~JaeJoong~

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I stopped at the entrance of the livingroom, scanning and looking around in my beautiful livingroom as I tried to push away the negative thoughts. 

How many times hadn't I spent my time in here and have never taken the time to actually think, take a deep breath and take it all in?

I entered the livingroom and stopped by the piano as I smiled at it. The soft and beautiful tunes that filled my ears everytime my fingers danced along the keys. The soothing and the calm feeling that overwhelmed me everytime I was able to sit back and enjoy the music. I lifted my hand slightly off the piano as I looked at the couch and my memory was instantly triggered with heartfelt memories. Me And Yuna sleeping here, talking, opening ourselves up and our kiss. 

I walked over to the couch and sat down as I looked around. I wouldn't be able to remember this would I?

I laughed quietly to myself as I smiled. I wouldn't remember but I remembered now. How come I never knew how precious memories are to us? What they mean to us? The nostalgic feelings we get when we think about it? 

We remember a lot of things, bad, sad and hurtful ones. But also happy, heartfelt and warm ones. No matter what those memories has in store, we somehow remember it cause it triggers the feelings that we once felt then. The strongest feelings that was felt then. Like when you have your first kiss, your own lips dancing across hers, the warmth and the breath that you were able to feel. The nervousness and the seconds before the lips met. 

And then we have sadness. The feeling you get when you know that you have no one to rely on and no matter how much you long for it, it just can't be there. It can't be found and you're own your own. Or the hurtful words someone once said that affected you crazily that it felt like a knife was cutting your chest open in order to take the heart out

I stared blankly ahead. Those memories of being hurt and sadness. Even though I were to lose my memory I still wouldn't want to forget them. They made me strong. They formed me and this is me now. It's a part of me. 

I stood up and put my hands inside my pockets as I heard someone coming closer to the livingroom. 

"Sir, Yuna finished showering and is in her room. I thought you'd like to know" The butler said

"Thank you"

He left quietly and after awhile I left the livingroom as well and walked slowly upstairs as Yuna filled my thoughts

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~Yuna~

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The weird emptiness was there. The weird feelings of not knowing what to do or what to say was also there. How do you keep on going, live normally, pretending to not feel, to not know?

I had been asking myself these questions but there was no answer to be found. When I had stepped outside the office this morning I knew JaeJoong had spoken to the guys and yet there was still a smile on his face. If it was fake or not, I had no idea but no matter what, I believed that deep within it was certainly a forced one. But for what good would it be if he forced it? He needed to let his feelings out..

Maybe he did that already but yet there are so many things to come

Totally spacing out and running around in my own thoughts I didn't feel the soft hands that was brushing my long hair until a kiss was planted on my neck and I looked up to see JaeJoong

"Hey there.."

"Hi" I said and looked at him at the mirror as he gave a brief smile

"You're okay?" He asked

I smiled

"I should be asking you that" I mumbled and turned around

He bended down as I still sitting on my chair and looking at him, him grabbing both of my hands and smiling at me. For some reason the forced smile wasn't there. Is this really a sincere one that I was seeing?

"I'm okay. And... I'm not sad. I can't waste my time on being sad. And I think you should do the same"

I swallowed

"I know. I'm making it worse aren't I?" I said with guilt

He chuckled briefly

"Not really. You're showing that you care and I'm thankful for that" He said

"Where do we go from here?" I asked

It should be the opposite. I should be the one. Him leaning onto me, relying on me. Me giving him strength. I wasn't the sick one. He was. But for some reason he just seemed to be more experienced and was just into this thinking about having determination and make something out of nothing. How was that possible?

"We take one day at the time, blissfully spending it while reminding ourselves to take everyday as if it was our last" He whispered

I swallowed hard once more

"Do you have to go back to work to finish the magazine?" I asked

He chuckled

"It's finished and sent. It's being published at the moment and the guys took the day off since the magazine is finished. I have a photoshoot tomorrow and a conference and a meeting. So I'm free today" He smiled

"So you're all mine?" I asked and leaned forward

"I always am. But you have all of my time today" He chuckled

"what's on the schedule?" I asked

"First.. lunch and then homespa" He smiled

As he said that the lunch came rolling in, smelling absolutely lovely and he took a hold of my hand as we walked over to the small table with two seats as the lunch were being prepared. When it was finished the butler left and I looked at the food that was smelling lovely and filling the entire room with its wonderful scent

"Lunch and then a walk around the house maybe and then homespa. It sounds pretty good right?" He asked

"Sounds lovely" I smiled

JaeJoong nodded

"And also.. Yuna"

"Yes?"

"I will have your things moved over to my place by today or tomorrow. Is that okay for you?" He asked

I nodded

"Maybe I should go and check it out?"

He shook his head

"The staff consists of girls only and they are packing it neatly and cleaning the apartment afterwards" He said

I nodded

"Sounds wonderful"

"And one more thing..."

"Hm?"

"How about you move into my bedroom instead?"

I froze right on spot as I stared at him which caused him to burst out into laughter

"Are you serious?"

"Why? You want me to move into this room? It's kinda small" He said and looked around

I blushed immediately and felt that everything was crazily hot at the moment. I then heard him chuckle and I instantly knew that he was doing it on purpose

"I'm not kidding but I love the color on your cheeks at the moment" 

He got out of his chair and walked over and hugged me from behind as a peck was planted on my cheek

"Don't over think it. I just want you by my side, being able to fall asleep right next to you. The first thing I see when I wake up is you and the last thing I see is you before I drift off to sleep. Or you sleeping in my arms. I can't ask for more"

I turned my head slightly and smiled at him, feeling every part of my body wanting to throw myself at him and tell him that we would do that forever

"So you're not a ert?"

"I can if you want"

I glared at him as he laughed

"Yuna... I would never force you into anything that you wouldn't feel comfortable with. I haven't so far have I?" He asked, a serious look on his face

I looked at him too

"I love you"

He smiled at me and leaned in to steal a kiss that I was more than gladly to let him steal