~JaeJoong~

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I stayed behind in the conference room, playing around with my pen as I looked around. Here was the room that all of the work has been done, all the meetings that has been held here and all the anger, the hard work, the frustration but as well as the happiness. 

The meeting ended about 20 minutes ago but I couldn't for some reason bear myself to get up and walk up to the my office. I for some reason wanted to stay behind and just.. sit here. There was a bunch of things that needed to be done, to be signed but I was wondering if I would really rush it in order to rest and take a break or should I just keep going? How much did I really have left before I started to forget and become someone that wasn't me?

"Jae?"

I looked up to see Yunho standing by the doorway with two cups of coffee in his hands and under his arm holding a bunch of papers

"Hey, what's up ?"

He entered and closed the door with his foot as he walked over and sat down right next to me, the coffee on the table

"Look, your face is all worried and you seem to be overthinking it" Yunho said

"Am I.. really" I mumbled and spaced out

"Look, one step at the time and there is no need to rush alright? We are all here and we will make it work out somehow" Yunho encouraged me

I sighed

"I really don't know Jae. Just knowing that the possibility is there. Even if we had the results of me might having this illness, they said it wasn't final and that they wanted a few more tests. But just knowing that this fear lingers in the air, around me and Yuna makes me so angry that I cannot think of anything but rushing. All these what ifs are killing me and just knowing that I just might loose everything I have is tearing me apart. I'm so angry at the world, at these genes and at myself for not looking it up earlier" I said angrily, folding my fists

"We will cross that bridge once we get there. But for now, we have a wedding to plan, launch the magazine and the charity fashion show. After that you can announce your break if that is what you want"

I looked at Yunho

"Am I really doing the right thing here Yunho? Tell me honestly. There are so many paths and all of them are so confusing. It's like taking this sadness out beforehand before actually knowing that I'm sick" I said and looked at him seriously

Yunho leaned back in his chair and looked at me

"Not living each day to the fullest will cause us trouble. Humans don't see that you know.. We sometimes need to go through the hardships of knowing what pain and losing something feels like in order to know the value of what we have. Be thankful for what we have, achieved so far" Yunho said

"I'm not thankful?" I asked confused

Yunho chuckled

"Well... you know how your personality is. But once Yuna appeared.. I think I've never seen you so happy Jae. And tat changed you. To see things from other perspectives and I think that quality, how she was able to bring that out from your ice cold skin. She is amazing. You're a tough shell to crack if you ask me" Yunho laughed

I smiled

"She really is something isn't she..." I said

"She sure is. And I couldn't be more happy than I am for you at the moment. I really hope you will make the best out of everything" Yunho said

"I'll make sure we will"

"Look.. how about this. Sign these papers and agree to the launch of magazine being published next week. Agree to this photoshoot on ELLE magazine for next week. You can then announce your engagement" Yunho said

I nodded in agreement andstarted to sign the papers

"And then we have the Charity fashion show right? Do we have anything to donate for the show?"

"Yeah.. well.." Yunho started as the door suddenly opened and Yoochun entered

"This is the tux for you. Amazing I know. I love my skills too. Yunas dress are still being made so it'll probably be finished by tomorrow evening" Yoochun said

I shook my head and laughed at Yoochun who folded his arms proudly

"Junsu prepared a few clothings and accessories. So that is all set"

"So there is nothing else that needs preparation?" I asked

Yoochun went outside and came back with a bunch of books and magazines"

"Your wedding"

I started to laugh even more as I saw the bridal magazines.

"You think she wants us to design her dress?" Yoochun asked

"I'll ask her" I said and stood up

"When is the examination?" Yunho asked

"In 5 months from now" I mumbled

"Why 5 months?" Yunho asked

"I wanted the best doctor. I had the hospital fly im over from Australia" I said

"What kind of dotor is he?" Yoochun asked

"He diagnosed my mom" I mumbled

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~Yuna~

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The doors gave away a sound as I looked to the right to see JaeJoong, Yunho and Yoochun coming out

"Hi" I smiled

"Hey there" 

JaeJoong dropped the bunch of books on my desk and gave me a soft kiss on my cheek

"What are those?" I asked

"Bridal magazines and such" JaeJoong shrugged

I swallowed hard as I looked down

"It's happening.. just saying" Yoochun laughed

"Yeah.. I can see that" I mumbled and smiled embarrassed

"Already having cold feet?" Yunho said pretending to be surprised jokingly

"No .. I just.. with everything that's going on.. I " 

"Because of everything that is going on.. This is why we need something else to focus on. Something happier" JaeJoong smiled

I nodded in agreement

"You're right.." 

"So the question is..Would you like us to design he dress for you?" Yoochun smiled

"What's going on out here?" Junsu asked as he opened his door and came outside his office. Changmin soon after came out as well

"Talking about wedding dresses.. and the wedding" JaeJoong smiled

"Oh right! So did you decide? Date? Dress? Which company are gonna do it for you?" Junsu smiled

I looked at the magazines for a while, browsing through them

"I think.." I started

I felt all he guys leaning in and looking at me as they waited

"Can I design it myself? With your help Yoochun?" I asked

All the guys jaws dropped as they stared at me except Yoochun

"Exactly what I was expecting" He said produly

"Why him and not me?" JaeeJoong Pouted

I smiled softly and put my arms around him 

"Because the groom are not to suppose to see anything before the wedding" I said

JaeJoong stared at me first and then chuckled as he leaned in to give me a soft kiss

"I surrender. But you know.. I'm still the most attracted designer in the industry. hey call me GOD. Remember that" He said

I rolled my eyes as I hit him lightly on his arm

"God or not, here you're just my Fiancee"