted you. I'm sorry," One of my arm was around her waist as the other was holding her head against my chest, "I'm sorrying I raised my voice at you also. I'm sorry, Jaehye," 

"Can you stop that.. You've been saying sorry ever since last night," she said. I let out a small laugh. 

"I can't help it," she gave me a small punch at my back, and then wrapped her arms around me. 

"Idiot," she mumbled. 

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

"Let's not meet anymore," 

It's just that sad moment when you feel like you've been abandoned. When you have shut your world on everyone, and you think you're alone. I didn't sleep last night at all actually. I heard what Jaehye had said to me last night. I heard her leave. I heard the door shut. Everything. I know she has a thing for Jin, but I can feel that she has a thing for me too. Can't she just choose me? Jin must be the reason why she's holding back... I can understand...

"Yo, we have some business to take care of tonight, you have to come along," said Jackson. We were in the studio since it was lunch break.  

"I don't want to go," I answered.

"Yah, it's BTS, you have to go," I looked at him. What? BTS?

Jaebum came and slapped the back of Jackson's head, "It's just some bull stuff. You can stay if you want. We'll deal with it," 

"I changed my mind, I'm coming along," I said. 

"Are you sure... Jaehye might be there," said Jinyoung.

"I don't care. We're not on the same side anyways," I said as I threw my foot on the table, "A man gotta do, what a man gotta do," I said as I faked my smile.

"That's the Mark I know!" said Jackson. "I definitely can't wait for tonight!" I could tell that Jinyoung and Jaebum exchanged looks before looking back at me. This has nothing to do what my feelings. I will put it aside. There's no time to be worrying about love or whatever you want to call it. All of it is just making me look like a . I'm a man, and I will be one. 

"We'll be meeting them at 6," said Jaebum, "You know you can change your mind by then,"

"If I said I'm going, then I'm going," I said as a matter of fact. "Don't worry about it. I'll be fine," Jaehye isn't something for us to be worrying about anymore. She was never with us anyways. Although we treated her kindly, it wasn't like she was the first girl to ever get that. She's nothing special....... Oh what the , who am I kidding.

"By the way, where were you yesterday, you jackass," said Youngjae, "Do you not know we were almost killed,"

"Yeah, your parents came," said BamBam, "Lucky for us, Jaebum's dad was here to talk to calm him down,"