~Yuna~

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I scanned through the applications once more, wondering if this really was a good to hire these people or if I should change them. JaeJoong did mention though that the staff needs to go through a training programme and if I wanted someone from his department from below which is where I used to work before I got up on this floor, I could let them switch departments.

But I was unsure, not to mention terrified to death that I might screw this up. But Jaejoong assured me that he would help me and all the guys would be there as well since everything goes hand in hand. We need to cooperate cause after all, the accessories are going to be used in fashion shows and photoshoots. He was going to let me freely sketch and design new handbags and jewelry and together we would make it work.

I did feel the tiny happiness in the stomach and the chest of being able to work with Jae so close. Before it was always a door that separated us but as I thought about it, the more JaeJoong started to open himself up, the more I was able to get to know him. I stared into the empty space as I kept thinking.

I was somehow determined deep inside, wanting to see his mother. I didn't want him to regret for not meeting her if she passes away and even though she can't remember him, whatever she felt for him then and what he felt for her, there must be something there.. the tiny feeling of affection or just the bond that the mother and the child has

Living in regrets is not something you choose freely and if I was able to change that, why wouldn't I be able to do it for him then? Even after everything he has been through, losing his mother, his mother abandoning him, jus tthe sign of him paying for the bills, that gesture and action showed me that there is something there just that it is deeply, deeply buried. 

Will I be able to dig it out and let it come to the surface? Would he accept it? 

It would of course be hard at first but life isn't easy and when it comes to family, no, it will never be easy

"The earth calls to Yuna Ito"

"Yuna!"

I blinked a few times before seeing Yunho and Junsu in front of me, looking a bit worried

"You're okay?" Yunho asked

I nodded slowly

"You seem to be thinking way too much" Junsu said

I stood up from the desk of mine and rounded the desk as Yunho was halfsitting, leaning against the desk, Junsu standing not too far away from him

"Is JaeJoong really that stubborn that he can't let go of the pain that used to make him suffer just to see his mother?" I asked

"Why are you bringing this up?" Yunho asked and walked over to me

"She's dying Yunho. She has alzheimers. Who knows how long she has left.. I know he hates her for abandoning him and for not being there for him but it doesn't mean he has to do it against her too. He's way better than that and also, if she passes away what if the feelings of guilt would fill him? He would never be able to escape that and regretting that for the rest of his life, who would freely and willingly choose a life like that?" I asked

"It's not really your choice to make. He has the opportunity and he knows it is there" Yunho said

"That's right. I agree with Hyung. Besides, that pain gave him too many painful memories and formed him to the person he is today. He can't just snap out of it that easily" Junsu said

"I know and his stubborness and the walls he has around it is so high. There must be a way to bring it down"

"Don't do it for him. He needs to do it himself" Yunho said

"I just don't want to see him regret it later on, that's all"

"He might, he might not. As I said it's his choice. Just don't take it away from him. Maybe you can bring it up, tell him what you think but you have to be prepared that he will turn it down" Yunho said

"Is it that hard to let go of the past?" I asked sadly

"You must really care about him.." Junsu whispered surprisingly

"I love him and seeing him happy is truly the most important thing to me. Every human comes with flaws and struggles. By loving that person you take it all not just the good sides and the good things. You take all of it, embrace it and help them pull through it" I mumbled

"The best thing you can do is to try to talk to him but don't force him or persuade him. Give him the chance to choose. He's old enough to make his own choices in life and he knows that with every choice comes a consequence. It might be bad.. it might be good. Don't ever expect" Yunho said

I nodded

"I guess"

"Now the new CEO of the accessory department.. How about we sit down in the meeting room and discuss your future as the new Wifey Ceo?" Junsu smiled

"I'm not the WIFE and certainly not the CEO" I said shockingly

"Look we needed to come up with a nickname for the female head of that department so I thought it would be good with Wifey" Junsu chuckled

"We're not even married or even dating in public"

"That just might change!!"

JaeJoong entered from the elevator and smiled happily as he was holding a black folder in his hands

"What do you mean by might change?" I asked

"I think we should go public" JaeJoong smiled

"WHAT!!! No WAY! It's like asking for my head on a silver plate!"

"Not if you have body guards with you!" JaeJoong smiled happily

"He's right... You need to go out with it sooner or later.. Can't just date inside the office. You'll make me and the rest of the guys jealous" Yunho sighed as if he was in pain

I glared at them 

"You spoke to them about everything behind my back?" I asked and looked at JaeJoong

"Not really.. I mentioned it" JaeJoong said innocently

I glared at him angrier

"Okay I told them my plans and all of them thought it would be a good idea. Especially about you as the CEO at the accessory department. I'll be in charge of the clothes, my girlfriend of the accessories. Dating in public means showing the world you're mine and by marking you as mine, no one would dare to lay a finger on you" JaeJoong chuckled

"I think we should leave. They might get into a argument" I heard Junsu whisper behind me

He and Yunho then started to laugh and soon left and then there was just me and JaeJoong

"I'm already yours. And you know it. Isn't that enough?"

JaeJoong walked over to me

"First of all... we had troubles with donghae.. Way too much. I've been thinking abou that .. and I don't really like guys coming up and confessing to you. It is a bit of burden isn't it?" He asked

I nodded slowly

"Donghae was different.. He was my closest friend" I whispered a bit sadly as I recalled the memories of me and Donghae

"I just think it's better this way"

"And your fans? It's gonna be a huge gossip and news for all the tabloids" I said and looked at him

"I'm free to do whatever I want. Work is work.. and private life is private life..It's not like my company is gonna be ruined because I'm dating you"

"You're sure about that?" I asked

"One thing you've taught me Yuna is that... these opportunities happens rarely in life. I'm not gonna let it pass because of my greed of working to get to the top. I'm sure I'll be able to achieve it and with you by my side, I won't regret it" He smiled

He planted a  kiss on my forehead and took my hand

"Living each day to the fullest, that's my priority at the moment"