you heard the guys calling your name but you couldn't open your eyes.

"Chanjae! please wake up! i don't want to lose you, do you understand that?! you're all i have now, please don't go already. i still need you!" you wanted to cry, hearing these words coming from your brother, but you couldn't move anything.

FLASHBACK

"Guys, anyone saw my sister?" chanyeol asked

"nope, i thought you were playing together in the water just a moment ago?" Lay responded

"yeah, we were, but i came back here to answer my phone, so..." he looked around

"she probably wants to play hide and seek?" Baekhyun asked

"nah, she said she will be waiting for me on the buo-" he stopped and looked closely on what was on the buoy

"No way." he whispered and swam with all his might to where you were lying, unconscious.

END OF FLASHBACK

"you should let her alone a moment. she needs to rest" the doctor said and you heard everyone getting out of the room.

Don't go, don't leave me alone . not again...

you waited for them to come back but you couldn't so you slept.

~~~~~~6 hours later~~~~~

"you did well... you did well Chanjae-ah. that's what you wanted to hear from me. now please wake up! what do i have to do for you to open your eyes?!" you didn't move, still asleep, so Chanyeol continued, even though he didn't know if you could hear him or not. "Chanjae, i let you down so many times when we were young... and i'm so sorry for that, i swear if i could turn back to when we were 8 and 9, i would. it would have change everything, i know it. we would still have parents, now... Chanjae, please, i already lost everyone in my family, please don't leave me too! i'm sorry for every bad things i did to you, but please, wake up" and he cried slowly on your sheets.

you lifted your hand and patted his head like he used to do when you were young and he immediately raised his head.

"CHANJAE!!!" he hugged you

"i did ?" you asked

"what?" he released the hug and looked at you

"i did well? why? what did i do?" you asked confused

"haha, you're alive." he simply said and hugged you again, but tighter

"argh- i can't ... can't breathe ... oppa!" he released you and apologize.

"i am so happy you're awake now!" he tried to hide his tears

"oppa, the thing you were talking about earlier... what was that?" you asked

"huh?"

"our parents would still be alive if you could return back when we were young? why?"

"aah, that... well. do you really wanna listen to this right now?"

you nodded

"okay." he sighed and sat on the edge of the bed

FLASHBACK

you were in the back of the car with your brother. you were playing with your doll while he was playing games on his gameboy. your parents were talking about your birthday. then you accidentally drop your doll:

"oppa, can you give it to me?" you asked while pointing at your doll

"i can't. wait a moment" he answered, concentrating on his game

"come on oppa~" you whined

"Chanyeol, give the doll to your sister" your mother said

"but it's under dad's seat"

"where is it? hmmm... ah, i feel it. wait." your dad removed his seat belt so he could reach the doll under his seat. he handed it to you and started driving again, but he forgot to put his seat belt back on, and that's when a car crushed into yours.

END OF FLASHBACK

"why... i mean, i don't remember any of that, and you always told me we weren't in the car at that time" you asked more confused than ever.

"you were so young, doctors said you had amnesia, that you could be traumatized. and that it would be better if we didn't tell you the truth directly... sorry." he explained

"so why did you have to leave 2 years later?"

"we needed money to pay for the hospital fees"

"what? why? did any of us went to the hospital??"

"...you"

you were shocked

"me? why? how long did i stay there?" you started to breathe quicker

"4 months. you were unconscious for 4 months"

"so... you left to earn money and pay back uncle for the hospital fees?"

"not to pay back, to pay the hospital directly."

"huh!?"

"uncle didn't have any money, so he sent me here."

So it's all because of me at the end... it's because of me that he had to leave so young, and start to work, in a place he didn't even know, with people he didn't even know, and live in such a giant place with no connections at all!

you started to cry and he lift his head

"hey, don't cry~" he patted the back of your head "it's my fault if they're not here anymore... if only i took this doll without worrying about losing my game" he sighed

you cried even harder on his shoulder. first because he told you everything just now, then because he had a hard life because of you, and finally because he still manages to take all the blame for you, and smile everyday. you admired him even more now. he was much stronger than you thought.

"oppa, mianhae, for all the things you had to do because of me"

"yah, you only apologize now, hmm?" he tried to improve the mood and make the sadness go away

"tsh, arasso, i'll never apologize ever again if you're like that!" you pout

"aigooo~ acting like a little girl and still want to look after us, hmm?"

you hit his shoulder

"yah, it hurts!" he pretends to be badly hurt but seing you not moving an inch made him change his plan

"tickles time!" and he started to tickle you

"aaah~ !! oppa!!! stop it! okay okay! i'll stop! aaaah!!"

what you didn't know is that someone was outside the room, hearing your laugh.

you have a beautiful laugh. too bad i have to take it away from you. he thought

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guess who it is~??? it's pretty obvious, though... i'm not writing good stuff right now, am i? T_T

I'm a failure --' i was going to look for a main image but while looking on google i found "EXO BEACH" so i clicked on the link and it started to show me pics of them in LA --'

then i went on youtube (don't ask me why i don't even remember, i think it's a habit ... and i looked for "exo funny moments" ... and i spent 2 hours looking at silly videos of them ! O.o

fortunately i remembered i had to write a chap before tomorrow, so here i am!