~Yuna~

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I was nervous, I was frightened.. and yet excited

As I was sitting on the couch, with JaeJoong's arms around me, me leaning onto his chest while his lips were brushing my forehead, it was dead silent with none of speaking, not knowing what to say right now

"You're thinking a lot.. Tell me what" JaeJoong whispered as he took a hold of me, pulling me closer

"I'm... overwhelmed" I whispered and looked up at him

He chuckled and smiled at me

"About what?"

I repositioned myself and looked at the open fire-place again.

"For so long, I've been wanting to kiss you, wanting to tell you how I feel, and yet I couldn't do anything of that because of the fear of might scaring you or being rejected"

"How strange cause that is exactly how I feel" He chuckled again

I started to chuckle as well

"And now.. we're here, sitting right next to each other and holding each other close like these fears and the feelings of being scared, of being rejected, as if they never existed. Isn't it weird?" I asked

"Not really.. "

I rolled my eyes

The silence took over once again and he soon tucked me in with a blanket that was right next to us, probably thinking that I was freezing. He started to caress and my arm playfully as I soon noticed our breathings were in sync

"There is something I need to ask of you" He said, suddenly sounding serious

He straightened himself up, which caused me to sit up as well and soon enough we twisted around in the couch and he looked at me.

"I don't know.. if you know.. or if he has told you anything yet..." He started

"He? Who's he?"

"Donghae"

"What's wrong with Donghae?" I asked, curiously

He sighed

"Donghae.. has feelings for you Yuna"

I froze right on spot

"Mwoh?"

"Donghae... has feelings for you. As in, not friend-like, love-like"

I stopped breathing, I stopped thinking. What in the world is he talking about?"

"What are you trying to say?"

"I want to know.. if you.. know this. Do you know, has Donghae confessed to you about his feelings for you?"

I shook my head

"We're friends"

"In your opinion. But not in his. Haven't you noticed it? The interactions, the intimate hugs, him kissing you?"

As JaeJoong pointed all those things out, flashbacks were formed inside of my head but I couldn't really recall that Donghae was being intimate with me. We... are friends. We have been friends ever since Childhood. Isn't it natural for us to joke around like that?

"No" I replied

JaeJoong was taken by surprise, To judge by the expression that appeared on his face. I think jealousy was forming

"It's obvious Yuna. How can I see it but not you?" He asked

"Donghae doesn't have feelings for me. He loves me since he sees me as a sister. Never has he done anything to make me feel uncomfortable and he's always taking care of me. He's not that kind of guy. Having feelings for me would ruin our friendship. It would make us impossible to be friends" I protested

"How can you not see it? It's written allover his face! The way he acts around you, speaking around you. Everything that he does is out of feelings, he loves you. Not as a sister but more than that!" JaeJoong said frustrated

Tears had unconsciously started to form and they were already running. What JaeJoong was saying couldn't and will not happen. It wasn't true. Donghae would never do that to me. He knows that I value him a lot and he would never break or tear our friendship. We made it clear, a long time ago that love would only destroy our friendship if we ever developed feelings for one or another.

"You're lying" I said

"I'M NOT LYING!" JaeJoong shouted frustrated and got up

"YOU ARE LYING! DONGHAE'S NOT LIKE THAT! HE WOULD NEVER RUIN OUR FRIENDSHIP!"

"You're soo naive Yuna. You have to open your eyes!!! The way he acts, speaks and IS around you, it's completely more than just friendship behind!!" JaeJoong said, talking back at me

I shook my head angrily

"NO ! WE ARE FRIENDS! THERE HAS NEVER BEEN MORE THAN THAT! WE PROMISED EACH OTHER A LONG TIME AGO!" I shouted

JaeJoong stared at me, then letting out a sigh as I kept on crying

"That promise belongs to the past" He said

"DO NOT SAY THAT! Once a promise, always a promise"

JaeJoong shook his head, as if he was getting annoyed with my stubborness

"How do you know, how can you be so sure about him remembering it?"

That felt like a knife, stabbing my heart, ripping it..

"What did you... say?" I asked, barely audible as I stared at him disbelievingly

"How can you know.. how can you be so sure that he remembers it.. and didn't break the promise?" JaeJoong repeated

"You're lying"

"I'm pretty sure that I'm right" JaeJoong said, his eyes suddenly turning black

I recognized this expression. In this kind of state, he was a cold guy, a heartless one. The boss that I once knew and remembered when I first stepped my foot into the Mirotic Office

"I'm sure that he would never break our promise like that"

JaeJoong sighed once again, this time more annoyed than before

"WHAT IS YOUR POINT WITH ALL THESE QUESTIONS ABOUT DONGHAE ANYWAY?!" I shouted frustrated, getting more and more upset for not understanding him

"There cannot be 'Us' if you don't make it clear to Donghae that we're a couple now" JaeJoong said, his voice suddenly turning soft

I sobbed, crying even more.

"Are you forcing me to choose between friendship or love?"

He immediately shook his head as he approached me and put both of his hands on my shoulders. I shook it off immediately, never wanting to believe that JaeJoong would put me in this kind of situation

"No! No! Yuna... I.."

"NO! YOU MADE IT VERY CLEAR! THERE CANNOT BE NO US IF I DON'T TELL DONGHAE THAT WE'RE A COUPLE?! HOW CAN YOU SAY THAT?! HE WOULD BE HAPPY FOR US! YOU MAKE IT SOUND LIKE HE WOULD DO ANYTHING TO BREAK US APART!" I shouted

"Are you sure about that?" He asked, looking straight into my eyes

I felt myself starting to doubt, as if I was holding onto a thread that would save me from falling. Why was he pushing me like this?"

"I am sure. I know Donghae. He would be happy for me!" I said, still stubborn

JaeJoong shook his head

"I'm not saying that you should give up your friendship with Donghae, but to make it clear for him that you have feelings for me, that you like me and that you want to be with me and not him"

"What exactly do you want me to say?" I asked halfheartedly

he sighed

"Donghae has feelings for you. Make it clear for him that he should not in and destroy our relationship, if he really cares about you"

"Donghae does not have feelings for me!" I protested

JaeJoong gave up. He spun around and started to walk away from me. I watched him, his back facing me as he was walking. He didn't even once turn around. But then he stopped before getting outside of the livingroom

"Then do this at least and then you can figure out what to do next. Confront him. Confront him and ask him if he has feelings for you" JaeJoong said, even more softer than earlier, making me want all of this to end, this unneccessary fight of ours.

"JaeJoong.. He doesn't.."

"Yuna, that's the least you can do. Confront him. Until then, I'll leave you alone and I will give you time to think it all through.."

With that, not even once turning around or looking at me, not even when he spoke, he left the room and closed the door behind him, leaving me all by myself...

With the fire that was still sparkling angrily...