~Yuna~

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After my talk with Changmin and Yunho, I learned more things about JaeJoong, so much pain about JaeJoong and some happiness that had occurred in his life. I had no idea how I was going to take all of this in but .. I could never imagine myself in JaeJoong's shoes. He was undoubtedly strong and he was amazingly a determined person who had struggled for his life to get to the position he's at now.

But deep down inside, wasn't there a place, a small small space that was longing for his mother? The motherly love that no love can ever replace and which can only be felt once in a lifetime? The care and concern of a mother's hands, the love that a mom puts into while cooking dinner, how she dresses you and telling you to go to school and behave?

Wasn't there even one small spot inside of his heart that was longing for a love like that?

I closed my eyes instantly as I heard JaeJoong open the door, while still standing at the doorway looking into my room while I was lying on the bed. He didn't move, and he didn't enter. For a few seconds he stood there and just watched me and the next thing I know was him closing my door.

I opened my eyes again and looked at the door intensely while waiting for him to come back again. He didn't.

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In the morning while being half awake, once again I could sense his presence by the door, looking at me as I was halfsleeping.

The day of the press conference.

I wasn't really sure what he was planning on doing and I am pretty sure that this would be broadcasted live.

As soon as he closed the door, I opened my eyes instantly as I still was lying in the bed, waiting and just assuring myself that he wouldn't come back.

30 minutes passed and suddenly my door burst open and there was Yunho and Changmin running in with a kit of make-up and a dress along with a coat, a pair of shoes and some accessories.

"We do not have much time, get into the shower now!" Changmin whispered as Yunho made sure that the door was locked.

I got out of bed hurriedly and ran into the bathroom, grabbing the toothbrush on the way and hurriedly brushed my teeth before I jumped into the shower

As soon as I got out, fresh and new I sat down in front of the make-up desk and Yunho was quick with drying my hair as Changmin was fixing my outfit.

About 20 minutes later the hair was finally dry and Yunho was quick with putting some kind of hair styling product and suddenly my hair was silky

"Wow" I mumbled

"I know right. I love the hair industry" Yunho laughed

I quickly got up and Changmin handed me the clothes as I rushed into the bathroom to change again and when I finally came out there was a girl waiting for me along with Yunho and Changmin

The make up was starting and Yunho and Changmin let out a sigh of relief

"You had no idea how long we've waited for JaeJoong to leave. It took him an eternity to do so" Changmin rolled his eyes

"Well anyway, now that he's gone, the press conference starts at 1 pm and you should just walk into the pressconference room just right after JaeJoong has taken his seat. In that way he won't be able to get you out of there" Yunho said

"All of us will be there as well and if there's anything that you need, just tell us right away okay?" Changmin said

I nodded nervously

Yunho went through the routines again and gave me the chance to ask him questions what I should respond to paticular questions and he was 100% sure that if I got into trouble, JaeJoong would immediately jump in and answer the questions because no matter how mad he was at me, he still loved me and he would know how scared I would be just by facing the press.

The last touch of make-up was settled and the girl continued on with my hair and about an hour later, I was finally done. I was wearing a purple strapless dress out of silk, tightly fitting my body and making my body having curves that I didn't know that I had. A black long trench coat was put on and a Louis Vuitton scarf as well and after that Changmin took out a pair of sunglasses and Yunho took out the shoes

"Let's go"

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We finally arrived at the place where the press conference where suppose to take place and luckily there was guards, making sure that everyone wasn't pushing over the limit and also fan girls, keeping them away from attending the press conference.

Yunho parked in the basement and said that he was going to leave first and Changmin were going to take me to the press conference.

I felt myself sweating, breathing faster and my heart beating for the sake of the world as I was getting more and more terrified. Was I really sure to do this? No

"Hey hey.. calm down. Everything will be okay alright? All of us will be there and all of us will help you" Changmin assured as we ot out of the car and he ran over to my side to give me a hug

I nodded nervously

"I'm just.. frightened"

Changmin took off my sunglasses and checked up on the make-up and then he suddenly made my mouth curve up into a smile

"Just .. don't worry too much. It's not necessary. Jae will be there and he will protect you"

Changmin gave me a last hug before he looked at the clock

"You're ready?" Changmin asked

"No?"

"Okay let's go anyway" Changmin chuckled

He took a hold of my hand towards the elevator and pressed onto the buttons as the elevator went up.

When we got outside I saw hundreds of people trying to snap a shot of .. Well I guess JaeJoong who had just entered the press conference room.

"Deep breath" Changmin said

I took a deep breath but it felt like a short and quick one

"Here, hold onto this. Maybe it can help you relax a bit" Changmin said and suddenly he took out a small item from his pocket

"What's that?"

"My sister made it for me. It's just something I hold onto when I get nervous" He smiled

It was like a star shaped rubber, having a text written onto it

"Effort never fails you?" I asked and looked at him

He nodded

"It never fails" He smiled

A last hug was given to me and then we stepped outside the elevator and finally out into the hallway. I took another deep breath before Changmin pushed me into the room and suddenly flashes and screams were heard allover the room. I had no idea where to look until my eyes and gaze landed on JaeJoong's shocked face.

His eyes were widened, as if he couldn't believe that I just stepped inside the room. I fired away a small smile at him before I looked around in the room to see hundreds of paparazzis and reporters. I swallowed hardly as I felt my grip around the star shaped rubber hardened and I stepped up onto the scene and took the seat right next to JaeJoong

I saw him swallow hardly, him wearing marine dark jeans loosy along with a pair of black boots. He then wore a tank top along with a cardigan, complicated designed and it surely looked fashionable and expensive.

I was shaking a bit, begging for God to not let anyone see it and when I sat down I took a deep breath.

"You're.. okay?" JaeJoong asked

I was surprised at his soft and gentle voice and I looked at him to see him looking at me sorrowful, as if all of this were my fault. I thought he was going to ignore me and yell at me or was he controlling his anger?

I nodded slowly

JaeJoong then faced the press and so did I

"The accident that took place at the restaurant where the model Lee Donghae and I had a fight was something that I truly regret and are sorry for"

"Why did it take place?" Reporter #1 asked

"We had a disagreement" JaeJoong answered

"Why was Miss Yuna Ito there? Was she involved?" Reporter #2 asked

"She was not involved in the fighting" JaeJoong answered

"Please, Reporters, media, press. Do please remember the rules we had set up earlier. Any questions that could interfere with Mr Kim and Miss Ito's private life will be ignored" One of the staff from the Mirotic company said

"Miss Ito, do you know the reason to why Mr Kim and Mr Lee started to fight?" Reporter #3 asked

I looked at JaeJoong who turned to me and nodded in encouragement

"Unfortunately no I do not" I said in the microphone

"Miss Ito, What do you work as in the Mirotic company?" Reporter #5 asked

"I work as Mr.Kim's assistant"

"Personal?" Reporter #5 asked again

I looked at JaeJoong nervously and he nodded

"Yes she works as my personal assistant"

"Are the two of you involved in a romantic relationship?" Reporter #6 asked

"Question declined and will be ignored" The man who was standing right next to JaeJoong answered

"Miss Ito, Are you the reason to why both of them started to fight?"

I swallowed hardly before leaning towards the microphone again

"No, I arrived on the spot when it already broke out" I said

"Is that true Mr.Kim?" Reporter #7 asked

"Yes it is"

"How come Miss Ito was there to drag you away from the spot and why didn't she go with Mr.Lee?" Reporter #8 asked

"Question de..."

"Have you thought anything behind that before asking the question?" JaeJoong said, his voice was piercing ice

The reporter and the others were quiet and the only thing that was heard was the snapping of cameras and the flashes

"What do you mean Sir?" Reporter #8 asked

"A thoughtless question isn't it? She's my assistant and friend. Of course she would drag me away from there" JaeJoong said, raising his eyebrow

The silence took over and I started to flinch because of the cold atmosphere that just had arrived

"Miss Ito, are you a friend of Mr. Lee?" Reporter #8 asked

"Yes I am"

"Why didn't you go with him?" Reporter #8 asked

"He was taken away by other friends and I was closest to JaeJoong so I followed my instincts" I answered

"Don't you feel like you betrayed him?" Reporter #8 asked, somewhat smirking at me

"Question declined, it will be ignored"

I looked at JaeJoong who was looking angrily at the media. Well his expression didn't show anything but I knew more about it than them. He was boiling inside

"Will this affect the company Mr.Kim?"

"Certainly not" JaeJoong said shortly

"How are the relationship between you and Mr.Lee at the moment?"

"He just left the country for a magazine photoshoot. We're on good terms now. Misunderstandings can be cleared up" JaeJoong said

"And the relationship between Mr.Lee and Miss Ito?"

I swallowed hard

"We're on good terms as well"

"Exactly.. on how good terms?" Reporter #8 asked

"Declined, this question will be ignored"

Suddenly the man onto the right of Jae walked around the stage and took the place in front of us

"The pressconference are now officially over, thank you for your interest"

Relief was felt in the entire body as I stood up and realized that I finally would made it out of the room and into the private lounge that the guys were waiting for me

JaeJoong was walking close behind in order to not let anyone through and attack me and when we finally was in the lounge Changmin was the first to embrace me

"Hey hey.. We saw everything. You did great" Changmin encouraged me

"You.. think so?" I stuttered, somewhat shaking

"Yes of course. Better than expected. I'm really proud of you" Changmin smiled

"Who the hell was that reporter?" JaeJoong said loudly, letting out his range

I spun around to look at him staring at everyone

"You didn't see who it was?" Yoochun asked

"No that freaking camera was blocking my view" Jae said

"You didn't see either?" Yunho asked me, I shook my head

"It was YeJin" Junsu said

"That.."

"Hey Hey.. it's over.. don't.. get mad.. she was just trying to complicate things" I said and ran towards Jae and tried to calm him down

He took a deep breath before looking at me

"And why are you here? I made it very clear that I didn't want you here" Jae said, not in a ice cold tone but more like upsetting

"I.. wanted to be there for you"

"and I wanted you to stay home to rest. Is it really that hard for you to listen to me?" Jae asked angrily

"I'm just trying to do what I think is right Jae" I said and looked at him

"Well you're thinking is wrong. Really wrong"

"No it's not" I said softly

JaeJoong looked at me, his facial expression was hard to read

"I didn't betray you or go behind your back. I didn't sneak around in your room trying to find anything. I was looking for you because I missed you. That night I just happened to find the document, sticking out from the sheet under the bed. I was planning on putting it back on the night desk without reading .."

"And then what? You just happened to see my name on it or something?" Jae said furiously

"NO!!!! There was no name on it"

"Yup and you know that because you read it" Jae said angrier

I started to shake out of frustration as I felt my tears burning behind the eye lid

"I SAW THE WORD ALZHEIMERS! THAT'S WHY I READ IT!"

Jae quieten and looked at me

"I didn't see a name.. just the word alzheimers and feelings of fears and anxiety came onto me as I was fearing that it was you who had it" I said and started to cry

I saw JaeJoong soften up and now he was just looking at me

"There was a adress on the paper and I don't know why but I was just afraid that it would be you so I... went to the adress and came to the hospital just to see your mother.. and that was when I found out about her.."

JaeJoong was quietly looking at me

"I've been so afraid, thinking all this time that it might be you and I was so afraid that I would lose you. I didn't go behind your back, I did all of this because I love you Jae. I love you and the document made me worried and I was afraid of telling you since you would probably think that I would be sneaking around which I wasn't and.."

I couldn't bare to say anything else as I felt JaeJoong take me into his arms, embracing me hardly as he was comforting me

"Please.. don't.. cry anymore.."