~JaeJoong~

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I wasn't sure if she was ready for this. Going public means having people interfere with your private life. Would she be okay with that?

No, no one would be. But I swore to myself that I would protect her, do whatever I can to not let people hurt her and of course always take care of her. I knew that the public could be harsh but it felt like it was the right thing to do. I was only a designer, maybe a famous one but that's it. There is nothing more I could do about that. 

I finished the last touch ups before the staff went outside of my bedroom and I looked at myself in the mirror. I didn't look like a designer. I looked different. 

The pale white face along with the marked jawline of mine, was perfect to my hairstyle today. 

The black shiny shoes along with the navy blue dress shirt and my accessories made me look like I was ready to head out for the fashion show. 

I sighed and took a deep breath before taking some cologne and putting on the accessories. When I was finished I grabbed the jacket that was waiting for me on the bed and decided to check up on Yuna. 

I walked down the hallway and stopped right outside her room, knocking lightly before I heard her answer and tell me to come inside. 

As I entered my eyes found her at an instant and immediately my breath was taken away. In the beautiful navy blue dress, long down to the floor that covered her feet along with a long black cardigan. She looked astonishing and it was as if she was going to a fancy party and not to a pressconference and its afterparty

Her hair was wavy and she had light make up with the beautiful silver bracelet I gave her around her wrist. I walked towards her as she smiled

"It's okay?" She asked

"Okay is a very bad way to describe you" I chuckled as I looked at her

"We're late"

"I know.. so after I've said you're the most beautiful girl in the world we will go. You're the most beautiful girl in the world and I'm glad that I have you in my arms. Makes me the luckiest guy ever" I chuckled

A quick kiss was planted and then I took her hand and outside the room and down the hallway. We stopped in front of the entrance to check up on the clothes one more time and suddenly unknowingly I heard pictures being taken

"How compatible you look" Junsu laughed

"Where's the schedule?" I asked

"Right here" Yoochun said

I read the schedule quickly and nodded

"You look wonderful Yuna" Yunho complimented

She smiled happily

"Thank you. You guys don't look so bad yourself"

"We're models and works at Mirotic. We can't look shabby" Changmin laughed

A few more pictures was being taken and I walked over to Yuna to fix her hair and the embarrassing and immediate shyness appeared and I chuckled as I heard a photo being snapped again

"Enough with the photos. Let's go" I laughed

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We arrived at the banquet hall and went through the back door in order to go to our waiting room. We took off our coats and jackets, grabbed our folders and took a deep breath, waiting for the staff to signal that it was time to go outside and do the pressconference

"You're nervous?" I asked and looked at Yuna

"Not really.. I was taught by the best" She smiled

"It's gonna be great"

The signal finally came and we all hugged each other before going outside. The moment we all stepped into the pressconference room, we could hear people scream, paparazzis snapping photos. We stopped by the big board to take a few pictures before going up onto the actual stage, waiting a little bit for more photos to be taken and then sat down. 

"We can now start the questions" The staff said out loudly

"Mr Kim! What do you think so far of your success in the business?" 

I smiled 

"I do not consider myself at the top yet so please ask me again in a few years time" I laughed which caused the audience to laugh as well

"Mr Kim, what can you say about the upcoming magazine that is being released next week?"

"It contains the spring collection of 2012. Please look forward to the dresses we've created and as well as the jackets along with the beautiful structure of the details on each clothing" I said

"Which collection of all the designs that you have designed so far do you consider as the most successful?"

I chuckled a bit and looked at the guys

"I think we all agree on this one. It was definitely when Yuna was the last model on the fashion show" Yoochun said

"Miss Ito, do you regret walking for Mirotic?" 

Laughter burst out immediately and Yuna scratched the back of her head

"I do not regret it. I had stage fright to tell you the truth. But I'm lucky and I was able to experience a lot of things because of that fashion show. These guys are amazing and incredible with their work" She said

"Miss Ito, among the guys who do you consider the most attractive one?"

The question caught us all off guard and we started to laugh insanely

"You see it too don't you? All of them are very attractive" She kept laughing

"Are you considering to expand mirotic in different areas and open a few stores perhaps in different parts of the world?"

"It is being taken into consideration but nothing has been confirmed yet. We do like how we work at the moment at the main office but we do not want to get too comfortable. We are always looking for new goals in order to grow as a company and designers" Junsu responded

"Do you consider anyone has a very dangerous rival?"

"My partner right here, Yoochun" I joked

The audience laughed once more and so did we

"The upcoming spring collection, will there be a specific magazine for that as well as a fashion show?"

"We are at the moment going through our schedules and the future plans. Nothing has been confirmed yet" Yunho said

"Would Mirotic participate in a charity fashion show if you were to be asked?" 

"We would be delighted to design clothes to help people in need" I responded

Questions about the upcoming clothing lines, possible co operations with other fashion companies and future plans for Mirotic was being asked and as the time went by, I knew that the questions about my big news were going to be revealed soon. Yuna was quietly observing, smiling at the cameras but with her hands under the table, I saw she was twisting in agony and nervosity

"It was announced that Mr Kim had news to share?" 

I looked at the guys and last but not least Yuna who was nervously playing with her fingers. I nodded in agreement along to the question and stood up as I grabbed the microphone

"I'm also here today.. to announce that I .. am in a relationship"

I heard the audience taking deep breaths as if the time just stopped. More photos started to be snapped and I smiled calmly at the cameras

"WHO IS IT SIR?"

"WHO'S THE LUCKY GIRL?!"

"IS IT A MODEL?!"

"IS SHE IN THE SAME INDUSTRY?!"

Hundreds of questions were thrown at me at once and I started to find it amusing instead of annoying as I used to feel. The staff had to calm the paparazzis down and when that was settled I raised the mic to my mouth again

"Let me introduce my girlfriend... Yuna Ito" I smiled and stretched out my hand to Yuna who looked up at me 

She was nervous, deadly nervous and she hesitated for a bit. I nodded happily at her, smiling and encouraging her to take my hand and after awhile she did. She stood up and I put my arm around her waist and smiled at her happily. I thought this was going to be difficult but it turned out to be relieving and less burdens to bear

The guys started to applaud and soon the audience joined in

"HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN DATING?!"

"HOW DID YOU MEET?!"

"MISS ITO HOW DOES IT FEEL TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH MR KIM?!"

Hundreds of questions were thrown at us but I gestured that it was enough and we closed the conference by bowing, letting them scream their questions at us as we smiled back at them. I took a hold of Yuna and was making sure that she was always right next to me and when we got out of there and into the waiting room she collapsed on the chair and let out a deep breath

"Wow they are like sharks attacking small fishess" She said

"Yup. Crazy" Changmin chuckled

"So now after party?" Yoochun said

I shrugged

"It's more like a small gathering with the people in the industry. All we have to do is to say hi and greet everyone. I have to get back to the office though to pick something up. You'll be okay?" I asked and turned to Yuna

She nodded 

"I'll be okay. Hurry back alright?"

I gave her a kiss on the cheek and made sure that the guys wouldn't leave her all by herself until I got back and they swore an oath to protect her even if their lives depended on it. Satisfied with that I left the waiting room and took the car back to the office to go through the mails quickly and check up on the staff before heading back to the party

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~Yuna~

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"Yuna~ You are really as lovely as people say. Incredibly beautiful I must say and this dress... Oh what an amazing designer JaeJoong is"

I smiled awkwardly at the huge woman in front of me with hundreds of jewelries and nodded happily at her

I don't know how many people I've said hi to tonight and I don't know how many circles I've been walking around in this hall listening to the piano along with the violin playing to entertain the people

I followed Changmin as I was armlinking with him, listening to him talk to other important people in the fashion industry, complimenting and mingling around and even though my body was here and following Changmin, my mind was somewhere else. It felt like it has been forever ever since JaeJoong left and I started to wonder if he was stuck back at the office due to complications or more work that was loaded onto his desk

I excused myself from the company that we were in and walked over to Yoochun and Junsu who was attacking the table of food.

"Isn't Jae suppose to be back now?" I asked

"fhdkdjfnwharet?" Junsu asked

"Swallow!" I laughed

He swallowed and took a deep breath

"What was that?" 

"Isn't Jae suppose to be back now, he's been gone for almost 2 hours" I said worriedly

"I'm sure it's because of all the small things at work. He'll be here soon. After all it's our party" Yoochun said

"Can I at least borrow your phone and call him just to make sure he is okay?" I asked

Yoochun nodded and handed his cellphone and I walked away from the party, outside to the balcony and dialed JaeJoong's number

I waited .. 1 signal.. 2... 3... 4.. and then the line died

Either something was wrong with Yoochun's phone or it was something wrong with JaeJoong's. Either way, something inside of me was telling me that something was seriously wrong. 

I dialed JaeJoong's number again and again but to no luck. He didn't pick up. I walked inside again and found all the guys gathered as they were enjoying themselves. Yunho saw me as I ran towards them and I guess he could read me by the look on my face

"Yuna, is something wrong?" He asked as he came towards me

"I can't get a hold of JaeJoong. I'm really worried" I said, feeling that I was at the verge of panicking

"He doesn't pick up at all? That's not like JaeJoong" Junsu said

"Can't you just lend me your car keys and I'll go to the office? You guys stay here and I'll call if something is wrong" I said wanting to get away immediately

"Here take mine" Changmin said

I didn't care about a jacket or the cardigan and returned the phone to Yoochun and took the carguys as I tried to look a little more glamorous as I walked out of the hall and took the elevator to the right floor to get to the cars. As I spotted Changmin's car I ran towards it, holding up the dress and not caring about the goosebumps because of the chilly wind that it made me feel. I wanted to see JaeJoong

I got into the sportscar and hurriedly drove out from the parking lot and out on the highway. For some reason my eyes kept looking at the watch and as it was ticking, I felt more and more anxious the closer I got to the Mirotic building but as soon as I saw the sign and the high building, some relief was washed over me. I drove down to the basement and parked the car rapidly and ran to the elevator as I tried to control my breathing. 

The elevator seemed to take forever in order to get up onto our floor and when I finally heard the bells ring I let out a sigh of relief. The entire floor was dark but then a stream a light from JaeJoong's office was spotted as I got out of the elevator. I ran in the high heels, holdin gup  the dress while the long hair was flowing in sync with the wind I was able to create while half running towards the door

"Jae?" I asked out loudly and entered the room

I saw him standing by the open fire in his office, holding a paper and his head was hanging heavily as he was holding something

"Jae? Are you okay?" I asked and walked closer

He seemed to react now and spun around slowly as I saw him slowly raising his head, looking at me

His eyes were swollen, his face blank and pale as a ghost

He wasn't making any sounds not even shivering or shaking but it was clearly that a few tears had been shed

A stab in my heart was felt as I dropped the keys to the floor. It seemed like it took the keys forever to hit the floor, it felt like time had stopped and I wasn't able to remember how you were suppose to breathe in order to give your body what it needed. The knife kept stabbing my heart as I felt each cut digging deeper, breaking every piece of the heart, shattering it until there was nothing left..

I covered my mouth as we looked into each other's eyes. He didn't need to say it out loud. I already knew

"No..."