~Yuna~

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I stared at him as he watched me happily, the morning hair making him look a little more charming and y somehow. I swallowed hard

"Move in..?" I asked

"It's not really a big deal.. cause you've been living here for almost a month because of the accident of yours and everything that has been going on lately. All we need to do is to sell that apartment of yours and get your stuff over here" he said as he sat up slowly

"Jae.. I don't know.." I said confused

"What is it that you don't know?"

"I don't know.. I mean the space are good for us you know? Your own time to do things you want to.."

"You're scared of me taking too much of your time?" He asked

I shook my head

"No I barely did anything before I met you. It's just that.. there is still so much things to adapt ourselves to. I love our relationship and being around you is fantastic Jae but doesn't it feel a bit too early?"

He shook  his head as he took both of my hands in his

"I'm asking you cause I want to. I want you near me all the time. If you need your own personal space, you will be able to have it here as well. I don't think we're processing too fast. And it's not that I want to rush our relationship. I just want to do the things that I feel that I want to do right now. Seize the day.. and no regrets you know?"

I nodded

"You're the first person ever to enter my life except for the guys and the way you've opened me up, all these years of burdens that I've carried everywhere with me are now gone. Just that make me realize how lucky I am. We had our struggles but we survived through it all didn't we?"

I nodded

"I would love to move in with you Jae. I think it would be fantastic" I said

"But?"

"But... I don't know. Is it really the right time for this?" I asked

"You've already lived here with me for a few weeks now. It won't feel so much different when you do actually move in here" He smiled

He was right on that point. He was in love as much as I was. I was just too scared that we were going to take each other for granted, be too obessive with each other or even worse, won't be able to be without each other

"What's wrong?" He asked again

"We won't take each other for granted right? Relying on each other too much, expecting... too much. Or even go to the point where we won't be able to survive without each other" I whispered

He caressed my cheek lovingly and I felt my body tremble due to his touch

"I won't be able to take you for granted Yuna. I've been through so much pain that I appreciate every moment I get to spend with you. Relying on each other, couples are suppose to do that. Be there for each other whenever needed.. and I know that I'm not able to be without you"

I stared at him

"I am in love with you and I want you to be here with me. If we were to separate that empty side of my that used to exist would come forward again, just that it would be bigger I think" He said

I kept looking at him

"You've made me feel so many things that I never thought I could ever feel. And I don't ever want to let that go. You're important to me and the impact you've made in my life is lifechanging. I feel happier now. Joy filled in every corner of my body" He said

I smiled at him as he smiled back at me

"Yuna.. I really don't know what is going to happen in the future but taking you for granted won't happen" 

Silence filled the room and we were quietly looking at each other, holding each other's hands as I tried to think about everything. He was right. And I knew what I wanted and what I was feeling. Why should I stop myself because of all these fears? Chances needs to be taken in order to create superb and fantastic things. If I didn't do this, who knew what great things would happen?

"Can I negotiate?"

He raised his eyebrow and chuckled

"About what?"

I sighed

"I know.. JaeJoong  you've been through a lot. But.. although she caused you pain and abandoned you.. She's still your mother"

I felt him freeze on spot and swallowed hard

"You want me to meet her" He stated

"It's for your own sake"

"How is it for my own sake?" He asked, not angry, not upset or frustrated. He just wanted to hear the reasons

"No matter how many mistakes she committed in the past, all the pain and struggle she had put you through, she is still your mother. She gave you life Jae, she had you for several months and then gave birth to you. She turned her back on you but it doesn't mean that you need to do it against her" I said

He nodded

"I know"  It sounded like he was just defeated in a game, just that it was more serious

"The way I see it, you paying everything for her medication and bills, you still have a place for her. Just that it is buried somewhere deep down. Jae... once she passes away she won't ever be here again"

"She doesn't even remember me" He said 

"But you remember her"

"I might forget her too Yuna" He whispered and looked at me

It felt like a knife was stabbed through my heart as I heard the possibility of him having that sickness as well. I quickly shook it off in order to not let it go to me. He's healthy and he would always be

"But the bond is there. Just don't let her go without saying goodbye or spending her last minutes with her" I mumbled

JaeJoong sighed the heaviest sigh I've ever heard from me as he pulled his fingers through his hair. I watched him quietly

"I will meet her Yuna. I just can't promise when. I need time to prepare..." He said and looked at me

I smiled hopefully and happily at him and nodded

"It's your choice to make. I just wanted to make it clear for you that the possibility is there. Living with regrets is not something I want you to live with for the rest of your life. I won't force you into it. Just think about it okay? If you want me to come with you, I will" I said

He leaned forward and kissed my cheek and smiled

"I love you"

I smiled happily as I hugged him 

"I love you too"

We fell down back on the bed and hugged each other closely as we lied there in silence, listening to our own breathings and the heartbeats of ours

"Resting before getting ready?" I asked

"Sounds good to me"

"What time is it?"

"Noon" He said

"3 hours" I said

"Sounds like 3 minutes" He said

"Better than nothing"