Lay POV

I stood there, bewildered, puzzled

She what?

I sat on the bench again and put my head between my hands. i didn't know what exactly was happening right now.

Why does she has to leave? Why do I have to leave? Why can't we just stay together... and live a peaceful life, or at least a normal life

I went back to her room to say i was going home and the guys were cleaning her room. Chanyeol and Kai were removing the big sign reading "HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY" and i sighed

Right... happy birthday...

Sehun, Tao, D.O, Chen and Baekhyun were busy cleaning the floor because there was a lot of cake, Luhan, Xiu Min and Suho were throwing the empty bottles of juices to the trash can, and Kris was on the phone. they didn't even noticed me and continued what they were doing until Sehun finally saw me

"oh hyung! where did you go? and where's chanjae?" he asked and everyone turned their head to me, waiting for an answer

"i don't know, i just went to the restroom" i lied and Chanjae entered the room

"Yah, where did you go!? we partied your birthday without you" Chanyeol said

"I just went to the restroom for a while" she whispered and started to pack her stuff to go home

"So you mean you two went to the restrooms... together?!" Baekhyun asked in disbelief and earned a flick on the back of his head by Kris

"pabo, don't say such thing..."

"you two ... quarrel?" Suho asked, seeing we didn't even glanced at each other. none of us answered him

"we should go" Kris said and pushed everyone out of the room, i was so thankful at that time

when they were all outside, i started.

"What do you mean you're going to the USA? why all of a sudden?"

"Because. just because"

"that's not an answer"

"because i'll go to NY university"

"but, isn't your university here? you already have your schedule too"

"..."

"why do you really want to go there?"

she didn't replied so i sat on the bed, next to her, but she stood up

Okay...?

"i just need to go there... for a while. i need to clean my mind, and also change. i need to change. i don't want to always be a burden to everyone, to worry everyone, to-"

"what are you talking about!? you think that if you leave we won't worry about you? and since when were you a burden to us? did you ever heard someone say that? huh?... Did you!?" i was kind of angry now, seeing her saying she was a burden...

"n-no ... but you are always busy, we can't see each other often, we always have to run away from fans, we can't date when we want to, we can't hold each other's hand when we go out, you're too busy with your practices, interviews, radio shows or whatever, i can't even see you the morning because you always have to leave early, and soon, you'll have concerts abroad and ... and you'll be even more busy, and i'll have to go to the university and we really couldn't see each other at all. see? it's only been 1 week since we're in a relationship, but there's so many obstacles already"

"but we'll go through this together, we can do it together-"

We can do it together, right? because we love each other ... right?

"no, there's just too much things going on right now. just too much."

i didn't talk back at her and just sighed.

"will you be happy there?" i asked

she nodded "yes. my uncle lives there so i'll be okay"

At least she won't be alone.

"how... how long..." i couldn't talk much cause i was trying to look strong but i wanted to cry so much. she was leaving.

"5 years" she replied coldly and looked away. i almost gasped. my heart hurts so much right now...

Your POV

I was trying my best to not cry and quickly get over with that. i wanted him to hate me for leaving. i didn't want him to stick with me, or else i might want to stay with him. but if i stayed, i won't be able to change. i'll always be the little sister of 12 guys who always protect her. i didn't want that. as much as i loved him, i couldn't stay with him. it was for my own good. even though i was being selfish, i couldn't stay here.

I really tried to sound cold toward him. so that he would let me go. and seeing him trying to not cry was really painful. i also wanted to cry but if i did, he would have hugged me and i wouldn't want him to let me go. so i looked away. and sighed

"and when do you plan to leave?" he asked and i didn't know what to say so i randomly said

"one month" and a silence followed my words

Lay POV

One month ... I'll be leaving in one month too ... she'll probably go before me, so i don't need to tell her i'm leaving... she probably don't care, right? yep, she won't care about me anymore.

"do you really want to leave?" i tried to persuade her but she nodded her head. i stood up and sighed, then took her bag. she looked surprised

"then i'll help you pack your things up"

Your POV

Why? Why!? just why does he have to be so nice even though i said i'll be leaving for 5 years!?

seeing him putting my clothes in my bag was too much. i cried silently when he turned his back at me.

I'm so sorry, you don't deserve to be threated like that... i'm so sorry.

he lifted my bag and put it on my bed. i wipe my tears away and he turned around, facing me

"here you go... now, what do you want to do?" he asked me

"huh?"

"we still have one month, right?"

i didn't know how to react. crying with all my might, or hug him as tightly as ever and tell him i loved him...? in the end i didn't say anything and nodded.

Right, we still have one month ... one last month.