~JaeJoong~

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Someone was shaking me lightly, as if that someone was scared to speak or to even make noise. Had I slept at all? I don't know cause I was still tired in both mind and body. I opened my eyes slowly to see Changmin and Yunho standing right next to the couch and hushed me as Yuna were sleeping quietly in my arms. I looked around and instantly remembered yesterday's incident. I swallowed hard

Carefully I managed to slip myself out of the couch and tuck Yuna in as she kept on sleeping. She must have been exhausted after yesterday. I stepped outside with the guys and closed the door to the office as all of them were waiting by Yuna's desk

It was very clear that they knew what had happened and there were no words that were able to speak for the feelings or come near to describe what we were feeling or what the feelings were doing to the atmosphere. I sighed and looked at them

"Yuna.. told you didn't she?" I mumbled

"Yes she did" Yoochun answered since no one else did

I nodded

"How long?" Changmin asked

I shrugged and leaned against Yuna's desk

"The letter that the doctor sent me with the results said approximately a year. Maybe more. Maybe less. It depends I guess. I'm going in for more exams and then medicine will be prescripted and an examinaten every 3 months" I said

The guys nodded

"How you holding up?" Yunho asked

This wasd the question they wanted to know but had no idea how they were suppose to ask it. Either way I knew that they knew that I was feeling horrible. But you needed to ask this kind of question for some reason. It's as if its requried in situations like this

"I'm thinking alot. Worrying a lot. I'm at a dead end" I mumbled

"And Yuna?" Yoochun asked

"We cried yesterday. Both of us. She tried to comfort me but we both knew what we were feeling but it was as if those words were needed to be said in order to let us have some hope" I said

Yoochun sighed

"There's nothing we can do" Junsu said

"There is.." I said

The guys looked at me as I straightened myself up

"I'm going to go home and take a shower and bring Yuna with me. We'll finish the magazine today so it can be released on Friday and I want to finish the summer collection by the end of this month. A fashion show and then we'll take it step by step. I want to finish the projects we have now so that I can slowly make up a plan for future activities" I said

The guys nodded

"And then?" Yunho asked

"I'm gonna educate Yuna so that she can start on the department of accessories" I said

"Are you sure you wanna do this? Wouldn't you rather spend time with her and your family... us instead and just take a hiatus?" Junsu asked

"I can work and spend time with you at the same time. I've invested my entire life in this and I'm just not gonna let it fade. I want it to keep going even though when I can't even remember it anymore. I'm gonna... have a testament created. The last will" I whispered

I heard the guys gasping

"It's not really a surprise.. I want Mirotic to always go on and create the things I want it too. I have dreams and goals to fulfill with this company and now with Yuna here and us 6 as a team, We'll be invincible" I said

"Are you sure about this?" Yunho asked

"This is my first step to assure the future of Mirotic. I know it'll be in good hands" I smiled and tapped Yunho on the shoulder

"You shouldn't work as much as you are doing at the moment though" Changmin said

"I'm not. I'm gonna cut down the projects a bit and live my life. But I will not go out with it in the press yet. It's gonna be a scandal" I said

The guys nodded in agreement

"And Yuna?" Yoochun asked

"I'm gonna... cherish her.. and create beautiful memories for as long as I can remember. And hope that she will be able to remind and remember for me later on" I said

All of the guys nodded

"Guys I appreciate everything you've done for me. Everything we've been through. Everything that we have created, all the effort and the hard work you have put it to get Mirotic to the place it is at today" I said

"No farewell speeches Jae" Changmin said

"It's not a farewell speech. I just need to thank you. We're close and you know that I'm always greatful cause we're an wonderful team but it's different when you hear it" I said

All of them nodded

"Let's just continue with that" Yunho smiled as we gave each other a group hug, laughing and smiling. Being thankful towards one another

We pulled away and I let out a sigh

"There is something I need to ask of you. I don't want you to treat me differently because of this" I said

They looked at me

"If I forget anything, remind me. Don't treat me like I can't handle all the pressure, the stress and the work just because I have this illness. I will take it easy but don't treat me any differently. It's just gonna make it more obvious than it is. With us knowing that already I just feel that..."

"It's okay Jae. We understand" Junsu said

I nodded

"Thanks gus" I smiled

Suddenly the door to the office was opened and all of us turned to see Yuna looking at us curiosly. She was a bit dazed but the tiredness as well as the swollen eyes were a sign from yesterdays exhaustion of talk. I reached out my hand to her and smiled

"Let's go home"