Your POV

I ran to the restroom to clean my messed up face and stood in front of the mirror. i suddenly thought about my future

What will I become? If i keep being sick and weak like that ... what will i become?

i sighed, tired

I have to become stronger. and not cry everytime i see something touching. and also stop being dependent on my brother. he suffered enough already. I have to go to the university, study a lot, become a doctor, live well, and ... what about Lay...

i sighed again but this time it was because i was frustrated. i couldn't find any spot for him in my too-busy future life...

Maybe right now isn't the good time to have a boyfriend after all

I closed my eyes and stood like that for a long while, trying to calm myself

Lay POV

The air was really fresh here on the rooftop... From here i could see everything. the clouds, the streets, people, everything.

But i won't see any of that anymore

i sighed and thought about Chanjae

Is she mad at me? ... again? although this time i know it's my mistake for not being able to understand her... she can go back home tonight, but i'm not even sure she wants me to bring her back to the mansion. Aish~! so complicated! ... Why do i have to leave like that all of a sudden

FLASHBACK

~~~~~ back in Japan, in the car ~~~~~

"where are we going?" she asked me

"secret" i said while smiling.

she didn't insist and my phone rang. i asked her to answer it, so she did.

"hello? ... yeah, it is but he is driving... ah ye... i understand, yes... okay, bye~" she hung up

"who was it?"

"your girlfriend"

"what?"

"she wants you to 'come back home as soon as possible'..." she responded, not looking at me.

"ah~ that's my sister, pabo yah" i said and sightly hit her forehead

my sister called me back when we were about to leave Japan. she told me to come back now, but i still have promotion to make with the members and i just had a car accident for god's sake!

i told her no, but she insists, not telling me why i should come back to China assap

END OF FLASHBACK

Chanjae-ah... you know, when the doctor first met me, i told him i was your brother... i don't even know why. he even told me that you were suici-

I stopped, thinking of that. I remembered her walking away, crying.

I hope she won't do anything bad

i quickly ran downstairs, looking for her, as worried as ever, i kept shouting in the whole hospital her name but couldn't find her. i was so tired after running back and forth 4 floors ...!

i called her for the nth time but of course she wouldn't pick up. and then out of the blue, she came out from the restroom... when she saw me, she avoided my eyes but i went to her and grabbed her arm

"what is it?" i asked since she was obviously crying all this time "is it because i can't understand you that you cried?" i felt guilty. very guilty.

she shook her head but still didn't talk

"tell me" ... still no response

Your POV

Should i tell him now or not? ... i don't know what's best for me...

i kept questioning myself and he was asking for an answer i, myself, didn't have!

after a few seconds of intense reflexion, i answered him, looking straight in his eyes and he looked surprised.

"I'm going to the USA, mianhae" i said and ran away, like i always did.